I think I regret

[CruciFixed]

LOL thanks David. Are we talking about the same thread?

 

[Davidnic]

In the end Brikkz, we all try to help each other here...I don't think you are doing anything crazy. We all have moments like these. We are here for each other as best we can be.

 

[Davidnic]

LOL thanks David. Are we talking about the same thread?

This one?

 

[Davidnic]

Ohhh....I see, you want a different on closed...do you have the link?

 

[CruciFixed]

Yes. I am smiling now btw because I looked back through the thread. It made me laugh so if I think I'm a crazy nutball then I'm sure others do too.

 

[CruciFixed]

It was my blog entry. Thank God apparently only Michie and Qoheleth read it before I was able to figure out that I could delete my own.

 

[Davidnic]

Yes. I am smiling now btw because I looked back through the thread. It made me laugh so if I think I'm a crazy nutball then I'm sure others do too.

Well likely they will PM you to make sure. I might have confused someone

Either way...do not be ashamed. We all have moments. I just think you are having a tough time and see nothing crazy.

 

[CruciFixed]

I guess you could call it tough time. I can only pray that I get better and stop alienating people.

 

[Davidnic]

You don't have to keep talking about it all but if you want to please do. How would you summarize your problems? I get you feel out of place because you said that. But really, no one is going to judge you and if anyone does...that is their issue not yours.

 

[CruciFixed]

Well I just mean I was alienating Michie because she thought that it was her fault that I was tripping out. Which it wasn't.

 

[Davidnic]

Well I just mean I was alienating Michie because she thought that it was her fault that I was tripping out. Which it wasn't.

She's super understanding, don't worry about it. I think I can say she is not alienated. You judge yourself too harshly at times.

 

[CruciFixed]

Hahah well I guess this is the thread I needed deleted because I felt crazy. I was under the impression that people ignore me so I thought it was safer to post my problems in the blog than here.

 

[JoabAnias]

I just feel weird here. Out of place.

I've felt like that all my life even before I knew why.

I "feel" like a dummy every day.

I "felt" like I would have been better off not having the Holy Spirit open my eyes for a while.

Then I realized I was way better off having them open bit by bit over time than remaining as ignorant I was.

We bump into way more in the dark.

Even though it meant I had to avoid sins I previously loved.

I have a lot of questions only God can answer.

Then ask him and learn to listen for the answers. Don't take the foolish advice you get here serious or let stupidity like you should have waited 3 years seriously.

EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE goes through "Dark Nights of the Soul".

There are no places to coast in Catholicism. Its like a mountain. We are either climbing or going down.

But we can think we are descending when were actually growing.

God has left me feeling utterly alone and abandoned many a times.

He did it to let me walk on my own two feet.

Tell ya a secret, when he does this, he is right there ready to catch you.

Keep your prayer life and praxis up until something gives. That something will be progress.

Don't let your heart be troubled sister. You are way ahead of most. Be kind to yourself by being faithful to God.

 

[CruciFixed]

Being kind to myself is one of my struggles.

 

[Davidnic]

Hahah well I guess this is the thread I needed deleted because I felt crazy. I was under the impression that people ignore me so I thought it was safer to post my problems in the blog than here.

Well it will take a bit to get it deleted, if you still want it deleted you can make a thread in Member services or I can for you.

Or we can talk a bit. Honestly Brikkz I have seen this more than once and you are not acting crazy. Just stressed and worried. Others do to.

 

[CruciFixed]

Okay if you don't think its crazy. I think if you would have seen my blog entry we'd be talking on different terms.

 

[JoabAnias]

Believe it or not, you are actually in a very good place at the moment:

2 Corinthians 12:10
For which cause I please myself in my infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ. For when I am weak, then am I powerful.

1 Corinthians 1:27
But the foolish things of the world hath God chosen, that he may confound the wise; and the weak things of the world hath God chosen, that he may confound the strong.

 

[Davidnic]

Okay if you don't think its crazy. I think if you would have seen my blog entry we'd be talking on different terms.

maybe not, not really a person to judge mental state of someone who is a regular poster based on one moment

 

[CruciFixed]

How come I go through this like 3 times a year? Even before I was Catholic?

 

[Davidnic]

Being kind to myself is one of my struggles.

It can be a hard one. We often can extend mercy to others but not to ourselves. We can see others as children of God, beloved and wanted. But we may see ourselves fall short and feel unworthy.