I have depression...

[Katastrophe]

I've suffered from depression my entire life. I do take anti-dep meds. I've tried going off them...it's like a diabetic going without insulin. I still have to do my part.....read God's word, spend time with Him & trust Him no matter what may come.
I also am lonely.

 

[1hope]

DAVID, Have you tried to change some parts of your life style? Sometimes environment and circumstance are the problem. I know that for a fact. Like a lot of others who have posted I have gone through LIFE TIME of depression. I can recall when I wasn't even old enough to go to school I use to lay down on the bed and close my eyes thinking if I believed hard enough I would go to sleep and wake up in heaven because I didn't want to be on the earth - around other people.
I went through that my entire childhood and teen years. then in my early twenties I started trying to make changes in my life. Do active things, get into group stuff , an active church. At one time I was even going to see about helping out in an overseas ministry. I don't even remember where that idea came from. I had even start to take in stray puppies to care for, train, and find homes for.
Sadly I developed Chronic-Fatigue-Syndrome(I have a post on THAT subject in another forum) at the point things started changing for me. I was driven back into the life style I was trying to escape. But the changes I made for the short time really helped.I don't know enough about your circumstances but is there a way you could get a roommate or move someplace that has more to offer you? I hope I don't sound like I am simplifying your problem, believe me I'm not. You would want to pray about any decision you made first. God could open the door for any change you need.
Hehe, I remember when I first got the Chronic-Fatigue-Syndrome and wasn't able to work and see my friends, home alone all day, I would call "Time and temperature" on an average of 6 times a day just to hear another human voice - even a recorded one - now that's pathetic.

 

[Caedmon]

Awww, I love all you guys. I had such a hard time in high school and now that I think about it, for almost my whole life. But we're all brothers and sisters in Christ and we're still in it together. We'll never fail if we stick together.

 

[blerg1234]

I don't know what it is... seriously... my friend at another church is finding out some details on counselors there and she's gonna come with me when I go to see one.

I've done a bit of homework and I *think* I might be manic depressive because of the way things have been happening (ie. I remember one time 2 years ago for absolutely no reason I just got really really depressed, and it wasn't set off by any outside source).

I've also realised that... well... I like someone, a LOT, but it's bad because I don't see how I can like her because I hardly know her... and I just can't seem to lose those feelings, I'm thinking about her ALL the time, and I honestly don't know what it is... I want to get to know her better because then it'll make it easier for me to get over her, or maybe even she'll like me in the same way... I don't know... I'm just going through a pretty annoying and confusing time at the moment