I remember growing and up in school all the teachers reporting to my folks I was daydreaming all day and stuff. Nothing was worse than the punishment I endured in my youth as a grade schooler frome other kids I endured. The ridecule and harassment was endless, merciless. In the end I guess I was in a class by myself. The kids, the 'normal' kids were so far from me. In my innocence I wanted to be 'like' them and have a big group of friends but, also afraid of them. They were into things I wasn't. Sex, maybe even drinking, rowdiness. That much looking back on glad I didn't get into too soon (like them I suppose). Birds of a feather flock together but, I was alone.
Anyway, the older I get the more I am different from everyone else. Sometimes...... I feel stupid:o. I lack some common sense but, posess most if not all add symptoms. Iv'e recently within the last month or so been bumped back at work. Don't get me wrong, now the boss put up with a lot of my
(stupidity) like over the last year.... no 2 (can't lie). Anyways, I finally looked up on webmd symptoms of ADD. I had them all accept the hyper ones. I wish to God I could 'see clearly' and do everything I see even 15-16 year olds can do and not ever get repermanded for these mistakes. I feel kinda' low right now
. Another thing; I have NO perception of time, can't even tell you what the date is today though I know it's around the 20th of ... March. Gee if I got That one right, I'll be thrilled ... LOL
Anyways the time-passing thing is good cause sometimes I can't really tell if hours have actually passed (without looking at the clock). It takes me much longer to do tasks that would take others to do in much less time. Sometimes though I have difficulty waiting 10 minutes. Kinda spilled my guts but, hope to God someone will actually 'hear' me.
Anyway, the older I get the more I am different from everyone else. Sometimes...... I feel stupid:o. I lack some common sense but, posess most if not all add symptoms. Iv'e recently within the last month or so been bumped back at work. Don't get me wrong, now the boss put up with a lot of my
(stupidity) like over the last year.... no 2 (can't lie). Anyways, I finally looked up on webmd symptoms of ADD. I had them all accept the hyper ones. I wish to God I could 'see clearly' and do everything I see even 15-16 year olds can do and not ever get repermanded for these mistakes. I feel kinda' low right now. Another thing; I have NO perception of time, can't even tell you what the date is today though I know it's around the 20th of ... March. Gee if I got That one right, I'll be thrilled ... LOLAnyways the time-passing thing is good cause sometimes I can't really tell if hours have actually passed (without looking at the clock). It takes me much longer to do tasks that would take others to do in much less time. Sometimes though I have difficulty waiting 10 minutes. Kinda spilled my guts but, hope to God someone will actually 'hear' me.
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