I really wanted to share this.

[Aredhel]

Okay, so I haven't really had a chance to share this with anyone, and I really feel a pull to post my story here. I know its long, but please bear with me.

I used to be a Christian, and through thick and thin, my mother always tried to make sure that, even as a very young child, I would focus on God and not worry about the bad things happening in my life. Despite this, the things around me got to me and when I was 7, I started feeling severely depressed. When I was 11, I decided to accept Jesus, and I lived like that for awhile.

Then, around the age of 14 I drifted just about as far away from God as I could. I became a self injurer, I was extremely depressed, and I was so attracted to darkness that I was constantly indulging on everything evil and Satanic. I was a drinking a lot, and
I became very sexual and disrespecting of myself. I worried a lot of people, because I was very young, and I had always been such a good girl, and as I progressed into high school, things only got worse and worse.

A couple months ago, I was so low that I decided to kill myself, and fortunately someone stopped me. I went to a youth group with my friend, and I was taken to a youth rally with them. I had two days of feeling bitter and resentful as I watched others worshiping and I imagined that God didn't care enough for me to be with me. One of my friends noticed I was down and came over to hug me, and I ended up sobbing on her shoulder. Next thing I knew, a youth leader was with me, praying, and it was the most intense, emotional experience of my life. She met with me for several weeks after and I shared with her and a few other girls my story, and the helped me to get on the right track.

Currently, however, I am facing an ultimate low like I've never experienced before, and I know the devil is laughing as he pulls me further and further away, destroying everything I'm fixing up. Please pray for me, I want to do it right this time. I don't want to let God down again.

 

[Sketcher]

The truth will set you free. Read the Bible and follow it instead of whatever you're thinking that drags you down. There are people who have come out of similar situations and became very strong Christians, you are no exception.

 

[humblet]

Wow, you've been through a lot. Don't give in...keep holding on to God! When you feel that satan is pulling you away, that's a good time to stop and focus on God through prayer and also through reading the Bible. So often, God's word speaks to our situations...I'm praying for you, and I hope that this scripture will help encourage you in your situation

Psalm 40

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.

2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.
4 Blessed is the man
who makes the LORD his trust,
who does not look to the proud,
to those who turn aside to false gods. [a]
5 Many, O LORD my God,
are the wonders you have done.
The things you planned for us
no one can recount to you;
were I to speak and tell of them,
they would be too many to declare.
6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire,
but my ears you have pierced [b] , [c] ;
burnt offerings and sin offerings
you did not require.
7 Then I said, "Here I am, I have come—
it is written about me in the scroll. [d]
8 I desire to do your will, O my God;
your law is within my heart."
9 I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly;
I do not seal my lips,
as you know, O LORD.
10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;
I speak of your faithfulness and salvation.
I do not conceal your love and your truth
from the great assembly.
11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD;
may your love and your truth always protect me.
12 For troubles without number surround me;
my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see.
They are more than the hairs of my head,
and my heart fails within me.
13 Be pleased, O LORD, to save me;
O LORD, come quickly to help me.
14 May all who seek to take my life
be put to shame and confusion;
may all who desire my ruin
be turned back in disgrace.
15 May those who say to me, "Aha! Aha!"
be appalled at their own shame.
16 But may all who seek you
rejoice and be glad in you;
may those who love your salvation always say,
"The LORD be exalted!" 17 Yet I am poor and needy;
may the Lord think of me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
O my God, do not delay.

 

[TheGuide]

We live in a "time" environment, but there’s no such timeline in the Lord’s realm. So He can go backwards and forwards, which means God can repair old damage that now plagues your heart. Do you think it was a coincidence that you met this group of Christians you've been fellowshipping with? Oh, dear one, can't you see the Lord telling you that He loves you and wants you? God has a great plan for your life, otherwise the enemy would not be working so hard to tear you down.

Depression is a tool satan uses. Observe how it works a person into a corner inside their mind until the cry for them to commit suicide becomes too loud to bear. Well, a person cannot repent for murder if they are already dead, so guess who gets their soul? Why even contemplate giving yourself up to your tormenter? If nothing else you should be royally [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed off at his dirty tricks and not even consider giving him what he wants. And what he wants is you soul, which is obviously a precious commodity in the spiritual realm, because satan’s goal is to snatch as many away from God as he can.

