I am trying to figure out if I am depressed/upset about turning 45

[whitestar]

I know, dumb...you would think I would know if I was or not...I didn't think I was, but I am being AWFUL grumpy the last few days... I turned 45 Monday...birthdays have never bothered me before, so why should this one?

Maybe its other stuff...like needing reading glasses to see the computer...maybe its falling down the last few steps of the basement stair last fall and yanking my shoulder cause my hand got caught in the railing and now after months of it not healing I am doing the rounds with drs and tests to figure out what damage has been done...blah...

Maybe its some silly young telemarker calling me today and I couldn't HEAR him...told him so, he turned the sound up, then I still misunderstood what he was saying (though to my credit I haven't had problems understanding anyone else on the phone) but he treated me like an old lady....I finally said, "I don't want to fool with this now..." (it was some question thing about my phone services...blech...like I would know! (ok so yes I am the only adult here so I should know but I forget and I don't really care...)..

Maybe its aches and pains that I am already tired of. Maybe its enjoying talking to elderly people when before I couldn't stand too? Maybe its....oh who's knows what is it....

Oh yea I turned off my age thing on here this week cause I totally cannot stand seeing flashing ballons all week on every post I do! Was driving me nutty!

So maybe I am a halfway grumpy old lady?

sigh

 

[FlatpickingJD]

It sounds like you've had a lot of things hit you all to once and that's what you're feeling. I don't think it's necessarily depression. Do you still enjoy doing the things you used to? Do you still function? If you continue to feel "blue" for more than a few weeks, then it might be depression, but I wouldn't think it is right now.

And the telemarketer thing is neither depression nor your birthday - that's just an all-around annoyance and the guy was probably mumbling or talking too fast anyway. Don't worry about it.

 

[whitestar]

And the telemarketer thing is neither depression nor your birthday - that's just an all-around annoyance and the guy was probably mumbling or talking too fast anyway. Don't worry about it.

Yea I am being overly sensitive I suppose. Its been a VERY hectic week and I am stressed and badly needing a down day....a rest and veg at the computer day!! lol. I hate it when I try to do my bible study and I can't concertrate cause I have too much floating around in my head...

I don't really feel depressed, just grumpy anyway...blah

 

[MMXII]

whitestar

I get grumpy...a lot more than I used to. My best friend and I say when we get "old" we're going to say what comes in our mind and not think about the reprecussions. You know how old folk are...they just let it fly

I hope you get feeling better!!

 

[GritsnGrace]

{{{whitestar}}} I do know how you feel. I turn 50 in a few months. But it doesn't bother me, (the age thing, I mean) Yeah, I have some health issues, bill issues, but, at least I am past the teen issues!!! Praise God!!! lol!!! You need some serious 'Me Time' Find a favorite book, lock the door, and relax!!

 

[whitestar]

It just seems like I can't get caught up around here to have some down time... On Sundays I try very hard to have that down time since the Lord said to 'rest on the Sabbath'... I go to church then veg on the net doing bible discussions/debates because that is how I learn the best! So that is my favorite activity...researching and studying scriptures in depth. This house cleaning stuff is for the birds!!

Of course if I was rich and had a house cleaner and maid and all that, I would sit here until I was 100 and grow into this chair and the keyboard....they would have to use tools to unpry me... And that would probably not be a good thing!!! ha! Not too mention the only things getting any exercise would be my typing fingers!! lol

Now the muscles on my fingers are in tip top shape! I should have typing races...mmmmm...do they have events like that? See who can 'race' by typing the fastest? It could be a new sports event!!!

Couldn't be anymore boring then watching bowling on TV anyway...haha

 

[Tricia4Jesus]

I know that for me right around my birthdays I get into a funk. Not really about the past, but what the future holds, then a few days later I snap out of it as if it never happened. The reality of turning 40 flipped me for a loop, however, when 41 came around it didn't bother me as much.

 

[loribee59]

for me, I'm in AWE of having lived 47 years and I don't get depressed about my age. at one time I did get a little b*tchy about turning 30, but after that, I'm fine with being older.
when I was born, CD's, cell phones, satellites, weren't even around. I wonder what new invention is being made right now.
there are times I wished I was in another age, another time. But then again, I'm here, and will have to make the most of the technology available to make my life easier.

actually, it all really depends on how you look at life, and how well you handle growing older, too.

...as for typing races...I'm not so sure...

 

[mesue]

...So maybe I am a halfway grumpy old lady?

sigh

Half way? Girl! Go all the way! We're at a point in our lives when we can go all the way in all we do. I like my age, I don't act it, but I like it.

