I give up

[knw1991]

Thanks Kevin. I believe I'm worthless because I just am. From the day I was born in sin and into a horrible situation I knew I was worthless. Every man in my family has forsaken me. I have no reason to believe I'll ever find love. I have met deceitful men along the way and food thing I was able to recognize it after a few days of talking with them. But this has convinced me that I have to settle for them because I'm
Not worth meeting a good Christian guy. I feel like trash .So I give up on My desire to be a mom. I'm just in waiting to see what other hurtful thing will come My way. I know I am made for hurt to be used to be abandoned. I can't even pay for the school I've been accepted to. My dream of being a pa is gone. I have no money. Today my car is gone I can no longer use It. I have no way of getting to work and no way to save up money for other schools. My dream to be a pa is over. My life is over. Even if I was saved I can't enjoy it because apparently I have anxiety and depression which prevent me from feeling God's presence and love. I don't believe I'm saved

Too many hurts to be healed. Too many painful questions to trust God. I'm afraid that not being born with a father has set the course for my life to be painful and full of losses. Through my desperation today I took pills and threw up. I asked God to help me because I have nowhere to go. No one to carry me through this. I don't know if I can give these burdens to God or if he wants me to carry them.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

Pain, anxiety and depression don't prevent us from feeling Gods love and our feelings can be confusing too. The Lord and His apostles all experienced those things as well. I don't listen to preachers who talk about miraculous healings, and although I don't deny that miracles happen,, I know that in my walk with God I have experienced his comfort. Everyone focusses on healing but we sometimes forget that the Lord is our comforter as well. Why would we need a comforter if we are healed of everything? Don't give up, I am confident that in time you will grow into a deeper relationship with the Lord. I also felt like I wasn't saved after listening to these healing preachers but I looked at the Psalms and saw David who was in distress much of the time and so I listened to him instead of those preachers, and I now know that i'm saved. I love how God comforts and guides me, but it took a long time for me to see it. Don't give up, we will grow in time with patience. And remember, the Lord lives inside us and that relationship is more intimate than a relationship with a person because he feels our pain and He knows every tear that we shed. God is good and He is faithful. We just need patience.

 

[knw1991]

I don't know if there is unconfessdd sin in my life preventing me from feeling God's comfort and love. I asked for God to reveal to me any hidden sin.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

I don't know if there is unconfessdd sin in my life preventing me from feeling God's comfort and love. I asked for God to reveal to me any hidden sin.

Sometimes we have to be content in whatever situation we find our self in and trust God that he has a wonderful future planned for us. This future may not always be what we expect but if God gives it to us and we are diligently seeking Him then we will be happy regardless. The Apostle Paul said that he learned to be content in all things and that he found Gods power in his own weaknesses and in distresses, along with other things. I learned a lot from Paul but it still took me a while for God to teach it to me Himself. But Paul's words did teach me how to think properly and what to pray for. Scripture is our guide in this world, it has blessed me and helped me in my struggles and it continues to help me daily, i would be lost without the scriptures. Paul teaches us to meditate on the scriptures and do the things that they teach us. I hope this helps you as much as it has helped me in my life.

 

[dms1972]

I've been in that place of utter wretchedness and not knowing why - I used to say to myself its a "dark night of the soul" - I remember feeling for days on end there was no hope, utterly no hope for me. Nothing - no one I could talk to tell for I had tried that, no hope of meaningful relationship for others insinuated I didn't deserve it or that I was better off on my own - or that I was only self-serving, and deserved all the indifference of others that I experienced.

But there most truly is hope even in that dark prison of despair. It's just not something you can work up or exert on command sometimes.

Hope won't grow impatient with you. When you turn round hope will be there, if life seems too difficult hope will remain when you don't feel it, or cannot work it up.

Only Jesus of Nazareth, and His Words can truly bring you this sort of Hope. His Grace and Truth can yet meet you.

Psalm 23 and Psalm 42

Hope re-kindled is such that it is so faint at first we hardly notice it. But Truth is its foundation, not our feelings.

Keep going even in small things, your daily activities, anything to keep stuff from getting on top of you.

Keep in touch with people, even online.

I pray but don't feel much quite often. But God's word is sure - his mercies are new every morning.

It may take time but things can change for you and how you view things.

Meditate as RestoresMysoul above says - take into your deepest heart hope-kindling words of scripture. Trust God to make those words live in you and sustain you.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

 

[NumberOfStars]

praying for you knw