I'm so lost

[Lostgirl86]

Hi people


I was born a christian, adopted right away by very jewish parents (who I loved) then became athiest. I am diagnosed with borederline personality disorder and I am a bit "slow" (please don't judge me :o) I was violent, depressed, and into self-harm, but I got much better, graduated valedictorian of the "special" school for emotional girls, got my associates in liberal arts, and am now dorming during the week as a phsych major (irony lol)
My dad, who was everything to me, meant more to me than anything else, commited suicide in our driveway this september. I always imagined something like this happening, and it always ended with me dying soon after. But now it is april and even though my mother and younger siblings are struggling emotionally and financially, they are still ok. I look ok, but as cliche as it sounds, I am dying inside.
I want to find something to believe in, but my family is so jewish that I have to visit sites in secret, even for looking things about other religions on wikkipedia They said I can not marry outside of the religion, that I have to celelbrate the holidays, my whole family is so jewish I know they would hate me if I even showed interest outside of the faith.
But I am 20 and this is not working for me. Christianity seems so warm... I like thinking that there is a god as loving as the christians'. I mean, there are lots of things I don't understand, and it is hard for me to read long articles, but I am hoping maybe I can find some answers here I dunno what to do now.
sorry for the novel, that is my personal struggle.

 

[tapero]

Hi people


I was born a christian, adopted right away by very jewish parents (who I loved) then became athiest. I am diagnosed with borederline personality disorder and I am a bit "slow" (please don't judge me :o) I was violent, depressed, and into self-harm, but I got much better, graduated valedictorian of the "special" school for emotional girls, got my associates in liberal arts, and am now dorming during the week as a phsych major (irony lol)
My dad, who was everything to me, meant more to me than anything else, commited suicide in our driveway this september. I always imagined something like this happening, and it always ended with me dying soon after. But now it is april and even though my mother and younger siblings are struggling emotionally and financially, they are still ok. I look ok, but as cliche as it sounds, I am dying inside.
I want to find something to believe in, but my family is so jewish that I have to visit sites in secret, even for looking things about other religions on wikkipedia They said I can not marry outside of the religion, that I have to celelbrate the holidays, my whole family is so jewish I know they would hate me if I even showed interest outside of the faith.
But I am 20 and this is not working for me. Christianity seems so warm... I like thinking that there is a god as loving as the christians'. I mean, there are lots of things I don't understand, and it is hard for me to read long articles, but I am hoping maybe I can find some answers here I dunno what to do now.
sorry for the novel, that is my personal struggle.

Hi beloved,

You have overcome a lot, and are doing so well. I am so excited about your education as I myself never sought it out, but you are and through such struggles that you have come through. That's awesome.

I am so sorry about your dad. I can't imagine what that is like for you and your family and I am just guessing that your feeling like you would die is related to the grieving process somehow. I don't know much about grief, however this may be a very typical or normal type of thinking after losing someone we love.

I can hear the difficulty of searching for answers when your family is adament that you do certain things.

The good news is that what you have in your heart is private and personal. In the bible it says to beleive that Jesus has died for our sins, and that He was resurrected. We are then indwelled by the Holy Spirit once we believe and we can never lose our salvation because we are sealed by the Holy Spirit indwelling us.

So you can know Jesus without others knowing. In some countries where there is much persecution it is how it is.

You can pray that your family's heart change on this matter and let you be free to seek out other Christians and church if possible. Perhaps you can get to a bible study that a church offers if you can't get to church. Of course I know you would have to do that in secret, but if you can it's an option. It's also what the persecuted Christians in China do, have house meetings to learn and grow in their faith.

Would it be safe to have a bible with all 66 books in it, the old and new testament so that you can read it? Can you get one, and keep it in a safe place so that your family doesn't know, so you can learn of God.

I would recommend the New King James version or the NIV.

God wants us to honor our families and I've no doubt that you do that, but when it comes to this issue of Christ, it causes many divisions as the word says it will. You are in no way dishonoring your family by choosing Christ.

When you choose to marry, you are of age, you will be able to choose who you love. The bible teaches us not to be unequally yoked, so in other words, if you become a Christian to marry a Christian.

I know that many struggle with difficulties because of family situations, but God will help you through all your struggles in this area, and we do at some point or another take a stand for what we believe.

So should you marry a Christian and it hurt your family, it would be a trial and hopefully not a long one, of discomfort with family. They may come to accept, or they may never come to accept.

