i feel like my life is pointless

[Dan the Man]

thank you johenah and brinny. hetta, being alive is not a blessing when you want nothing more than to be dead. I shouldn't be here and I don't want to be. maybe im just weak and feeling sorry for myself but that's just the way it is. and all of my family has kicked me out of their lives because of my anger and violence issues. I had one friend who I could talk to about stuff but they just recently stopped talking to me too. I am a hot headed jerk so it is no one's fault but my own.

 

[brinny]

thank you johenah and brinny. hetta, being alive is not a blessing when you want nothing more than to be dead. I shouldn't be here and I don't want to be. maybe im just weak and feeling sorry for myself but that's just the way it is. and all of my family has kicked me out of their lives because of my anger and violence issues. I had one friend who I could talk to about stuff but they just recently stopped talking to me too. I am a hot headed jerk so it is no one's fault but my own.

Dan, i'm currently re-visiting my study of the Book of Job, one of the most diss-understood and maligned men (and books) in the Bible. He was raw-ly honest with God, and he prayed to just die (he's not the only man in the Bible who wanted to die, Elijah, the great prophet also wanted to die) and consequently in this day and age he (Job) might've said those same words. "it is what it is".

I pray because only God can move and minister and shine light onto the utter seeming un-ending darkness of senseless suffering. That is what i'm praying for you. Peace to you, and KNOW that you are appreciated for everything you've done, and that even if this sounds like utter nonsense, God CAN and DOES raise beauty from ashes.

GLORIOUS RUINS - HILLSONG LIVE (Lyric Video) - YouTube

 

[orangeness365]

Thank you for serving your country. maybe you can spend time pming your online friends. Ask them about their lives. Can you talk to your sons? maybe spend more time reading and talking to your aunt and uncle. I'm sorry your aggressive tendencies have driven people out of your life. Do you know what makes you that way? Can you change it? Is it a scar from war?

 

[johenah1633]

thank you johenah and brinny. hetta, being alive is not a blessing when you want nothing more than to be dead. I shouldn't be here and I don't want to be. maybe im just weak and feeling sorry for myself but that's just the way it is. and all of my family has kicked me out of their lives because of my anger and violence issues. I had one friend who I could talk to about stuff but they just recently stopped talking to me too. I am a hot headed jerk so it is no one's fault but my own.

You are welcome (continued prayers). I have to say though i didn't want to admit it. Sometimes I feel like my life can be a lost cause too. At the same time, I know that God cares about and values both of our lives too Dan. The only thing that helps me to get out of bed in the morning is the hope i have in God that never fails (Romans 5). It might sound cheesy to many, but it's true. My family doesn't want alot to do with me either and any friends that i have had that are my age have diminised. I know what it's like to feel alone too, but here's the good thing... We're not! God is with us and will never forsake us. Private message me if you want to talk about anything.

 

[Nilla]

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[brinny]

Praying to the One Who can and does raise beauty from ashes and send into a tailspin all that speaks lies and pounds those nails one after the other on our coffins not authorized by the One Who gives us Life, and Hope, and Promises that actually DO come to fruition. Praying that He mooooves on your behalf in your mind, heart, soul, and removes what is the antithesis to what He formed into place, for you since before the foundation of the world. Father may it be so, in jesus name, amen. (((hug)))

Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) - Hillsong United - Lyrics - Zion 2013 - YouTube

 

[redeemedbygrace24]

Praying for you Dan, you are not alone in this, praying for the Lord to "satisfy you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's." (Psalm 103)

 

[tuolumne]

Praying for you, Dan. Thank you for your sacrifice to our country.

 

[NeedHisLove321]

O, i am a depressive and have often asked for prayer w it. Keeping busy has helped me the most. Yet, ur so down, u dont wanna get up and moving. Sometimes i set little goals. Im doing the dishes. Ill write a letter after my tv show. Medicine dont work for me. But keeping my mind and body occupied helps. Of course Jesus can heal u in an instant! Ive had four healings. I PRAY HARD for you. I know what pointless feels like. Joyce Meyer is great for ppl like us. Library books or youtube videos? Heal soon, w love...

 

[brinny]

O, i am a depressive and have often asked for prayer w it. Keeping busy has helped me the most. Yet, ur so down, u dont wanna get up and moving. Sometimes i set little goals. Im doing the dishes. Ill write a letter after my tv show. Medicine dont work for me. But keeping my mind and body occupied helps. Of course Jesus can heal u in an instant! Ive had four healings. I PRAY HARD for you. I know what pointless feels like. Joyce Meyer is great for ppl like us. Library books or youtube videos? Heal soon, w love...

Bless yer heart.....it's precious to share your experiences and testimonies.....it edified me reading your post. A heart such as yours is precious to our heavenly Father. I can sooooo relate to your user name. I need His love. Desperately.

God bless yer precious heart. Keep shining dear one (((hug)))

Continuing to pray for Dan. He is precious in God's sight, but maybe just don't know it yet. (((hug)))

 

[whitebeaches]

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