I need an orthodox view please

[prodromos]

But that’s the thing...I did it after I was a Christian

There is nothing you can do that God is not willing to forgive you if you repent.
My confessor often told me that when I stand before God on the last day, He isn't going to say to me, ,"Why did you do this and why did you do that?", He is going to ask, "why didn't you get back up when you recognized you had fallen?"
When the prodigal son repented and started to return home, his father saw him when he was still a long way off and his father ran to meet him. This is the image you should have of God. He loves us so much that when we repent, He will run to meet us where we are and bring us back home. Never despair that you can't be forgiven. It is one of the tricks the evil one uses to keep us from repentance.

 

[ArmyMatt]

There is nothing you can do that God is not willing to forgive you if you repent.
My confessor often told me that when I stand before God on the last day, He isn't going to say to me, ,"Why did you do this and why did you do that?", He is going to ask, "why didn't you get back up when you recognized you had fallen?"
When the prodigal son repented and started to return home, his father saw him when he was still a long way off and his father ran to meet him. This is the image you should have of God. He loves us so much that when we repent, He will run to meet us where we are and bring us back home. Never despair that you can't be forgiven. It is one of the tricks the evil one uses to keep us from repentance.

agreed, it's a lie of the enemy to think we are ever beyond God's forgiveness.

 

[Stabat Mater dolorosa]

agreed, it's a lie of the enemy to think we are ever beyond God's forgiveness.

Besides it implies that somehow Satans more powerful than God which is horrible blasphemy.

 

[ArmyMatt]

Besides it implies that somehow Satans more powerful than God which is horrible blasphemy.

or, even worse, sin is more powerful than God

 

[Stabat Mater dolorosa]

or, even worse, sin is more powerful than God

And thus we have a huge crisis in our Christology.

 

[ArmyMatt]

And thus we have a huge crisis in our Christology.

we certainly would