Mainly my main point is that you can know Christ now, in your life, and no one in your family needs to know.

He changes us, it's so awesome, and we become a new person in Christ, the old has passed the new has come.

God bless you for sharing,
Love,
tapero

 

[Digit]

As Tapero has said, Christianity is a personal relationship, with a loving God. It's between you and Him, and I was the same as you when I first came to the Lord. No one else knew, I just used to sit down and spill my soul for him. At first I don't think I really felt anything different. But looking back from who I am today, I can say there is a very definite hole in my life that has been filled by God. You feel it inside, it's like you become a whole person.

I am truly sorry about your father. I cannot even come close to imagining what that may be like. I haven't seen my father for 22 years, my parents had a bad divorce and they seperated when I was young.

Your life sounds like it has a lot of promise. I am nowhere near as well educated as you. I finished high-school and didn't like education at all (I was living in South Africa at the time) and decided to start working straight away. You have done excellently so far, and I truly hope you continue. It will really open doors for you.

When it comes to love and marriage, Christianity will truly help to set a fantastic foundation for that partnership. I am due to be wed soon, and I honestly cannot imagine it without God in our lives. I was unsaved when I first met my fiance, and through her she has given me the greatest gift, that of God. Who knows how He will work in your life. I believe you will find the partner that is perfect for you, and when it happens, you will know it.

I wouldn't lose hope Lostgirl86, we are all so weak without God, yet He provides so many things for us. I don't know much about Judaism, but why do you feel that your family would be so upset? If that is the case, then perhaps gradual changes are best. But remember what we said, Christianity is a relationship between you and God. You do it for nother other reason, not family, not friends, not money, not anything. For you.

All the best,
God bless.

Digit

 

[TexasGirl06]

Hi people


I was born a christian, adopted right away by very jewish parents (who I loved) then became athiest. I am diagnosed with borederline personality disorder and I am a bit "slow" (please don't judge me :o) I was violent, depressed, and into self-harm, but I got much better, graduated valedictorian of the "special" school for emotional girls, got my associates in liberal arts, and am now dorming during the week as a phsych major (irony lol)
My dad, who was everything to me, meant more to me than anything else, commited suicide in our driveway this september. I always imagined something like this happening, and it always ended with me dying soon after. But now it is april and even though my mother and younger siblings are struggling emotionally and financially, they are still ok. I look ok, but as cliche as it sounds, I am dying inside.
I want to find something to believe in, but my family is so jewish that I have to visit sites in secret, even for looking things about other religions on wikkipedia They said I can not marry outside of the religion, that I have to celelbrate the holidays, my whole family is so jewish I know they would hate me if I even showed interest outside of the faith.
But I am 20 and this is not working for me. Christianity seems so warm... I like thinking that there is a god as loving as the christians'. I mean, there are lots of things I don't understand, and it is hard for me to read long articles, but I am hoping maybe I can find some answers here I dunno what to do now.
sorry for the novel, that is my personal struggle.

Precious LostGirl86,
I am so sorry for the loss of your Dad.
Your family has been through so much.

I am glad that you have found this website.

The God that the Christians worship....
He created You.
He loves You.
He knows what you are going through...

He has a plan for your life...
and it is a great plan.

Purpose to seek Him (and I think you already are)
...and He will be found by you.

I will pray for you,
after I submit this reply.

 

[Digit]

Lostgirl86, I would heartily recommend that you grieve for your father, but embrace a new life with God, and put it behind you. Move forward in His name. You and Him together. That is all that is important. You are not responsible for other peoples choices. That's the danger of having free will. We are at liberty to make bad decisions, just like we have all done in our lives. The Bible is a manual for life, it will show you everything you need to know, to be happy and fulfilled.

God bless!

Digit

 

[Lostgirl86]

tapero and Digit,

Thank you My confusion is because I am not sure if I have to "come out of the closet" to have real faith and have heaven to look foward to if that makes any sense. In my family, we fast, keep kosher, go to temple, and do weekend ceremonies like havdala and kidush. It never bothered me to do all that, but I feel like I have no spiritual motivation, only social and to be part of the family. I don't know if I have to go to church, read the bible for hours every day, get baptised (?) to be accepted by God. Or do I just have to believe in Jesus? I am hesitant to ask these questions and I don't know where the right place is to ask them (if there is a place here where it is more appropriate please let me know, I will look again too). I also know there are so many variants and sects, but they don't matter to me much. I just want to believe in something that makes me feel less empty, to have a sense of purpose, etc etc. I want to think that being a good person has a place in the world, and it is not just taking a gamble with your own pride and fortune. I am not sure how to say this. That is what religion would mean to me, and I think from what I understand Christ was about that. I think. lol.