Now the thing about hurting or depressed people is that they are drawn into being self-centered, which means all they can think about is themselves, their pain and how they want to be free of the sadness. So here is my advice to you:

1. Start praying for other people more than you pray for yourself. Pray for the oppressed people, for your country, for Israel (as the Lord instructs). Pray for your counselor, your pastor, your friends that they, who are not, be saved.

2. Start giving your time to others without expecting anything in return. Do some volunteer work by way of your church or a church organization. There are old people who would be very grateful for someone to change a light bulb or pay them a visit.

3. You have opened up to certain people about what you feel inside, which is good. However, watch yourself that you are not sharing the same with everyone you meet. If you are, stop it. You don't want to let everyone into you business, plus you're trying to heal. Which brings me to number

4. Forgive. Whomever have caused you pain you want to work toward forgiving them. Don't think that they are off the hook with God, so there’s no need for you to continue to carry the burden of unforgiveness in your heart. The Lord said "vengeance is mine," and believe me, it won't be pretty. So start the process of forgiveness of those who have hurt you.

5. Join a strong Bible study group. I'm partial to Beth Moore's Bible studies and you can also join her online study group.

In closing, a seed of destruction was planted at some point in your youth and it sounds like you have been through a lot. But there is strength acquired from our pain, so you just have to stubborn up and resist the enemy (I expound on what I mean in an old post that I'll copy and paste next for you to read).

Above, someone wrote "The truth will set you free," but I like the Old King James version which says "the truth will MAKE you free." Build a relationship with Jesus by diving into God's word. Get His word deep into your heart, and hang on tight so the enemy’s lies won’t affect you any longer. Now, here’s a tip: If you are not sure how to pray, use the Psalms to tailor your own prayers. Believe me, there are many therein you can use, so feel free to paraphrase them as needed for your own use.

God bless you,

The Guide

 

[TheGuide]

This is the old post I was referring to:


You are not responsible for your thoughts....

You are responsible for entertaining them. Bad thoughts are on the air, that is how the enemy works. Have you ever asked yourself "where did that (thought) come from?" There is weakness within us that allows us to hear certain types of thoughts. They are designed to teardown our reserves so that they may take root and grow, but this happens only if we entertain them.

EXAMPLE: A father is under pressure. He's tired and weary, his business may not be going well. He's weaken by life. Suddenly, a thought comes out of no where of him performing a sexual act on his own child. He's disgusted by it and cast it down, yet the picture was vivid and he keeps seeing it in his head. He permits the thought to become his distraction from reality, an entertainment of sort, evolving and growing until it takes on life inside his mind.... END EXAMPLE.

Now when we entertain a thought before casting it down, it usually comes back, because the seed has been watered (by us lingering on the thought). So when it comes back again, we should immediately cast it down again, and again. Eventually, you will be strengthened in the area the thought is badgering. First, don't feel guilty about the thought popping into your head, because it's not your thought. So as fast as it pops in just blow it off and go on about your business.

We can look at unsavory thoughts as help-aids, because they let us know where we are weak and what needs to be shored up. Get the below scripture inside your heart, memorize it and recite it to yourself whenever you feel threatened by an aggressive thought. Repeat it as often as needed, even if that means all day and all night:

"...Whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of a good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things."

Philippians 4:8


God bless you,

The Guide

 

[sunflower2007]

Honey, you need to realize that God is not adding up your mistakes so He can punish you. He is right there to help you when you fall. Instead of worrying about what God is going to think of your mistakes, cry out to Him and tell Him all your problems. He cares about you and wants to help you.

Jesus told Peter that if your brother sins 70x7 times in a day, and comes and repents each time, "you shall forgive him." So certainly God will forgive you many times more than that.

Psalm 103:12
As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

God doesn't want you to live depressed. The Bible says that He has a plan to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Are you reading your Bible every day? That is very important. Every person is like a plant. If you want to grow, you have to water yourself every day by reading the Bible. If a plant doesn't get water consistently, it will die. You will be spiritually dead if you don't read the Bible daily.

Also, something that helped me with depression is to concentrate on helping other people. When you are making it your purpose to encourage and help others, it really helps you to feel so much better. It helps me not to feel depressed because I know that I am doing something valuable for the kingdom of God. When you seek first the kingdom of God, Jesus said that everything else will be added to you.

Also, what kind of friends are you hanging around. If they are not Christians or are negative, that will not help you at all. I encourage you to get some Christian friends. Don't hang around people who don't love God or they will pull you down.

