I want to go to Heaven soon

[irenevictoria]

I used to enjoy life until recently. Now I live in constant fear, stress, anxiety, and depression. I pray to God to take it away and to restore my ability to enjoy life.
My parents and a lot of other loved ones have died, things in my life keep going wrong, and I feel obligated by God to give up a lot of things I enjoy doing.
I'm tired of it all. Now I keep hoping I'll die and go to Heaven soon even though I'm 39 years old.
I know suicide isn't the way to go. I'm afraid of what God might do to me if I did that, and there are friends and relatives who would be devastated.
My cat is my only reason to live. She's 17 and has special medical needs. I'm afraid that if I precede her in death, she might not get the care she needs. I just hope my time comes very soon after hers.
I accept Christ as my lord and savior, and hope I'm on the book of life.

Hi David. Maybe you need medical attention. I was diagnosed with mood disorder with psychotic features. It was hard. I now have meds which make me functional and better. I'm sorry for your many losses. There's a reason why we all have tough lives at one time or another. We are here to learn and grow. And these tough times help us do that. Sincerely, if you have it tough, and decide to go, I don't think He's gonna punish you because you're suffering. God loves you. You're his child. He won't make you suffer even more. But the reason why you're here, your personal purpose or mission won't be fulfilled if you end your life before it's your time to go. We're not here for the ride. We're not here by accident. It is a serious business. If you kill yourself, if you go to heaven, what will you say? It was just too hard. I think it's possible that with unfinished business, you'll just come right back as a baby again. That's why they say suicide isn't the way to go, that it won't solve your problem. Our life is for a good reason. Besides, you won't suffer every day of your life. Time will come when your suffering will end. Just wait.

 

[DavidTheGnome]

God seems to be on a constant prowl for excuses to punish me. Any imperfection in anything I do seems to be punishable dirt on me.
I ask God to forgive me for everything about me, but He seems to want me to pay all my debts with interest.
I've been having to deodorize my tires frequently lately. This is the second weekend in a row I've had to do it. Dead animals are complicating my driving routes, 2 of my teeth are chipped, and my dentist is out of action because of a stroke, so I'm going to have to get a new one.
I ask God to stop punishing me and to stop being angry at me, and I immediately get a mental picture of Him yelling "NO!!!" or saying "But I enjoy it so much."
I try not to believe it, but I sometimes get the feeling that if God and Lucifer were to put their differences aside and unite against anyone, it'd be me.

 

[Grip Docility]

God seems to be on a constant prowl for excuses to punish me. Any imperfection in anything I do seems to be punishable dirt on me.
I ask God to forgive me for everything about me, but He seems to want me to pay all my debts with interest.
I've been having to deodorize my tires frequently lately. This is the second weekend in a row I've had to do it. Dead animals are complicating my driving routes, 2 of my teeth are chipped, and my dentist is out of action because of a stroke, so I'm going to have to get a new one.
I ask God to stop punishing me and to stop being angry at me, and I immediately get a mental picture of Him yelling "NO!!!" or saying "But I enjoy it so much."
I try not to believe it, but I sometimes get the feeling that if God and Lucifer were to put their differences aside and unite against anyone, it'd be me.

Satan, indeed messed up a perfect thing. God will rectify all, on the final day. In the mean time, Moth and Rust decay. That which returns to dust smells putrid during the process.

It’s time you tell Satan to get thee behind you! God has nothing to do with your woes. I assure you this! He weeps as you experience pain. He will comfort you. Trust that it is not Him. Can you do this? If you can’t do this, it’s all good, even still… tell Him to do this for you, and I assure you that He will.

 

[Strong in Him]

God seems to be on a constant prowl for excuses to punish me. Any imperfection in anything I do seems to be punishable dirt on me.
I ask God to forgive me for everything about me, but He seems to want me to pay all my debts with interest.
I've been having to deodorize my tires frequently lately. This is the second weekend in a row I've had to do it. Dead animals are complicating my driving routes, 2 of my teeth are chipped, and my dentist is out of action because of a stroke, so I'm going to have to get a new one.
I ask God to stop punishing me and to stop being angry at me, and I immediately get a mental picture of Him yelling "NO!!!" or saying "But I enjoy it so much."
I try not to believe it, but I sometimes get the feeling that if God and Lucifer were to put their differences aside and unite against anyone, it'd be me.

I'm sorry but I don't know what else to say.

God is NOT punishing you.
Jesus wouldn't have died in agony for your sins if God was just going to say "you have upset me; have cancer/unemployment/poor mental health etc as a punishment."

There is NO WAY God would say "I enjoy punishing you too much".
God is love. Go and read 1 Corinthians 13:4-7. Love is patient, love is kind, love does not dishonor others, it does not delight in evil, it always hopes, trusts, etc.

If you are unable to believe this - and I think you must be as many have told you, you "like" their posts and yet keep posting the same things - either you have some kind of mental health problem, a mental blockage, some deep trauma that requires you to blame God for everything or the devil is getting at you.
Maybe all of the above.

I'm going to unsubscribe from this thread.
Sorry, but I am not a therapist, disagree with nearly all your conclusions and don't know what else to say that might help.

Jesus came to bring fulness of life - abundant life. That doesn't mean absolutely everything in this life will be perfect. It does mean he wants to to be reconciled to God and live forever with him. He was so determined that you should have it, he gave his life for you.

And there is no way God would ever unite with the devil. The devil hates God, and hates those who belong to him. God loves you, the devil doesn't.

Be blessed.

 

[kenmtb]

A lot of problems come from the rotten world of evil we are thrown into. Our world is full of sin and overly complicated due to greed. We suffer the fall out of sin.

There are too many people fighting for too few over priced resources. We all feel the pain of not having a dentist to go to when we need.
If we all itemize our troubles and try to mull over the chain of events that result in pain we could easily blame GOD for hatching plots. The issue is fallen man not GOD. GOD is the one who gave you enough resources to type your responses here.

This horror story of a world WILL end as we know it. All of your worldly possessions, accomplishments, pain, debts.... WILL end.
Make sure you do not eternally regret focusing on these things rather than GOD's glory and your salvation.
Peace
Ken

 

[DavidTheGnome]

I'm not really sure entirely what I was thinking on the last post. What I do know is that I was in an extremely upset mood.
I know that Lucifer sometimes pretends to be God to deceive others. I know that he and God would never unite. Their enmity will never let up.
I'm not going to quit trying.
Yes, I am a mental mess.

 

[Grip Docility]

I'm not really sure entirely what I was thinking on the last post. What I do know is that I was in an extremely upset mood.
I know that Lucifer sometimes pretends to be God to deceive others. I know that he and God would never unite. Their enmity will never let up.
I'm not going to quit trying.
Yes, I am a mental mess.

God specializes in Loving, guiding and finding uses for mental messes!