Ok, so if you want help, pray for forgiveness, seek God daily, give up sinfulness and He will welcome you back
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I believe that is the blasphemy against the Holy Spirit.As long as you live, there will always be room for repentance. The final act of rebellion is when you refuse God at your last fleeting breath.
You are not screwed. God is a good Father, the bible says he is both faithful and just. Faithful in the sense He sticks by us even when we sin He is also just to forgive. Justice is giving forgiveness to us when we seek it. This is demonstrated in the cross, which is a righteous life given for our lifetime of sins. While you have life you can be forgiven.I felt like I lost my chances to go to heaven. When I was a kid, I converted to Islam then Buddhism after I knew that Jesus Christ was real and I have seen the manifestations and miracles of the Holy Spirit firsthand and still turned my back on God to go to a different religion so it was open rebellion against God almighty. I was not ignorant. When I was a kid, I literally saw miracles such as the deaf hearing again, the blind seeing, the lame walking, near death experiences, visions and dreams of Jesus Christ, casting out demons, diseases like cancer and HIV being cured, speaking in heavenly languages (tongues), and many more. The worst part is after seeing AND KNOWING FULL WELL that this is the Holy Spirit doing this today in our age and feeling his presence, I purposely and deliberately converted to Islam, found the truth about Islam, and then joined Buddhism seeking false enlightenment and was dabbling with eastern mysticism practices. I feel like I betrayed God and did what the people in Hebrews did. How screwed am I?
Psalm 130 A song of ascents.1Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD;2O Lord, hear my voice. Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy.3If you, O LORD, kept a record of sins, O Lord, who could stand?4But with you there is forgiveness; therefore you are feared.5I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope.6My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning.7O Israel, put your hope in the LORD, for with the LORD is unfailing love and with him is full redemption.8He himself will redeem Israel from all their sins.I feel like I betrayed God and did what the people in Hebrews did. How screwed am I?
I felt like I lost my chances to go to heaven. When I was a kid, I converted to Islam then Buddhism after I knew that Jesus Christ was real and I have seen the manifestations and miracles of the Holy Spirit firsthand and still turned my back on God to go to a different religion so it was open rebellion against God almighty. I was not ignorant. When I was a kid, I literally saw miracles such as the deaf hearing again, the blind seeing, the lame walking, near death experiences, visions and dreams of Jesus Christ, casting out demons, diseases like cancer and HIV being cured, speaking in heavenly languages (tongues), and many more. The worst part is after seeing AND KNOWING FULL WELL that this is the Holy Spirit doing this today in our age and feeling his presence, I purposely and deliberately converted to Islam, found the truth about Islam, and then joined Buddhism seeking false enlightenment and was dabbling with eastern mysticism practices. I feel like I betrayed God and did what the people in Hebrews did. How screwed am I?
Honestly, I don't know. I was thinking about finding things in other religions that I liked other than Christianity. At the time, I didn't understand what Christianity was like and I thought it was for some show. I should have seen through the lies. At the time, I was seeking for something deeper and more holy. It was like I knew that there was a God but I wanted to pursue my own righteousness instead of him.I totally believe in the love and mercy and patience of Jesus and God and the holy Spirit and I hate to be the guy who asks the simple question..
Why would you even do that?
What exactly made you think that coverting to Islam and Buddhism was going to do anything for you if you know the truth and love and power of Jesus?
I don't get your story at all.
I know we all make mistakes. I just don't understand what you're thinking was for doing that.
I never asked about the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost. Please don't mention it because I am recovering from years about thinking about it.As long as you haven't insulted the Holy Ghost, you are fine. Insults to Holy Ghost are the only sins that will never be forgiven.
By the way, one can still convert back to Christianity, as seen in Nabeel Qureshi's example, which he described in his book "Seeking Allah, Finding Jesus".
What makes you think you have a chance? God doesn't save anyone by chance. There is nothing you can do to get, keep or lose what God has decided to do concerning you. And he decided it from the foundation of the world.I felt like I lost my chances to go to heaven. When I was a kid, I converted to Islam then Buddhism after I knew that Jesus Christ was real and I have seen the manifestations and miracles of the Holy Spirit firsthand and still turned my back on God to go to a different religion so it was open rebellion against God almighty. I was not ignorant. When I was a kid, I literally saw miracles such as the deaf hearing again, the blind seeing, the lame walking, near death experiences, visions and dreams of Jesus Christ, casting out demons, diseases like cancer and HIV being cured, speaking in heavenly languages (tongues), and many more. The worst part is after seeing AND KNOWING FULL WELL that this is the Holy Spirit doing this today in our age and feeling his presence, I purposely and deliberately converted to Islam, found the truth about Islam, and then joined Buddhism seeking false enlightenment and was dabbling with eastern mysticism practices. I feel like I betrayed God and did what the people in Hebrews did. How screwed am I?