i'm so confused!

[BlackRain]

a while back i had feelings for a friend of mine. we both like eachother, but we chose to do nothing about it because we wanted to keep our friendship and as the past shows he's not always the kindest person when it comes to ex girlfriends. also, i don't think he's the one for me or at least that's what i thought God was telling me...until now. i know, date him...see what it's like. we live a while away from eachother. also, i'm not sure i want to risk our friendship. it's just getting back to normal after our many disagreements and months of silence. it's been rough being friends with him. but i still go back. he still returns. so, today he sent me an email about how he's willing to give us a chance and he'll wait as long as it takes. great! NO! it's up to me, which is not where i want it to be. he seems like he's changed, but i'm not sure because i haven't spent a whole lot of face to face time with him in a while and we usually just talk on the phone. i'm soo busy this summer! i don't have time to go down and see him and i don't have time for him to come up here. i need wisdom and dicernment. he wrote very passionately about Christ in this email as well. something i haven't seen in months. he's been backsliding for the past, well...the whole time i've known him. i'm stuck..again. i should have just kept my mouth shut about liking him a while back. i knew this would come and catch up with me. i'm at loss for words. i have no idea what to tell him. i'm absolutely speechless. i don't know what i'm thinking, seriously! i'm in complete shock. i just ask for prayer. thanks.

 

[JPPT1974]

Praying that he will come back to the Lord. That he could and will be reconcile to Jesus. That email was headed in the first and very important step. Will be prayng for you and him as well.