I think i did something bad

[Jesuslove70708]

Im 15 i think I did something very bad which Two years ago let’s go back in time woo hoo are used to get really really really really really really really bad blasphemous thought they weren’t fine but I can’t I got used to them inspected them so I guess I got used one they they were intrusive but used to now two months ago I had the thoughts I had faith planning to get baptized soon but March 9 pretty sure woke up at faith clicked on a video and got triggered was it fun the reason I think I got used to the thoughts because every time they went away I always found a way to get them back of reassurance or something I don’t know but why I felt my faith when I have a thought but now I don’t anymore because March 9 I got triggered and got doubt I feel like I don’t believe in hell I feel like I don’t believe in anything it sucks I feel like I don’t care and sometimes I believe I don’t and it messes with me I just want it back my faith I don’t want to thoughts but I want my faith back so I think I gave the thoughts value I have been on on here before I’m just scared my faith won’t come back because I feel like I don’t believe and I have some doubt so that just worries me so do you have any advice suggestions because I think I value them which sucks not clinically diagnosed but I don’t know do you have any suggestions to get my faith back because all I feel like sometimes I don’t care and that kind of bothers me because I was like a a great great great great great great Christian and I feel like sometimes I don’t even believe in that bothers me most of the time I feel like that and only twice I’ve been able to feel my belief again in through two months for maybe about a day to a few hours but if you want more information i have one more the thread and can someone
Pls talk to me in cps im sure that it’s unbelief and I don’t want it to be and help

 

[Sabertooth]

I couldn't tell from your post. Are you being treated by a psychiatrist for your OCD? (That is your first, best option.)

These churches are good for dealing with mental illnesses (like OCD),

• Vineyard,
• Australian Christian Church (affiliated with Assemblies of God),
• Foursquare Church

(Links above are locators.)

 

[com7fy8]

all I feel like sometimes I don’t care

It is good to care. And it is good how you know it is bad to not care. And it is good that you know that blasphemous thoughts are wrong.

So, at least we know this, and we are concerned about this.

I have problems with wrong stuff invading my mind and distracting me from good and nutritional things. God's word can feed us what is good. So, I trust God to correct me so my mind has God's peace taking care of me.

So - - - God bless you . . . prayer for you

 

[Jesuslove70708]

But

its not cap its child prover services

 

[Jesuslove70708]

I have a therapist but has not diagnosed

 

[Tolworth John]

I have a therapist but has not diagnosed

Good, now find and read and talk to your therapist ' 25 tips for successful treating your ocd,'

It will tell you what I've already posted.
Intrusive thoughts you acknowledge and move on. Example:-
Thought- ' you are a bad person' you, ' yes that is right' and carry on with what you are doing.

If you are a Christian your past sins, what ever they are, have been forgiven. Any thoughts that such and such sins are condemning you, as above just acknowledge and go on to praise God for his complete, entire, total and all covering forgiveness of every single one of your sins.

Read the article and talk about it to your therapist.

 

[Jesuslove70708]

I’m worried about something I believe got my belief is slipping slowly very slowly and very fast I was thinking of looking at testimonies and proof of Jesus maybe that would help but I could be two options I look at the proof I have a panic attack and I thought to get worse or I get my faith and believe how it used to be but I don’t know what to do I don’t want to give up I’m not going to it’s that I set an a little room all day and I stare at like the ceiling or on my phone looking for talking so I don’t know what to do in the situation should I look at proven testimonies or should I just wait I’m not at my parents right now foster care so should I wait until I go back or should I do it now or not do it at all