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Anne1
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For a while I stopped coming here, I still went to church and did everything I used to do but my relationship with God was not the same. I know Him, I believe He is who He says He is but something is not there. I used to have this great relationship with God. Then everything went wrong. Everything went wrong in my life and I pleaded with God to hold me, to help me, but the harder I tried the more my life fell apart. I started questioning God, not his existence, just why is He allowing all this. I wrote more than once, not understanding, feeling He deserted me. Our relationship suffered a great deal. I still went to church, still in charge of the children's ministry, still on the board of various charities, but I prayed less, read my bible less. My life seemed to get better. I went through a stage that I had a lot less problems. But it bothered me, I wanted my relationship with God back. I started praying again, reading my bible again. But everything has gone wrong again, my life is falling apart, it seems that everything I touch goes bad. Is there no break, is this how it's gonna be, If I want God in my life is everything else gonna fall apart?