I need help.

[Caty]

I know you all are really comforting and I have plenty on my mind right now. Okay a year or so ago (under some circumstance, I can’t remember) I said, "oh my God, and it’s haunting me. I have talked to some people and read plenty of things about blasphemy, but I can’t seem to shake the feeling that I have sent myself to hell for saying that. I feel guilty for fearing hell and wonder if I’m really repentant and that scares me. I live in such fear of God, and I want to have a loving relationship with him but I’m riddled with such fear. I have read the scriptures about God forgiving ALL sin, even blasphemy, but I still feel terrible. I’m afraid that I will just "think" I’m saved but in the end, I’ll find out that I really wasn’t. I’m scared that God wants to forgive me but he can’t because I said that terrible thing last year. I’m scared that theologians misunderstood what Jesus said about the unforgivable sin and that I’m really doomed. I don't know what to do.

 

[Jayangel81]

What you did was blasphemed Gods name, or also called, "Using God's name in vain" which we are very prone to.

shame and guilt is not something that comes from God, God turns us away from that sin, but he does not want it to haunt us.

Nor does He want us to dwell in the past about it if you have confessed, repented and recieved forgiveness by faith in Jesus.

You are far from being doomed, just try not to do it again things slip.

The blasphemy of the Holy Spirit is very clear, in the bible when viewing it to the rest of the scriptures

I think it is time for you to forgive yourself do not dwell in the past, it is not healthy.

 

[kaykay9.0]

Ditto what Jay said.

 

[Liftyourhand7]

I know you all are really comforting and I have plenty on my mind right now. Okay a year or so ago (under some circumstance, I can’t remember) I said, "oh my God, and it’s haunting me. I have talked to some people and read plenty of things about blasphemy, but I can’t seem to shake the feeling that I have sent myself to hell for saying that. I feel guilty for fearing hell and wonder if I’m really repentant and that scares me. I live in such fear of God, and I want to have a loving relationship with him but I’m riddled with such fear. I have read the scriptures about God forgiving ALL sin, even blasphemy, but I still feel terrible. I’m afraid that I will just "think" I’m saved but in the end, I’ll find out that I really wasn’t. I’m scared that God wants to forgive me but he can’t because I said that terrible thing last year. I’m scared that theologians misunderstood what Jesus said about the unforgivable sin and that I’m really doomed. I don't know what to do.

Hi Caty,

Please try to understand that what you are going through is not a spiritual problem, you are saved and you do belong to the Lord, (it is the OCD, the Disorder that is causing you all of these untrue thoughts, that is what OCD does IT LIES!!!) I know how you feel, you need reassurance that you ARE NOT going to hell, are you being treated for your OCD? OCD does cause us to fear and have reoccuring thoughts of doom,we with OCD cannot rid ourselves of such thoughts it is the nature of the disorder, but believe me you are not alone in this, I have gone through exactly the same fears that you have now, it took me many years of asking God to reveal to me what was wrong with me, and with His guidance to counselors and a really good friend on this board (thanks Mitizi) He has helped me to understand that He loves me and that He has saved me and that I suffer from OCD. I know the pain that you feel, and you really do need help with this disorder, but understand that even with help some of those thoughts will just be there that is part of the disorder,God will see you through this, He speaks primarily through His Word (the Bible), but he also uses doctors, couselors and others that have been through this to help you, and He will Never, now listen to me He Will Never leave you or forsake you, you will get better and you will get through this. I will be praying for you. Jan

 

[hisbloodformysins]

I know you all are really comforting and I have plenty on my mind right now. Okay a year or so ago (under some circumstance, I can’t remember) I said, "oh my God, and it’s haunting me. I have talked to some people and read plenty of things about blasphemy, but I can’t seem to shake the feeling that I have sent myself to hell for saying that. I feel guilty for fearing hell and wonder if I’m really repentant and that scares me. I live in such fear of God, and I want to have a loving relationship with him but I’m riddled with such fear. I have read the scriptures about God forgiving ALL sin, even blasphemy, but I still feel terrible. I’m afraid that I will just "think" I’m saved but in the end, I’ll find out that I really wasn’t. I’m scared that God wants to forgive me but he can’t because I said that terrible thing last year. I’m scared that theologians misunderstood what Jesus said about the unforgivable sin and that I’m really doomed. I don't know what to do.

Fear is not of God, God has not given us a spirit of fear..... remember, he forgave us when we were yet sinners... and ALL have fallen short of the glory of God.... but we are not justified by what we do, but by his mercy... and his grace... it's not of our own efforts, but a gift of God.. it's not something we earn, but rather it's a gift.

If there is anything that gives comfort, think on those things.... fear is the opposite of faith... MEANING that it's a tool of the enemy I think that is the counterpart of faith... and the enemy loves to take people who love God and pervert the word of truth to them, the very word that would bring freedom he uses to terrorize us.

Lord please help this lady overcome her fear and doubts and to know you and your love without a shadow of doubt. Let that fear just fall away.

You are powerful!

HB

 

[annrobert]

Caty,
Jesus said in the bible all sins shall be forgiven unto man and whatsoever blashphemies they utter.Paul was also a former blasphemer, and he was forgiven.Blaspheming the Holy Spirit is rejecting his call to believe in Jesus with finality until death,it is despising Him whcich you never have.You had a slip of the tonque and Jesus knows that.You said you fear that Jesus wants to forgive you but can't, but the truth is Jesus said nothing is impossible to God, so God can forgive you and will forgive you.Jesus said He that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.No ifs ands or buts,for no reason.So Jesus will never cast you out, since you are coming to Him.I understand the fear and the worry,but you are safe in Jesus.So relax .Peter was forgiven for denying Jesus three times after walking with Him for three years.You are safe Caty.Rest in Jesus .We cannot trust our carnal minds,we must trust Jesus only.Jesus Bless You
annrobert

 

[Caty]

I love you guys & don't know what I would do without you! thank you.