i'm so afraid.

[tillyanne]

I don't feel safe. My mom is sick and nobody can figure it out, I have exams, the flashbacks are coming back and i'm alone at least for a couple of hours.

I hate this. I would do anything to escape this. I can't even pray, or read my bible and I don't know why. That scares me too.

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, dear one! And for your mum.
You are not alone... ever, however bad you feel.
Are you on msn? PM me your address if you want to talk, k?

 

[EbonNelumbo]

Oh sweetie I am so sorry. I can relate to you on the mother being sick aspect. My mom has cancer, so I know what kind of pain a sick loved one can bring. I found out when I was in high school, and it certainly didn't make college any easier for me.

I can see you are terrified by your circumstances, by the unknown, but God is with you. I am here should you EVER want to talk, that is an open invitation, tillyanne, I am here.

-Hallee

 

[Spirithappy]

You are not alone and being afraid is normal. Even the men and woman of the bible were always afraid. Jesus constantly told the disciples "Fear not". It is normal to be afriad, God loves you so much and already knows the results of all test and exams. Either way he wil not leave you alone. God loves you..and i mean it

 

[andrew.wills]

Hi tilly, Dont worry.
Everything will be allright and there is nothing to fear. You have wonderful people around you and you should believe in yourself.

Praying for you and your mom.....

 

[Criada]

How are you, sweetie?

Praying for you, and for your mom.

 

[tillyanne]

thanks. Mum is a little better, i'm still terrified.
How long can a person live in constant fear? this has got to be bad for me.

 

[Jeshu]

I don't feel safe. My mom is sick and nobody can figure it out, I have exams, the flashbacks are coming back and i'm alone at least for a couple of hours.

I hate this. I would do anything to escape this. I can't even pray, or read my bible and I don't know why. That scares me too.

Please follow this instruction -

TURN AROUND YOU ARE LOOKING THE WRONG WAY THAT'S WHY YOU ARE SO SCARED!!

My dear Satan is trying to intimidate you that is why you can't read the Bible or pray - he has hemmed you in.

One solution only

TURN AROUND AND LOOK AT THE LOVING TRUTH OF JESUS!

The moment you turn away from looking at your fears - and say/call/whisper/think/shout/scream whatever the Name - Jesus you will be safe -

Keep looking at Jesus though and don't listen to guilt, shame, or any insecurity for then fear will bite again (Just turn around again, and so in no time you will stay with Jesus, for He is VERY good and eager to help you out! (whatever fear may scream at you - choose not to heed it - hold onto the truth of Christ's loving grace instead!

Praying you find His Peace! (He's beside you!)


Gerry

 

[tillyanne]

Can you guys keep praying?
I feel like God is protecting me again, but I feel so discouraged right now. I really need some medication but I can't get into a specialist for months, and I don't know how I will make it that long. I just want this to be over so much, but as much as I try, as much as I journal and throw myself into therapy it is taking SO long.

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

You hang in there Tillyanne, it sounds like you just have to get your support network set up, that takes time and money. You need a psychiatrist and probably a therapist, to curb your anxiety. You hang in there, remember God loves you, and one of the ten comandments says honor your mother and Father and you shall live long on the Earth. That is a promise from the bible, and you can try to believe that if you like. I got to admit I always had a hard time believing that one, but you might find it comforting. Well keep us posted on how you are doing!

 

[Lakercom]

Prayers, Tillyanne. Your fears and feelings are real so consider them as a sacrifice to the Lord; I am trying to do that. He may not take you right out of your circumstances but he can see you through them.

I often feel guilty that I cannot do much work, or much of anything "productive", for that matter but, with God, a little can be a lot and I find that encouraging. Your endurance and longsuffering can be an encouragement to others, even those you may not be aware of, and God knows the beginning from the end. Think how beautiful and perfect our heavenly bodies (and minds) will be!

 

[Jeshu]

thanks. Mum is a little better, i'm still terrified.
How long can a person live in constant fear? this has got to be bad for me.

Please know fear takes you to experiencing the Hellish - ask Jesus for His ability - He sweated blood - and still stays focussed locking evil up and releasing the prisoners and setting them free - that's what we need to overcome fear as well! His ability - ask and you shall be given a seed grow it in faith and soon you will have food galore even when fear grills you - ability to pray for those overcome by it!


Praying you see what I mean!


Ps 27
The LORD is my light and my salvation--whom shall I fear?The LORD is the stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid? 2 When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me,they will stumble and fall. 3 Though an army besiege me,my heart will not fear;though war break out against me,even then will I be confident.
4 One thing I ask of the LORD,this is what I seek:that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. 5 For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling;he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. 6 Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me;at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD;be merciful to me and answer me. 8 My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"Your face, LORD, I will seek. 9 Do not hide your face from me,do not turn your servant away in anger;you have been my helper.Do not reject me or forsake me,O God my Savior. 10 Though my father and mother forsake me,the LORD will receive me. 11 Teach me your way, O LORD;lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors. 12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,for false witnesses rise up against me,breathing out violence.
13 I am still confident of this:I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. 14 Wait for the LORD;be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
NIV