Meeting someone can be challenging... if there be things/situations/or personal idiosyncrasies that negatively impact the chances to incorporate someone into your life, even acquainting them with your family can pose problems, not to mention how the adversary(devil) can throw monkey-wrenches into your plans. Life ain't without it's challenges, that's for sure!
Issues have to be dealt with before seriously seeking out a future spouse, no sense in dragging those unresolved issues into a serious courtship and into a marriage...but I know many who have and they had to face the consequences, which sadly in the majority of those marriages lead to divorce and innocent children being deeply wounded by dueling parents who didn't resolve issues before tying the knot.
I see much mention about your health, expressed attitude towards wanting to die, poor choices, lack of this or that etc... challenges many of us face when seeking a love interest or a future spouse. !
Me and my health issues...my love married me anyway, at the time I didn't even have health insurance, I paid out of pocket for everything! I met him online, there not be much between dating online or out in the real world, you find liars, players, deceptions etc on and off line...I know because I experienced both for many years before meeting the man I got married to. Another thing, my husband ain't of the same denomination as I am, what we did was settle on one church to attend before we got married, we agreed to attend the nearest bible teaching church before we moved. We also agreed that we'd set in place a yearly bible study for couples, and that we'd take part in one another's hobbies. We've been doing that since we made the agreement prior to getting married...that was over a decade ago now, so when we purposed a thing we put into to practice from day one and we keep to it.
Now I've been part of different churches and have done my fair share of dating when I was single.
I also know that even if you date people within your own denomination, you will find deferring opinions on biblical things/beliefs...even when the bible be clear on something there'll be someone in the relationship or marriage who won't accept what the scripture teaches...specially on this thing about following your heart. I know men and women who have followed they hearts and they speak on the subject as if it's taught in the bible. That's why so many engage in affairs, they be following they hearts instead of following what the Lord say on the matter in the bible.
There be a Christian website for HIV positive christians and who knows what other websites be available... I know of a herpes dating site because a friend of mine found that site for people with herpes several years ago and that the HIV website was mentioned on the forum. She say it good because now she don't have to keep putting her illness out there, she dates and doesn't have to tell another guy who gets serious with her about herpes and isn't faced with the relationship ending at that very moment. She went through that way too many times before she found that dating website for people with herpes.
So there's much hope and resources available for all kinds of people whether they be sick or healthy. Pray on this matter...then make notes of the resources available in your own area, also sit down and go over what your strengths and weaknesses are, then make a realistic list of what you actually need to be looking for in a future spouse according to biblical teaching...like Boaz did. He already had a good fix on the type of wife suitable for himself and he found those qualities in Ruth...she being faithful and true in her devotion to God and to her mother in-law. Boaz found Ruth gleaning in his field...the Lord still brings people together, we need to be about making ourselves ready, learning to be a godly woman or godly man, following humbly with the Lord, showing mercy, acting justly...which be how Boaz and Ruth behaved not only towards one another but also towards others.
