I think I'm falling back into depression!

[2LivIsChrist]

For the longest while I was depressed untill I was about 16 years old. I became on fire for God after that and have been ever since. But lately I feel so low, and I think so badly of myself. I feel like I did when I depressed. It's just so hard, because I'm known for being a strong christian, and helping people out. Today it me so hard. I've been crying all day. I don't know why i feel this way. My dad was getting me mad at me today, because he says nothing they do can sadisfy them anymore, and I'm dwelling on my self to much. But thing is i alway tried to never think of myself and alway think of others. It was hard to hear my dad say all these harsh words. I've lost so many friends, and i've become so insecure in the past month. I don't know whats wrong with me. I need help. One day I'll feel like I'm taking a step back to being strong again, and then a few hours later I'm sad again. I felt like my dad was judging me, espesially since he use to have bipolar. anyways, i don't know what to do.

 

[Achichem]

Today it hit me so hard. I've been crying all day.

I felt like my dad was judging me, espesially since he use to have bipolar. anyways, i don't know what to do.

I can say with a lot of confidence that your dad probably just wants you to feel wonderful (better). You see, he to is confused; he to doesn’t quite know how to help. In this state I am sorry us men tend to do stupid things like this, that end up making you feel worst, but I assure you that was the farthest thing from his intent. He is not judging you, he just love you dearly and is having a hard time with not being able to help you out.
Don't give up on him just yet, just be sure to tell him what his words are doing.

But thing is i alway tried to never think of myself and alway think of others.

Well maybe this is your body's way of trying to tell you that it is tired of being ignored? After all you can never truly accept and love others in till you accept yourself

How often have you shown yourself the love you feel for you? (buy yourself a gift, actually say it, take time just for you, ect….)

It was hard to hear my dad say all these harsh words. I've lost so many friends, and i've become so insecure in the past month.

Well it a rough patch but it sound like you have support even if they’re having a lot of trouble finding how to get in. Truly sister a huge from me, your safe and protected by your father in heaven and if you truly desire it He’ll be sure to get you past this in a better condition then ever before.

Sadness is a call to action, so now let us get the necessary momentum to get you going.

 

[Spana]

hey, well i am no expert, so i am not here to judge or say wat is right, because i feel sad n stuff like dat sometimes n like i have had no friends who i trust or feel comfortable around, n only just recently found people i trust to talk to. YOu sed u have been known for being a strong christian, even strong christians need some1 to look up to, to follow, by wat i have read, it seems like you dont value yourself enough as much as we have to care for others we have to care for ourselves. Because your dad is saying things you feel hurt by them more because it is some1 you trust and love, i thnink he is just upset for you, nad has no other way to express it. Life is hard but u have to pull through it, find some1 you trust and you can look for help or guidness, its not always easy.........god bless and i will b praying for you!

 

[2LivIsChrist]

Thank you both for your responses. They were a lot of help. Now I realize that I just need to like myself more, and I also realized that there was some things in my life that I needed to surrender to God. I love my dad, I was just caught up with so much feelings and emotions at the time. I know he just loves me. I feel much better now. I'm not going to say im going nto be happy all the time now, because everytime I say that I fool myself. I can't rely on my own strength, I have to rely on God's. Thanks once again!

 

[spdnet75]

First off, people without certain afflictions may never gain the knowledge necessary to understand the things that you go through.
I'm Bi-Polar and have to tell you that it does not go away, so your father may be having a form of denial about himself that is affecting your strength.
Hang in there and work at your own problems as we are the only ones aside from our Higher Powers who can truly help ourselves.
-Stephen

 

[inHisgripkim]

Thank you both for your responses. They were a lot of help. Now I realize that I just need to like myself more, and I also realized that there was some things in my life that I needed to surrender to God. I love my dad, I was just caught up with so much feelings and emotions at the time. I know he just loves me. I feel much better now. I'm not going to say im going nto be happy all the time now, because everytime I say that I fool myself. I can't rely on my own strength, I have to rely on God's. Thanks once again!

If you feel low again. Please come here. We all care for our brothers and sisters. You are 18 and I don't doubt you have some hormonal things going on. We women do get emotional when hormones change up on us.

Know that you are a beautiful child of God who created you. God doesn't make mistakes; therefore, you are His masterpiece. He made you for Him. You are a masterpiece of God. Don't ever forget that. When you start feeling low remember that feelings are not fact. Feelings are feeling and they are decieving. They are not truth. Also, when you start feeling low, write down on paper what you like about you. Positive self affirmation is so important. The first thing you should write is "God made me and I am His masterpiece."

We are here. You are not alone. We suffer too. We are here to help, care, and love you.

God bless you flower of God,
Kim

 

[2LivIsChrist]

If you feel low again. Please come here. We all care for our brothers and sisters. You are 18 and I don't doubt you have some hormonal things going on. We women do get emotional when hormones change up on us.

Know that you are a beautiful child of God who created you. God doesn't make mistakes; therefore, you are His masterpiece. He made you for Him. You are a masterpiece of God. Don't ever forget that. When you start feeling low remember that feelings are not fact. Feelings are feeling and they are decieving. They are not truth. Also, when you start feeling low, write down on paper what you like about you. Positive self affirmation is so important. The first thing you should write is "God made me and I am His masterpiece."

We are here. You are not alone. We suffer too. We are here to help, care, and love you.

God bless you flower of God,
Kim

Thanks Kim! Now that I'm feeling better I don't even know why I got so emotional. But I know I am human and I will continue to have feelings, that I will have to continue to push away. It's so awesome that we have God here with us to pull us out of the pit. It's also great to know that there are other brothers and sisters that go through same things as me and understand what I'm going through. You guys rock! God Bless all of you.