Im ashamed of myself:(

[Jo1]

Hi been struggling in this area. Now im permently wearing an elastic band round my wrist and when I feel really low, I use it. Been doing this for last couple of months.
Sometimes I post when I really feel like I want to hurt myself.
I dont know how I got to the point where I had to start doing this really.
Like I have to protect myself from me. I hide it away, I wear it when I go work and if it slips down I quickly pull it up cos i dont want anyone to notice. I dont feel that no one understands in real life U know how I really feel. So I dont really talk to anyone about it really. When everything gets too painful I start, u know like circumstances in your life that hurt you know. I guess its just a constant reminder that my life hurts.

 

[Jo1]

I guess its kind of satisfying in a weird sort of way I mean so my arms get read and feel soreI know if you can do it too much it can cause bruises

 

[Ariel]

I am not ashamed of you, Jo. You are a lovely, caring person, and I am proud to know you.

 

[Jo1]

my arms are red and lumpy

 

[SantasElf]

God bless you. You are a great person!

 

[KayLeeRoo]

i know how you feel, about nobody realy caring. i felt the same way for years. what really helped me was i went to counsiling with my pastors wife. and i really started to feel loved by her then by so many more people in my life, it also gave me some one to hold me accontable, to ask me how i am doing (and as more then just a greeting).

 

[xxdestinyy]

God made you, so don't be ashamed of what God made.

You're a beautiful, precious person. Don't be ashamed of yourself.

I know what you mean by having to hide it away. And it's ok to feel that way, but it's also good that you can come and talk to people here.

God bless you!

 

[Jo1]

thanx everyone
im just not satisfied till my arms are red

 

[Jesusfreak4life8629]

Hi been struggling in this area. Now im permently wearing an elastic band round my wrist and when I feel really low, I use it. Been doing this for last couple of months.
Sometimes I post when I really feel like I want to hurt myself.
I dont know how I got to the point where I had to start doing this really.
Like I have to protect myself from me. I hide it away, I wear it when I go work and if it slips down I quickly pull it up cos i dont want anyone to notice. I dont feel that no one understands in real life U know how I really feel. So I dont really talk to anyone about it really. When everything gets too painful I start, u know like circumstances in your life that hurt you know. I guess its just a constant reminder that my life hurts.

Oh, Jo. I know exactly how you feel, like no one understands. It's a really horrible feeling, but, You have to try to rely on God(I am speaking to myself, too) I know, you want to deal with it by yourself and you don't want anyone to know, but, you have to get help somehow. Go see a counselor, talk to your Pastor, just do something to help yourself, please?

I am praying for you, sweetie.

 

[Jo1]

Oh, Jo. I know exactly how you feel, like no one understands. It's a really horrible feeling, but, You have to try to rely on God(I am speaking to myself, too) I know, you want to deal with it by yourself and you don't want anyone to know, but, you have to get help somehow. Go see a counselor, talk to your Pastor, just do something to help yourself, please?

I am praying for you, sweetie.

thankyou im just going to go and see another counselor again as mine finished at docs. God bless u thanks for posting