Something, I think, that makes people depressed is when they don't have any purpose. God has a great purpose for your life. You should live each day with purpose, and if you don't have one, ask God to give you one. It gives you something to live for when you know what your own personal calling from God is.

I hope this helps you. God loves you more than you could ever imagine. You are so precious to Him. He holds you in the palm of His hand and He will never leave you. Even if you feel like God isn't there, He is always there loving you.


Revelation 21:3-5
"Behold, the tabernacle of God is among men, and He will dwell among them, and they shall be His people, and God Himself will be among them, and He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be any death; there will no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away." And He who sits on the throne said, "Behold, I am making all things new."



Here's a big {{{HUG}}} Feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to.

 

[Jerrell]

Okay, so I haven't really had a chance to share this with anyone, and I really feel a pull to post my story here. I know its long, but please bear with me.

I used to be a Christian, and through thick and thin, my mother always tried to make sure that, even as a very young child, I would focus on God and not worry about the bad things happening in my life. Despite this, the things around me got to me and when I was 7, I started feeling severely depressed. When I was 11, I decided to accept Jesus, and I lived like that for awhile.

Then, around the age of 14 I drifted just about as far away from God as I could. I became a self injurer, I was extremely depressed, and I was so attracted to darkness that I was constantly indulging on everything evil and Satanic. I was a drinking a lot, and
I became very sexual and disrespecting of myself. I worried a lot of people, because I was very young, and I had always been such a good girl, and as I progressed into high school, things only got worse and worse.

A couple months ago, I was so low that I decided to kill myself, and fortunately someone stopped me. I went to a youth group with my friend, and I was taken to a youth rally with them. I had two days of feeling bitter and resentful as I watched others worshiping and I imagined that God didn't care enough for me to be with me. One of my friends noticed I was down and came over to hug me, and I ended up sobbing on her shoulder. Next thing I knew, a youth leader was with me, praying, and it was the most intense, emotional experience of my life. She met with me for several weeks after and I shared with her and a few other girls my story, and the helped me to get on the right track.

Currently, however, I am facing an ultimate low like I've never experienced before, and I know the devil is laughing as he pulls me further and further away, destroying everything I'm fixing up. Please pray for me, I want to do it right this time. I don't want to let God down again.

God Bless your Soul sister.

1pe 5:8 Be serious and keep watch; the Evil One, who is against you, goes about like a lion with open mouth in search of food;

1pe 5:9 Do not give way to him but be strong in your faith, in the knowledge that your brothers who are in the world undergo the same troubles.

1pe 5:10 And after you have undergone pain for a little time, the God of all grace who has given you a part in his eternal glory through Christ Jesus, will himself give you strength and support, and make you complete in every good thing;

1pe 5:11 His is the power for ever. So be it.


Did you know you are a answer to my prayers? I prayed to God that he step in a save that person who was depressed and thinking about suicide, I asked him to save that person who was lost, and he answered. Glory be to God.

I am a Youth Minister, so if you have any questions, if you ever need special prayer, PM me. God Bless.


~Jerrell

 

[MoNiCa4316]

Okay, so I haven't really had a chance to share this with anyone, and I really feel a pull to post my story here. I know its long, but please bear with me.

I used to be a Christian, and through thick and thin, my mother always tried to make sure that, even as a very young child, I would focus on God and not worry about the bad things happening in my life. Despite this, the things around me got to me and when I was 7, I started feeling severely depressed. When I was 11, I decided to accept Jesus, and I lived like that for awhile.

Then, around the age of 14 I drifted just about as far away from God as I could. I became a self injurer, I was extremely depressed, and I was so attracted to darkness that I was constantly indulging on everything evil and Satanic. I was a drinking a lot, and
I became very sexual and disrespecting of myself. I worried a lot of people, because I was very young, and I had always been such a good girl, and as I progressed into high school, things only got worse and worse.

A couple months ago, I was so low that I decided to kill myself, and fortunately someone stopped me. I went to a youth group with my friend, and I was taken to a youth rally with them. I had two days of feeling bitter and resentful as I watched others worshiping and I imagined that God didn't care enough for me to be with me. One of my friends noticed I was down and came over to hug me, and I ended up sobbing on her shoulder. Next thing I knew, a youth leader was with me, praying, and it was the most intense, emotional experience of my life. She met with me for several weeks after and I shared with her and a few other girls my story, and the helped me to get on the right track.