MichaelJacksonFan1
Thank you for your honesty. I am afraid of that topic too. My dad was a very very good and generous and sefless man, I think what he did had alot to do with business problems. I want to believe that God would take pity on such a good person, but I am not looking for my ideal god, I am looking for the God. I dunno. I am not looking for a fix for my life, though. I know I will be in pain for a long time, and I know faith is not all sunshine and roses. But I would like to believe that there is more than just molecules and physics, and probability.

Thanks TexasGirl06 I appreciate it. I hope I will find faith lol how corny is that?

 

[Digit]

tapero and Digit,

Thank you My confusion is because I am not sure if I have to "come out of the closet" to have real faith and have heaven to look foward to if that makes any sense. In my family, we fast, keep kosher, go to temple, and do weekend ceremonies like havdala and kidush. It never bothered me to do all that, but I feel like I have no spiritual motivation, only social and to be part of the family. I don't know if I have to go to church, read the bible for hours every day, get baptised (?) to be accepted by God. Or do I just have to believe in Jesus? I am hesitant to ask these questions and I don't know where the right place is to ask them (if there is a place here where it is more appropriate please let me know, I will look again too). I also know there are so many variants and sects, but they don't matter to me much. I just want to believe in something that makes me feel less empty, to have a sense of purpose, etc etc. I want to think that being a good person has a place in the world, and it is not just taking a gamble with your own pride and fortune. I am not sure how to say this. That is what religion would mean to me, and I think from what I understand Christ was about that. I think. lol.

MichaelJacksonFan1
Thank you for your honesty. I am afraid of that topic too. My dad was a very very good and generous and sefless man, I think what he did had alot to do with business problems. I want to believe that God would take pity on such a good person, but I am not looking for my ideal god, I am looking for the God. I dunno. I am not looking for a fix for my life, though. I know I will be in pain for a long time, and I know faith is not all sunshine and roses. But I would like to believe that there is more than just molecules and physics, and probability.

Thanks TexasGirl06 I appreciate it. I hope I will find faith lol how corny is that?

Hi Lostgirl86 ,

In regards to what you need to do, and this is the thing I find most exciting about Christianity, you just need to ask God to come into your life. That's it. There are many things people do during, what Christians call, their walk with God, which further their faith. But the one step that we all take, is that of asking for forgiveness. For me it happened when I spoke to my Mum one evening, and she asked me if I had accepted Christ. I was unsure, and she told me what to do.

She basically said, that all I needed to do, was pray, talk to God, tell him about my sins and ask for forgiveness. I think I said something like, "Dear Heavenly Father, I have blasphemed against you, I have lied, stolen and am unworthy of Your forgiveness. But I ask it, because I want to change my life, my ways and live a life that would honor You. You have offered forgiveness to any who ask, please forgive me of my sins, cleanse this body and mind, and take control of my spirit. I surrender myself to You, in Your Name, Amen."

After that, my life has never been better. That's not saying I've not had hard times, it's saying more that without God, I don't know if I could have gotten back up after those hard times knocked me down.

Your prayer can be as simple or as complex as you wish. It should have three main parts though: Confessing your sins, everything you recall, either in detail or under a category like "Lying", asking for forgiveness and asking God into your life, thanking Him for hearing you. Take your time, it's a big step, I think you will know if it's right. I really hope this has helped you, and I wish you all the very best. My PM inbox is always open.

Romans 10:13
For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.

Digit

Edit: To clarify your questions about church going, and baptism and so on. These are things people do to further their walk with God. It's rare that someone does a complete 180 in their life and takes on all these things, although it's not unheard of. My point is that you should not feel bad if you do not embrace everything at once. The one thing about church however, which I found to be very positive, is that often Christians say, "God's Word convicts." The reason for this is that by hearing about God, and reading the Bible, you are exposed to God's Word, and through His Word often you will find deeper meaning and realisations of your life. This in turn, will bring you closer to God. And it's sort of a repeating cycle really.

