Im starting to just sin ans not care because I feel nothing towards it at all I dont feel any remorse and im afraid that the holy spirit has indeed left me I cant even feel him when I worship and when i read the word it doesnt affect me anymore its like i dont have the spirit to recieve it anymore and I have no peace in my soul whatsoever like at all i am restless and empyy everyday and were supposed to have the fruits of the spirit and i dont have any its not normal at all, & I felt something leave me after it happened it was this power that left me and i habe been immune to anything of God ever since I dont even think I can stop sinning anymore because I feel nothing when i do it.
anyway, another thing to do is to prepare a testimony or journal of your life transformations from being a christian versus living a life of sin. It will create gratitude and allow you to share your faith with others. This is my testimony that was on my profile, I thought I would share it with you....some of it is not worded for here but you will get the picture.....
When the word my last breath contained was “Jesus”
No matter what I tried to throw into my life there still seemed to be something missing. Oh, it wasn’t a religion or anything like that. I needed something powerful, something real. I needed a somebody not a something. Someone who knew what was going on. Someone who loved me just as I was. I knew there was a God but the fact that He actually liked me and cared for me was a foreign concept to me. So I continued to throw endlessly into this hole all the things that I was always taught would fill me: relationships, sports, fitness, hobbies, career, and any other vain thing I could; but I was not filled. I became worried and more frustrated than ever. But I was left hungry for more
love, more fulfillment.
A friend invited me to church because he knew my emptiness, he had it before. We are in a fallen world and have been separated from God by our sins against Him. I stopped going for a while and then decided to go on my own. I met a girl there. We started dating. To my surprise, after the girl was gone I was still going to church. I found out that I loved it, and I saw that there was something no girl could give, the unconditional love of God To ME. Also at church, for some reason, people didn’t care about my age, style, past, or color, they received me as a brother. At a winter camp in the mountains I was listening to the speaker and I realized that just because I went to church didn’t mean I was a Christian. And I finally figured out that not only was God real, but God loved me beyond all human
comprehension and has been waiting all of my life for me to finally realize it. So one day in spring I prayed and asked Christ into my heart to be my Savior and Lord. How? Acts 16:31 says “believe in the Lord Jesus and you will be saved.” But belief by definition has commitment involved, so when I believed I simultaneously casted down all my other god’s I was worshiping, god of money (molek), god of sex (Astarte), god of sports (Gr. Athena),god of pride (nimrod)- I humbled myself and I was saved. Now my desire is to pray to my God and to read His love letter every day to find out just what those promises mean, and what abundant life is all about- Jesus Christ! Why should you care? You don’t have time for God, right? You have too many unanswered questions right? Too many contradictions needing to be corrected before you will commit to this way of life? Well, God’s offer stands and you can stand there scratching you head like I did for years thinking- ‘I wonder if it’s true?” Or you can, like me and countless others, let go of your life, and let God take your fears of death, and of life, and of what other people thing of you and you can stand to be different. How hard is it to sin? Not hard at all. How hard is it to give in to temptation? Easy as cake. Now, how hard is it to follow Jesus? Way hard, too hard to do on our own for sure… and this is why Religion fails. Man is trying to live a Godly life and refusing to accept God’s free gift of life. We need God’s personal relationship established by free adoption into His family through the benefits of being Born again (anew). Why should you care? See, because we are not forced to do the ‘right thing;’ Christianity unlike most Religions, allows me to step aside and look at my life and ‘choose’ for myself that this is what I want, I don’t have to jump in the band wagon anymore, I don’t have to. God taught me not ‘how it was’ but for the first time in my life I was taught to think for myself and to come to my own conclusions through the personal aid of the Holy Spirit surrounding my life. Before I asked for forgiveness and prayed to receive salvation, I was forced to be a slave to everyone else’s ideas, to just believe what people said because they have a degree. Once I started to think for myself things were different. No longer were things true ‘just because we said so.’ Everything has a purpose for being so. And I found out that I have a purpose for being too. And you have purpose. You are not, contrary to popular belief, a random conglomeration of molecules that decided to make itself legs, and lungs, and eyes and walk out of the sludge somewhere. When you learn to think you realize certain things. This stuff just doesn’t happen, it just doesn’t! Why is it that we can believe in things so bizarre and crazy when at the same time forget the simple logic of God.
A few years later my faith got stale, and I backslid into the world. Then, I got in an 80mph collision with the center divider of the freeway where the car flipped three times and skidded 500 feet on the roof, right down the fast lane of morning commute. And I’ll tell you what, nothing makes you think about the afterlife when either you or someone you know are in the process of death. 10 out of 10 die.
Now, while skidding to my death, I said to God “If you are real…, and if you save me…, right now lord as I am skidding to my death…I will give you my life. And He not only saved me but I didn’t have a scratch on me (and the car was totaled). The Highway patrol officer said He saw the car flipping from the other lanes on the south bound side, He said it was end over end. He thought we had internal bleeding for sure and ordered us to a nearby hospital. But we were perfectly unscathed.
2 Pet 3:9 says paraphrased--
“The Lord is not slack (He doesn’t delay) concerning His promises, but even though it seems that way to some, He is actually very long-suffering (or extraordinarily patient) toward us. And He is not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.” He isn’t willing for us to crash in this life, He want’s us to be safe.
My sole question in life, is something I completely don’t understand- why isn’t everyone a Christian? It was once said “An atheist has a reason but no hope for his reason. A hypocrite has a hope, but no reason for His hope. A Christian Has a reason for his hope and a hope for His reason; and, I might add: Life with Christ is an endless hope.
Without Christ is a hopeless end.
See before I was a christian but I lacked enthusiasm. Enthusiasm means literally = En-thios. or Full of God. So before I lacked being full of God, or having enthusiasm. But after wrecking my life, with nothing left inside, I had a perfect opportunity to fill that void with God. En-thios.
If you wish to become a Christian, simply believe in Jesus Christ's sacrifice on the cross and resurrection from the dead the third day. Turn from your life of self sufficiency and turn to Jesus. Lay down the idols of your life, and follow Him sincerely. Doesn't mean you have to be perfect, it just means that now you are honest with yourself that you are sinner in need of Grace, and came to the cross in seek of grace. If you do not believe these things you do not make it. 10 out of 10 people die:
National Safety Counsel states the chances of surviving various illness and situations
If you wish to be saved it's ABC simple. A= admit you are a sinner and that you cannot get to heaven by your own goodness. If you think that you are not perfect but yet God will still let you into heaven watch this short film
(click here). IF you know that you cannot get to heaven because of your sin, continue reading. IF you believe in Christ you are saved. simple. But as described, belief by nature has commitment. You must do something, and we rarely do things we don't actually believe. You must A=dmit you are sinner, B=elieve that Christ died, and C=ommit to Him. If you dont' do the above you don't make it to heaven when you die. What is commitment. It's simply saying that now you are not a follower of the world, that primarily you are not a stock trader, that primarily you are not a business man, or a skater, or a musician. That primarily your identity is in Christ. This faith though it be as small as a mustard seed will move mountains and allow you to pass through the valley of the shadow of death, to your destination of heaven. message me above with your concerns. Test: when you receive Christ as saviour, where is He? Is he in heaven? No, He is in your heart and becomes your strength:
