I have fallen into a deep pit of dispair in the realm of philosphical and theological thought.
I am 16 years old. For the past 3 years I have been in deep thought about all of this. Here are some of my conclusions that i have forged over day and night in painful contemplation. I am certain there is a God, with very little doubt, and i'm certain he is the christian God, with very little doubt.
Here are my issues.
1: I have a hard time beliveiving God is perfect. this is not my main issue, just a side one. There seems to be so many things one could consider "bad", such as the mass genocide of certain people. I have no trouble believing he is powerful and a good God, but omnipotent and Omnisicent i am not so sure. Why did creating the world take 7 days instead of an instant? Why did God make flawed creations? I am aware that there could be reasons for these actions that my human mind would not be able to contemplate, so this is just a sie issue but not my main problem.
2: I can't trust or have "Faith" in God. I don't know if this is my fault or his, but Blind faith is something i can not bear. People tellme to trust in God to help me, and that I should only look to him for help. Yet God has never taken credit for anything he has done in my life, so how would I know if he would actually help me or just leave me dissapointed?
You could answer those issues with certain theological uncertainties that i am aware of. But that's what it comes down to
AMBIGUITY
Why does God, who is so loving and caring, allow me to suffer a psychological conundrum more painful than a nail through the back of my foot. (I have felt that btw) Many people claim to have seen God, hear him "speak" to them, or seen "visions" brought on by him. I am skeptical to all since I know that atleast some of these people are delusional, but there is not a doubt in my mind that there are some who really have these divine experiences. Why does God not reveal himself to me? He allows me to suffer in uncertainty so distraught not felt since Pascal himself!
I have a few other problems, that being I despise the idea of an eternal Hell and condemning homosexuals and non-believers there is amazingly cruel and monstrous, but that is a topic for another thread.
Can anyone help me?
I am 16 years old. For the past 3 years I have been in deep thought about all of this. Here are some of my conclusions that i have forged over day and night in painful contemplation. I am certain there is a God, with very little doubt, and i'm certain he is the christian God, with very little doubt.
Here are my issues.
1: I have a hard time beliveiving God is perfect. this is not my main issue, just a side one. There seems to be so many things one could consider "bad", such as the mass genocide of certain people. I have no trouble believing he is powerful and a good God, but omnipotent and Omnisicent i am not so sure. Why did creating the world take 7 days instead of an instant? Why did God make flawed creations? I am aware that there could be reasons for these actions that my human mind would not be able to contemplate, so this is just a sie issue but not my main problem.
2: I can't trust or have "Faith" in God. I don't know if this is my fault or his, but Blind faith is something i can not bear. People tellme to trust in God to help me, and that I should only look to him for help. Yet God has never taken credit for anything he has done in my life, so how would I know if he would actually help me or just leave me dissapointed?
You could answer those issues with certain theological uncertainties that i am aware of. But that's what it comes down to
AMBIGUITY
Why does God, who is so loving and caring, allow me to suffer a psychological conundrum more painful than a nail through the back of my foot. (I have felt that btw) Many people claim to have seen God, hear him "speak" to them, or seen "visions" brought on by him. I am skeptical to all since I know that atleast some of these people are delusional, but there is not a doubt in my mind that there are some who really have these divine experiences. Why does God not reveal himself to me? He allows me to suffer in uncertainty so distraught not felt since Pascal himself!
I have a few other problems, that being I despise the idea of an eternal Hell and condemning homosexuals and non-believers there is amazingly cruel and monstrous, but that is a topic for another thread.
Can anyone help me?