I guess The Lord will just really knock you down, and then build you back up. Not even a full day ago i was wondering about if I could even survive. I was contempltating dropping out of college, which is crazy because everyone always tells me about how blessed I am because of my intelligence. I was just crying and I didn't have anywhere to go becuase I didn't want to burden my family with their problems when I already know they have their own. Let's just suffice to say that I was not thinking any happy or even rational thoughts and my actions that resulted from them would have been tragic and rash.
It was just weird because for the first time in my life I actually had to work at school,and I just couldn't figure out how to do it. As a result I was looking at failing one my core classes for my major that would have put me a year behind.
But because of an awesome and mighty God I passed the class. My teacher stipulated that I will have to take it over in the summer but I do not care I will be there everyday. I feel so blessed and so relieved. I can finally breathe again, maybe even smile without worries in the back of my mind about when the other shoe is going to fall.
I am not going to say it felt nice to be knocked down to the ground like I was. But I do understand why the Lord needed to remove my cockiness, so that I could come to him genuinly (he blessed me with intelligence but not a clue how to spell).
It was just weird because for the first time in my life I actually had to work at school,and I just couldn't figure out how to do it. As a result I was looking at failing one my core classes for my major that would have put me a year behind.
But because of an awesome and mighty God I passed the class. My teacher stipulated that I will have to take it over in the summer but I do not care I will be there everyday. I feel so blessed and so relieved. I can finally breathe again, maybe even smile without worries in the back of my mind about when the other shoe is going to fall.
I am not going to say it felt nice to be knocked down to the ground like I was. But I do understand why the Lord needed to remove my cockiness, so that I could come to him genuinly (he blessed me with intelligence but not a clue how to spell).