 

[CherylLynn]

for me, I'm in AWE of having lived 47 years and I don't get depressed about my age. at one time I did get a little b*tchy about turning 30, but after that, I'm fine with being older.
when I was born, CD's, cell phones, satellites, weren't even around. I wonder what new invention is being made right now.
there are times I wished I was in another age, another time. But then again, I'm here, and will have to make the most of the technology available to make my life easier.

actually, it all really depends on how you look at life, and how well you handle growing older, too.

...as for typing races...I'm not so sure...

I noticed a lot of people had a problem turning 30. I did. I am actually looking forward to 50.

 

[Ritz]

ahh did I write this? I understand everything you wrote and I think you're just feeling the changes going on that yes make us a bit loopy and mad about circumstance! My eyes "went" this year! I also can't stand the way things flash on here..am I grumpy,maybe. Hon,I'll be 46 in Sept.

I'll be posting my memoirs about life soon.

 

[loribee59]

I noticed a lot of people had a problem turning 30. I did. I am actually looking forward to 50.

wasn't there a quote about the age of 50 is the new "30" or something like that?

Not sure how I'm going to deal with being 50...yet. Can't predict what this year or the next two years will bring. For now, I live in the "now" the present, and make that day COUNT.

BTW~ my birthday is tomorrow, the 9th. Since CF is based on Aussie time, it's the 9th over "there" LOL I get to celebrate my birthday twice hehe.

 

[whitestar]

wasn't there a quote about the age of 50 is the new "30" or something like that?

Not sure how I'm going to deal with being 50...yet. Can't predict what this year or the next two years will bring. For now, I live in the "now" the present, and make that day COUNT.

BTW~ my birthday is tomorrow, the 9th. Since CF is based on Aussie time, it's the 9th over "there" LOL I get to celebrate my birthday twice hehe.

Hey my birthday is tomorrow too! oh boy! lol....though we kind of had a small family celebration today...went over to my mom's after church and had dinner with her, her husband and one of my sister's surprised me by being there from out of town. I got a massage seat cushione that heats up and vibrants too for those sore backs like mine! It can be used in the car too...plug it in the cig lighter thingie...so on long trips when my back gets to hurting I can use it... I have it on right now on my computer chair though on high it makes the screen appear to be jumping!!

I have a bad back so this is nice. And I got some money and a check...yea! Oh and my son got me a teddy bear holding two tiny nut crackers...why nutter crackers I do not know! Last year he got me a big one with red white and blue on it like for the 4th of July! So these little ones will go with the big one I guess. I have no idea why he thinks I like nut crackes...

I don't mind being this old cause I know so much more then I used too!! lol.....I just don't like the other stuff that comes with it!! My son is just 10 so he has ALOT more engery then I do!

 

[whitestar]

for me, I'm in AWE of having lived 47 years and I don't get depressed about my age. at one time I did get a little b*tchy about turning 30, but after that, I'm fine with being older.
when I was born, CD's, cell phones, satellites, weren't even around. I wonder what new invention is being made right now.
there are times I wished I was in another age, another time. But then again, I'm here, and will have to make the most of the technology available to make my life easier.

actually, it all really depends on how you look at life, and how well you handle growing older, too.

...as for typing races...I'm not so sure...

Oh yea I remember 8 track tapes and my boyfriends getting SO mad when their tapes got 'ate' by the tape players...lol. Then they went to regular tapes...still had recorders around. I have tons of 45 records still...then went to CD's...and still it goes on and on...sometimes I wander around in the stores just to see what new stuff has come out...the 'pods' that ruin your hearing! gee I heard warnings about that just going to a concert! lol.

The VSH movies came out and everyone had to buy the VSH players...now DVD's...I think they make these 'improvements' just so folks have to by the lastest stuff and they faze out the old stuff whether you want them fazed out or not! I still see people trying to sell 8-tracks in garage sales....lol. One time I felt sorry for this person and bought some 8 tapes....have no way to play them...but someday I can show my son who I am sure will laugh about it. He likes my 45 records though...

 

[Tattered]

Whitestar, you are entitled to be a little bit blue. There's nothing wrong with it. Just do something nice for yourself and see how much better you feel. ... me ... I'm just happy to be alive whether I'm 40 or 90

Hon,I'll be 46 in Sept.

oooo! me too! September 22nd

 

[CherylLynn]

I hope you are feeling a wee bit better today.