i messed up

[coral27]

I pledged my purity a month ago after breaking up with my boyfriend of 5 1/2 years because we have been sexually active for 5 years. I still see him sometimes because we have that attachment. I knew this was going to be difficult because the most we ever went without sex was 6 days. after a month without it, i gave in. this was yesterday.
i dont want to tell anyone because i was so proud that i broke up with him and made the commitment i made to God. but now, i feel like i messed it all up. i wanted it to be perfect. i wanted to remain pure after that beautiful purity ceremony that i was a part of. i cant believe i let this happen. it was one of those situations where you tell yourself, "nothings gonna happen, i wont let it." but it did.
what do i do now? I cant shake off this guilt. i want to do awesome things for God, but this is my weakest area. i asked for forgiveness, but i dont know if thats enough. i dont know what to do about my relationship with God. tonight i just want to talk to him when i get a chance. i dont know what else to do. this isnt easy. can anyone relate? what if God gives up on me?
thanks for your input.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

He's not going to give up on you.
You've admitted this is your weakest point. If it wasn't so then you wouldn't be struggling. So now it's just gonna take some time to get control of yourself.

Don't be ashamed that you like sex. Nothing wrong with that. But now you know that these feelings get the best of you. So the important thing is to learn from your mistakes. Next time, what would you do differently?
perhaps seeing him at all right now isn't a good idea.

 

[nursestl]

I'm not sure what to say, but know that I am praying for you - for peace and an experience of God's love for you.

 

[Saucy]

You should do whatever it takes to stay away from men who don't care about having sex outside of marriage. There are good Christian men out there who hold onto those values. It takes two people with the same passion for purity to do this. You should draw the line in the sand. Don't end up alone in the same room with him, go on public dates or group dates, hang out with other friends...but there is no reason why you should be alone with someone.

 

[Johnnz]

God won't give up on you. You will find stopping sex is a real struggle. You are not a 'bad' Christian because it is so hard. Once activated our sex drive can be pretty demanding.

You will face some uncomfortable times and you will need to build some safeguards around you to help you from unnecessary pressures.

John
NZ

 

[PureLove]

we all make mistakes and the thing is God forgives anything but don't fall into the trap of not forgiving yourself..
its today, Jesus LOVES you
forgive yourself

LovE