Currently, however, I am facing an ultimate low like I've never experienced before, and I know the devil is laughing as he pulls me further and further away, destroying everything I'm fixing up. Please pray for me, I want to do it right this time. I don't want to let God down again.

Dear sister, you are in my prayers. Remember God loves you unconditionally and as Sunflower2007 said, He's not counting your mistakes. He wants to help you and give you hope and a future. the devil wants us to feel worry and despair and attacks us just when we are getting better, but God gives peace and strength. He will conquer evil in the end.
I suggest reading the Bible, because the devil is a liar but if you know the truth, you would have an advantage over him. I pray that you would persevere.

Remember God is strong even when we are weak.

God bless!


monica

 

[Jere209]

Okay, so I haven't really had a chance to share this with anyone, and I really feel a pull to post my story here. I know its long, but please bear with me.

I used to be a Christian, and through thick and thin, my mother always tried to make sure that, even as a very young child, I would focus on God and not worry about the bad things happening in my life. Despite this, the things around me got to me and when I was 7, I started feeling severely depressed. When I was 11, I decided to accept Jesus, and I lived like that for awhile.

Then, around the age of 14 I drifted just about as far away from God as I could. I became a self injurer, I was extremely depressed, and I was so attracted to darkness that I was constantly indulging on everything evil and Satanic. I was a drinking a lot, and
I became very sexual and disrespecting of myself. I worried a lot of people, because I was very young, and I had always been such a good girl, and as I progressed into high school, things only got worse and worse.

A couple months ago, I was so low that I decided to kill myself, and fortunately someone stopped me. I went to a youth group with my friend, and I was taken to a youth rally with them. I had two days of feeling bitter and resentful as I watched others worshiping and I imagined that God didn't care enough for me to be with me. One of my friends noticed I was down and came over to hug me, and I ended up sobbing on her shoulder. Next thing I knew, a youth leader was with me, praying, and it was the most intense, emotional experience of my life. She met with me for several weeks after and I shared with her and a few other girls my story, and the helped me to get on the right track.

Currently, however, I am facing an ultimate low like I've never experienced before, and I know the devil is laughing as he pulls me further and further away, destroying everything I'm fixing up. Please pray for me, I want to do it right this time. I don't want to let God down again.

Hi there sweetie!! God bless you for sharing your heart. For God putting this burden there for you to just open up to others. So, really the devil isn't laughing at you! You've got the laugh on him, because you've turned to your brothers and sisters in Christ and he cannot stand that..
I do not know what denomination you are, nor do I know the type of music you listen to,...the reason I say this is because the first thing you want to do when thoughts come like you are having is STOP and focus on Christ. Praise and worship music will help you there. satan was the leader of worship in heaven before he was cast down, and when you use music to help you praise God, and take you into His presence, old lucifer cannot stand it!

You have been give good advice here, and I just want to add a few things to it if I may..

My daughter was exactly like you, maybe really a lot worse, at that age. I did not have God to pull me through, and there was times I thought I would lose my mind! Now that I look back, I can only iimagine what kind of spiritual battle we were in. In the midst of all of that, we both did find the Lord, and when that happened, our battle only intensified and things heated up. satan does not like to lose, little one, and he will not stop until he has you crying and feeling like you are at the end of the world. But, God says "Be of good cheer!"

When you were saved, your spirit, inner man, inside of you is the only part of you that got reborn. Your flesh did not, your eyes did not, your mouth did not, and your ears did not. So, you have to learn to bring those things under subjection to the word of God. You do that by knowing WHO you are in Christ Jesus. In Colossians 1 it says you are complete in Him, found in Him..the Bible says to set your thoughts on things that are above, not of this earth, and focus on Him. In other words, renew your mind with the Word of God.
I promise you, if you will quote the following scriptures out of your mouth every day and play worship music, and sing at the top of your lungs, you will begin to feel a huge difference in your life. Satan cannot stand where it is light.

Look up these scriptures and write them down on index cards so you can keep them handy. Carry them with you. Faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God. When you quote scriptures, you are feeding your spirit, and therefore you faith will increase and you will grow stronger. Use this time in your life to grow closer to the Lord. He says He is closer to those of a broken heart and a contrite spirit...

If I can be of any help, please let me know!

