Heloo folks.i have bipolar disorder.i can get into things that intereset me but i wouldnt say obssesed .I have in past when very ill had delusions an get fixated/obbseesd at the time but havent been told im OCD. I have so many issues so please bear with me as i dont know where to begin.since finding my faith again an peace atlast,God Bless the lord,im having trouble with other peopels reaction to my faith.my family an close friend are confusing me so much i cant bear it anymore,.I do understand they ghave concerns as i do have a illness.my sister has OCD.Both my parents have mental health issues also,so im up on my subject so to speak.I left home an moved away to distance myself from my family as they are rather dsyfunctional,they dont know i think this.i do love them though.I found there ways didnt help me in my recovery of my illness.i have kept my faith to myself really up until now.I told mum really as i want to atlast baptise my 8yr old into the catholic church. BAD MOVE!! my parents are convinced im ill.they say i have religious mania.they called my church friends.they told my ex hubby who is catholic but a non believer now an he isnt happy now as he dont want our son baptised.I put it off for years due to family disputes.I had no idea this would be the reaction.mum says ive joined a cult,catholics are evil.sons dad wont let my son go church.Im broken hearted.i cant eat,sleep now.im NOT ILL.iF I AM, ok time will tell an well i say sorry,but i have searched my soul,prayed,spoken to my doctor even.he says faith is personal an take no notice of mum.he dont realise how scared i am of her.I feel in catch 22.if i say to much,im accussed of being over top for praying daily.if i say nothing im ill.mum said she is my next of kin an can call doctor/hospital.Im 43.I have never had a voice.I live a quiet life.God an my faith have brought me peace an love at last.Is this so wrong.im not OCD like mum says.im scared now.I cant take son to church,he cant be baptised an he upset,as he loves God in his way.I have to pretend to be someone else.i hide books,etc. My mum is a methodist who dont go church.so she is christian.why is she judge me an the church so harsely.How do i manage thsi folks.Im praying an this helps.but the more they get onto me the more i fear an doubt myself as im used to being brainwashed by them.what mum say ,is the truth she says.She says its harm my son.Im a good person.I have an illness.im intellegent.i take my pills i have been well for ages.I dont force my views on anyone. I cant give up my faith.this matter has to be dealt with some how.thanks so much for reading even if you camnt help.it helps just to talk.i cant tell anyone as i feel i must keep my head down an have no christian friends either.