 

[tapero]

tapero and Digit,

Thank you My confusion is because I am not sure if I have to "come out of the closet" to have real faith and have heaven to look foward to if that makes any sense. In my family, we fast, keep kosher, go to temple, and do weekend ceremonies like havdala and kidush. It never bothered me to do all that, but I feel like I have no spiritual motivation, only social and to be part of the family. I don't know if I have to go to church, read the bible for hours every day, get baptised (?) to be accepted by God. Or do I just have to believe in Jesus? I am hesitant to ask these questions and I don't know where the right place is to ask them (if there is a place here where it is more appropriate please let me know, I will look again too). I also know there are so many variants and sects, but they don't matter to me much. I just want to believe in something that makes me feel less empty, to have a sense of purpose, etc etc. I want to think that being a good person has a place in the world, and it is not just taking a gamble with your own pride and fortune. I am not sure how to say this. That is what religion would mean to me, and I think from what I understand Christ was about that. I think. lol.

MichaelJacksonFan1
Thank you for your honesty. I am afraid of that topic too. My dad was a very very good and generous and sefless man, I think what he did had alot to do with business problems. I want to believe that God would take pity on such a good person, but I am not looking for my ideal god, I am looking for the God. I dunno. I am not looking for a fix for my life, though. I know I will be in pain for a long time, and I know faith is not all sunshine and roses. But I would like to believe that there is more than just molecules and physics, and probability.

Thanks TexasGirl06 I appreciate it. I hope I will find faith lol how corny is that?

Hi hon,

You don't have to come out of the closet to your family about your faith. I guess you live in the usa, but in many Jewish families this is a big problem. I would first develop a relationship with God, with Jesus. I wouldn't worry about church or baptism. Neither saves us, nor does reading the bible 3 hours a day.

But to get to know God, reading the bible is how to do it. Just as you talk to a friend, it is by reading the bible and prayer is how you get to know God.

For a Christian it is Jesus, who is God. It is Jesus we need believe in and believe that He was resurrected. It is all that is needed is to come to Christ, and it sounds like God is calling you.

Again, all the other things do not save us.

Going to church, if you possibly can or finding some sort of small biblestudy will enable you to grow as well as have support in your walk, with the many questions that do arise as we learn about God and make friends as well.

This thread you posted in is struggles by non Christians. Another good place is questions by non Christians within this same forum.

Another thing we can do, is find a congregation forum and make it [open] so that you can post in it. I'm not sure which one though, there are so many and I don't know much about them all, just a few.

What you can do, is if you have time is find the congregation forums, and read through some of their posts. It may give you an idea of which you might like to write in.

Non denominational has many differnt types of believers there and it might be a good choice to start with.

God bless you,
I am subscribed to this thread, so will see your reply.
Love,
tapero

 

[ShiningSonBeam]

Lostgirl, the beautiful thing about your family's religeon is that Jesus Himself was brought up a Jew and taught in the Temple at an early age. What the Jews didn't realize, though, is that Jesus was the Messiah they had been waiting for all these generations. He would grow up, minister to thousands, die on the cross, and break the chains of death by rising up on the third day. You see, Jesus IS God in the flesh... the Son of God. And once we accept His free gift of eternal life (by asking forgiveness and asking Him to be Lord of our life), the Holy Spirit helps to guide us in this life. This is what is referred to as the Trinity: God the Father, God the Son (Jesus) and God the Holy Spirit. He is a beautiful, loving, Just, Creator of all... worthy of our praise!

As for Jesus being the Messiah, just take a look at the prophecies you no doubt have learned in your lifetime... that He would be a descendant of King David, born in Bethlehem, etc. All of the pieces fit perfectly. It is a shame that some Jews have not fully realized their faith. But you can have a deeper connection with your family than you thought possible simply because their faith is essentially your faith 2,000 years ago (pre-Christ).

 

[TexasGirl06]

LostGirl86... There are Messianic Jewish Congregations all throughout the USA. These are Jewish people who still practice the Jewish traditions that you spoke about... but, they also acknowledge Jesus as the Promised Messiah.

I went to one of these Congregations one time..... on Christmas Eve. It was awesome.

Perhaps there is one of these Messianic Jewish Congregations near your home.
I would think that would be an excellent start for you.

There is a Messianic Jewish area on this website, also.

