My husband and I are in the mist of a raging war it feels like for the past five years. The last two have been the hardest. We have only been married for 5 years. I beleive in marriage and what it stands for. I however need honestly and truth. I don't know if I want to fight for this anymore. My husband says he wants a fresh start. Im very hurt and very confused and to be quite honest with you, im tired of being lied to cheated on and verbaly abused. Yes I am a christian and I with my whole heart beleive in marriage. But Im affraid of allowing this to go on. I want to smile again and laugh and feel like I am loved. My kids need me to be there for them and right now I stink at being a mom. Please I need a fresh look at this and a heart to hear from the Lord. Im too confused right now. Please if anyone has any prayers or advise. I can sure use it.