Love in Christ,
Lisa



Father, in the name of Jesus, I commit myself to walk in the Word. Your Word living in me produces Your life in this world. I recognize that Your Word is integrity itself — steadfast, sure, eternal — and I trust my life to its provisions.
You have sent Your Word forth into my heart. I let it dwell in me richly in all wisdom. I meditate in it day and night so that I may diligently act on it. The Incorruptible Seed, the Living Word, the Word of Truth, is abiding in my spirit. That Seed is growing mightily in me now, producing Your nature, Your life. It is my counsel, my shield, my buckler, my powerful weapon in battle. The Word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. It makes my way plain before me. I do not stumble, for my steps are ordered in the Word.
The Holy Spirit leads and guides me into all the truth. He gives me understanding, discernment, and comprehension so that I am preserved from the snares of the evil one.
I delight myself in You and Your Word. Because of that, You put Your desires within my heart. I commit my way unto You, and You bring it to pass. I am confident that You are at work in me now both to will and to do all Your good pleasure.
I exalt Your Word, hold it in high esteem, and give it first place. I make my schedule around Your Word. I make the Word the final authority to settle all questions that confront me. I choose to agree with the Word of God, and I choose to disagree with any thoughts, conditions, or circumstances contrary to Your Word. I boldly and confidently say that my heart is fixed and established on the solid foundation — the living Word of God! In the precious name of Jesus, Amen.

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Scripture References:
Hebrews 4:12 1 Peter 3:12
Colossians 3:16 Colossians 4:2
Joshua 1:8 Ephesians 6:10
1 Peter 1:23 Luke 18:1
Psalm 91:4 James 5:16
Psalm 119:105 Psalm 37:4,5
Psalm 37:23 Philippians 2:13
Colossians 1:9 2 Corinthians 10:5
John 16:13 Psalm 112:7,8

 

[Aredhel]

This is all very much appreciated, thank you so much.JUst reading these things is making me feel a little better. I am really grateful ad plan to keep in mind all of your advice. if anyone else has any advice, please dont hesistate to share, i will definitely use it.

 

[TeAroha]

I will pray for you

My only advice is... Trust in the Lord, and bring all your burdens to him, and he will give you rest...
Matthew 11:28
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest
Trust him, ask for help when you pray, have faith that the Lord will give you rest.
God bless you

 

[longboneslinger]

Never ever lose hope. I'll just tell you a short story and maybe ou can learn from my mistake.
Last week my spiritual battery was low. I wasn't reading my Bible and I back slid-big time. My wife got onto me about it but I didn't listen. I even blew off church Sunday. Our youth group was back from camp and there were 11 kids scheduled for baptism that morning. I really wanted to go. But I didn't.
Monday and Tuesday I was praying for God to move in my life. To show me the way back.
Wednesday he did. Just not in the way I expected. I ran into a friend that I've witnessing to and he told me how satan was really messing with his life. He told how he was praying for guidance. We talked and I told him to never give up, God is with you.
Here's the kicker. About 4 hours later I ran into him again. It was then that I said "Hold on! Do you know that you are the answer to my prayers?" That got his attention and I told him the above story. I'm still laughing. God was there the whole time. I was the blind one. He took him moving in someone else's life for me to see Him again.
Don't make my mistake young lady. God is always with you. Always.
Stay in your bible. I now take mine to work and read it on lunch. I get strange looks but I could care less. If I'm a fool I'm a fool for Christ. Can I get an Amen!!
Don't let the 'world' distract you. Keep your eyes on the prize: Eternity in Heaven!
May God bless you and all you hold dear!
Your friend in Christ,
BoNe

 

[heymikey80]

Daughter, He sees you and He loves you still. He won't stop holding onto you, pouring redemption on you, His grace goes far beyond your sins. To me that brings to mind Romans 5:20. I was once knocked off my feet by this one verse, so it holds a special place for me. I feel if you keep focusing on God's working in you and putting the weight of your soul on the Spirit of God Romans 6 & 8 will follow. You don't do it yourself; the Spirit needs to get in there and work in you; then that'll be working out in your life.

Your friend was just a tiny taste of the first door opened. You're aware God's that much closer to you; but He's actually closer still, reaching for that next door. We talk about pouring out our hearts, and there's so much that He knows is in there that we won't let go to Him out of fear, or a feeling of responsibility (which is why the Blood was shed), or just denial. I hope you'll let it go.

And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience. Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. Rom 8:23-26
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