 

[HisArrow]

Hi
I'm so very sorry about your Dad. I use to have a Jewish boyfriend but his mother wanted him to date Jewish girls. I would like to tell you of a organization whose members are jewish but bbthey also believe in Jesus as theiir Messiah. It is Jews for Jesus and they probably have a website. Remkember Jesus was a Jew also and he said that those who believe in him are spiritual jews and that is what counts. Also rememthat Jesus is not religious, He does not care if you are Luthern, Roman Catholic, Muslim, a Jew etc. What Jesus is concern with is if a person has him in his heart and life. Ever since I asked him in, he has protected me, help me cared for me, etc. Read Psalms 121. I will be praying for you that the lord will guide your path to HIM. God Bless and have a nice day!!!!

 

[liketotalk]

Have you heard of Sid Roth? He has a show called "That's Supernatural". He and some of his guests are Jewish, but they believe in Yeshua as Messiah and they didn't always believe that way.

I've watched a few times in the past and I know he has wonderful resources for Jewish people who want to learn about Jesus. He is really on fire for the Lord. I like him.

I am so sorry about all that you are going through.

 

[heron]

I don't know if I have to go to church, read the bible for hours every day, get baptised (?) to be accepted by God. Or do I just have to believe in Jesus?

You can really go around in your head with this, because there's truth to both.

Think about it from a relationship standpoint -- if you were thinking about marrying someone, you wouldn't just plan to appreciate who he is, but to involve him in much of your life. There wouldn't be much sense to the commitment if you respected him from afar.

So yes, when Jesus offers salvation it is a gift that we accept -- but there isn't much sense to the gift unless we continue spending time with Him. I'm sure you already have that sense about it. Just keep spending time seeking Him, the way you already are.

SITES
Here is a fairly safe site to visit, with short updates of reading -- it's a place where people post and pray for prayer requests.
http://www.24-7prayer.com/cm/wailingwall

Jews for Jesus, an article and streaming video on Christ in the Passover
http://www.jewsforjesus.org/programs/cip

Audio messages from a Christian who researches the Jewish culture to find meaning in the Old and New Testaments
http://www.voiceofevangelism.org/audio_messages.cfm
The Ancient Temple Teaching
A Strategy for Family Salvation (lol!)
Entering the Season of Answered Prayers

So you can know Jesus without others knowing. In some countries where there is much persecution it is how it is.

You can pray that your family's heart change on this matter and let you be free to seek out other Christians and church if possible.

So true.

 

[tapero]

Hi people


I was born a christian, adopted right away by very jewish parents (who I loved) then became athiest. I am diagnosed with borederline personality disorder and I am a bit "slow" (please don't judge me :o) I was violent, depressed, and into self-harm, but I got much better, graduated valedictorian of the "special" school for emotional girls, got my associates in liberal arts, and am now dorming during the week as a phsych major (irony lol)
My dad, who was everything to me, meant more to me than anything else, commited suicide in our driveway this september. I always imagined something like this happening, and it always ended with me dying soon after. But now it is april and even though my mother and younger siblings are struggling emotionally and financially, they are still ok. I look ok, but as cliche as it sounds, I am dying inside.
I want to find something to believe in, but my family is so jewish that I have to visit sites in secret, even for looking things about other religions on wikkipedia They said I can not marry outside of the religion, that I have to celelbrate the holidays, my whole family is so jewish I know they would hate me if I even showed interest outside of the faith.
But I am 20 and this is not working for me. Christianity seems so warm... I like thinking that there is a god as loving as the christians'. I mean, there are lots of things I don't understand, and it is hard for me to read long articles, but I am hoping maybe I can find some answers here I dunno what to do now.
sorry for the novel, that is my personal struggle.

Hi, I posted earlier, but have a question to see if you are interested. There is a Messianic forum on cf under congregation. These are either gentiles or Jewish people that believe that Jesus is the Messiah. There is a flavor, well tons of it, of Judaism of course which is wonderful.

If you like I can post a thread there so you can post questions there for those who are Jewish or gentile, and they can help you also. I would have to open it for you, due to your icon, would need to be an [open] thread.

The reason I'm writing this, as it might help you since you are so familiar already being raised in a Jewish family, it might be nice to ask questions with others who also keep Jewish days, etc.

You can either pm me, or just leave a message here and I'll open a thread for you and send you a pm.

