I feel like I am loosing hope in life right now, and believe it or not, I am at the tail end of a manic riiiiide. My poor boyfriend who I continue to break up with and cheat on during my "rides"...I realize my time with him is running out as I doubt he will take much more of this, but he is also the one keeping me safe and out of any serious trouble during.
I am also sure that once my remaining children have grown and moved out (youngest is 10) I will not take the meds that I so despise..hate them.
I am a Christian and am so sad after when I realize how I have hurt him and myself, but when your mind wants to DANCE and PLAY and FEEL and experience everything at once and when there is no reason to anything...its hard to stop Until you do stop..to a halt...I am just tired of all of this.
I am also sure that once my remaining children have grown and moved out (youngest is 10) I will not take the meds that I so despise..hate them.
I am a Christian and am so sad after when I realize how I have hurt him and myself, but when your mind wants to DANCE and PLAY and FEEL and experience everything at once and when there is no reason to anything...its hard to stop Until you do stop..to a halt...I am just tired of all of this.