God bless,
tapero

 

[x0xJesusIsLovex0x]

Wow, thanks for sharing. It looks like your life has encouraged my life to live longer and not do anything stupid. It seem like your strong, and I can be strong too.
Thanks.

 

[childofGod31]

To be a Christian,
first you should find the Bible (New Testament) and read it. (there are online Bible's, like "blue letter bible" (just type in search engine).

Faith comes from reading the Word of God. So read it and tell God in your own words that you want to find Him.

Jeremiah 29:13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

You can send me a private message and we can talk. I can explain everything I know about Jesus and God (if you like).

When you "find" Jesus and believe in Him, then you will have to confess Him. (If anyone asks you, you will have to say that you believe in Jesus)

Romans 10:9 That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord", and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.

I wouldn't mention anything to your family, UNTIL you are a very SURE Believer in Christ and have accepted Him as your Lord, because you will need all His help for the coming struggles. (because Christians are often persecuted for their faith)

 

[tapero]

tapero and Digit,

Thank you My confusion is because I am not sure if I have to "come out of the closet" to have real faith and have heaven to look foward to if that makes any sense. In my family, we fast, keep kosher, go to temple, and do weekend ceremonies like havdala and kidush. It never bothered me to do all that, but I feel like I have no spiritual motivation, only social and to be part of the family. I don't know if I have to go to church, read the bible for hours every day, get baptised (?) to be accepted by God. Or do I just have to believe in Jesus? I am hesitant to ask these questions and I don't know where the right place is to ask them (if there is a place here where it is more appropriate please let me know, I will look again too). I also know there are so many variants and sects, but they don't matter to me much. I just want to believe in something that makes me feel less empty, to have a sense of purpose, etc etc. I want to think that being a good person has a place in the world, and it is not just taking a gamble with your own pride and fortune. I am not sure how to say this. That is what religion would mean to me, and I think from what I understand Christ was about that. I think. lol.

Hi hon, In Israel itself it is against the law to preach Christiantiy. In persecuted countries such as China, people can not go freely about and confess Jesus publicly, well they can but they would be put in prison, and the gospel would not be spread, except in prison which is done.

So what happens is they hook up with underground home churches and this way the gospel spreads. Now if directly asked do you believe in Jesus, I myself would answer yes, in that situation.

Though it's possible I might be weak at that moment and not answer.

In the murders at columbine high school a Christian was asked if she believed in Christ. She said yes, and was killed.. Praise to God for her testimony.

However, even the disciples said I do notknow Him (Jesus), after He was crucified and before His resurrection. Prior to this some knew He was God, if not all, I'm a bit rusty there.

Yes, this is a good place for your post. Yes, you can just tell God that you believe, that you believe in Jesus, that he died for your sins and was resurrected. You can do that anywhere at any time. There is no other requirements to become saved. The rest is about growth (church or bible study) but you may be unable to do such without great secrecy, and you may find yourself doing it in secrecy. Many do. Also the Lords supper and baptism, which do not save in any way. I was baptised a year after I came to Christ, and I never get to do the Lord's supper due to the fact that I am not at church the 2 days of the year that it's done. I do it at home.

You don't have to read the bible for hours, but God will put a hunger in you, so that you will want to read about Him, so don't worry about that either.

You only have to believe in Jesus as you wrote above, and not the other things. If you can get a bible to learn about God then this is very good. If it's not safe to, then for now, just pray to God and He will help and guide you.

You are in a very difficult situation.

A lot depends on your relationship with your parents. If you were to tell them how you feel, and that you have come to know Christ as Savior, depending on their reaction it could result in many thngs. You do not have to tell them. You will find others who also know Christ and recieve help that way.

Again hon, people will ask you to jump thru hoops to know Christ, but it's just a matter of believing in Jesus, that He died for our sins and that He was resurrected.

The Holy Spirit will indwell you then and guide you into all truth. However, we do need help from brothers and sisters in Christ, but you may not be able to have this for a time. Reading the bible will help you to learn more about God, about Jesus. You will change on the inside, and the angels will rejoice over your salvation, and you will learn many things, and see the world thru different eyes than you've ever seen before.

I read about persecuted Christians, so just knowing the situation you are in is why I speak so as I am speaking. I know it's very difficult with a family who is Jewish, as they see Christ in a negative light; so it's very difficult.

By the way on the board are Jewish believers in Christ.

If you ever want me to connect you with them let me know. However some follow things that I do not follow, so in that regard it would you would need to determine for yourself by reading the bible, what you should or should not do in regards to certain issues. If you have more questions on this I can help.

I love my brothers and sisters of all denominations and we all just have differnences over some issues. However Jesus is not one of those differnces. All Christians,messianics believes believe that Jesus is God, died for our sins, and was resurrected.

Also not all Jewish believers in Christ believe the same things about other issues as some other Jewish people do.

But if I bring you to a particular forum, I would suspect that you would find those who are or were in similar situations as yours and could help that way.

Blessings,
praying for you,
tapero

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[SpiritPsalmist]

Lostgirl86,

I encourage you to visit the Messianic Judism part of this forum. There you will find many Jews and non-Jews who follow Torah and believe that Yeshua/Jesus is Messiah.

 

[Tishri1]

Your in such a great place because the Festivals, and Shabbat, mean EVERYTHING, when you have the one who brings meaning to life, living in your heart!!!! I guarentee this life in Yeshua is the greatest adventure you will ever enter, whether Jew or Gentile... and because I know you are Jewish I can assure you the adventure of walking with Jesus(Yeshua) in the customs and gifts of your ancestory is amaising

Hi people I was born a christian, adopted right away by very jewish parents (who I loved) then became athiest. I am diagnosed with borederline personality disorder and I am a bit "slow" (please don't judge me :o) I was violent, depressed, and into self-harm, but I got much better, graduated valedictorian of the "special" school for emotional girls, got my associates in liberal arts, and am now dorming during the week as a phsych major (irony lol)
My dad, who was everything to me, meant more to me than anything else, commited suicide in our driveway this september. I always imagined something like this happening, and it always ended with me dying soon after.

Please understand that ABBA never destined this for your life or your father's either ...I will pray for you sweet heart, that your broken heart will be healed by a Savior's love, who has your precious life in the palm of his hands

But now it is april and even though my mother and younger siblings are struggling emotionally and financially, they are still ok. I look ok, but as cliche as it sounds, I am dying inside.
I want to find something to believe in, but my family is so jewish that I have to visit sites in secret, even for looking things about other religions on wikkipedia They said I can not marry outside of the religion, that I have to celelbrate the holidays, my whole family is so jewish I know they would hate me if I even showed interest outside of the faith.

I understand, and what Tapero has already said is true, this relationship with your savior is oh soooooo personal, and you enter into it thru your heart ...a place no one else owns but you. Pray for your Family, they may be next to meet their Savior

But I am 20 and this is not working for me. Christianity seems so warm... I like thinking that there is a god as loving as the christians'. I mean, there are lots of things I don't understand, and it is hard for me to read long articles, but I am hoping maybe I can find some answers here I dunno what to do now.sorry for the novel, that is my personal struggle.

Imajine sitting at Pasach next year with your family and friends, and with such a glow in your heart knowing that Yeshua lead you out of this impossible time of your life like Moshe lead the Jews thru the Sea....Your facing such an incredibly hard time right now let Yeshua carry you in his arms...give him your heart, he will bring it to life again

I'm here for you , please PM me for anything
I love you Sis

 

[Gardener101]

Hi people


I was born a christian, adopted right away by very jewish parents (who I loved) then became athiest. I am diagnosed with borederline personality disorder and I am a bit "slow" (please don't judge me :o) I was violent, depressed, and into self-harm, but I got much better, graduated valedictorian of the "special" school for emotional girls, got my associates in liberal arts, and am now dorming during the week as a phsych major (irony lol)
My dad, who was everything to me, meant more to me than anything else, commited suicide in our driveway this september. I always imagined something like this happening, and it always ended with me dying soon after. But now it is april and even though my mother and younger siblings are struggling emotionally and financially, they are still ok. I look ok, but as cliche as it sounds, I am dying inside.
I want to find something to believe in, but my family is so jewish that I have to visit sites in secret, even for looking things about other religions on wikkipedia They said I can not marry outside of the religion, that I have to celelbrate the holidays, my whole family is so jewish I know they would hate me if I even showed interest outside of the faith.
But I am 20 and this is not working for me. Christianity seems so warm... I like thinking that there is a god as loving as the christians'. I mean, there are lots of things I don't understand, and it is hard for me to read long articles, but I am hoping maybe I can find some answers here I dunno what to do now.
sorry for the novel, that is my personal struggle.