Forgive me if I have missed something......but where is the calling from God to lead His people????? I am a member of a SBC and I'm just not reading it here in any of this thread.
All I have to say to you is, wow. Thank You.

You encouraged me so much. I made over 40 dollar an hr, which is alot around here, and left my job, I lost my family, I lost anything and everything for that testimony. A testimony, that up until I posted it here, a handful of people knew. I am not a pastor yet because of a few reasons. 1-I still had over 30k in credit card debt and a family to take care of, so I still had to at least stay employed. 2-My wife and I grew apart, leading to divorce, and the pastor of the CoG we attended, saying unless our marriage was sound, he couldn't 'lift' me to be a pastor. I didn't grow up in church, let alone Southern Baptist.
I re-married a woman that has been raped, beaten, abused as a child, left to die twice by a man, and has 4kids. She has been going to this church since she was 9, and I see why. The people there are excellent. I was separated for almost 3yrs when we met. Most of my friends and some family have counted me as loony, as they are not religious; even some asking me to go get a cat scan, to see if I have brain tumors. I don't.
The Lord called me. That's all I need to survive. I will admit, I have lived the life of Jonah for the last 2-3 yrs, yet I am listening now, waiting. Not running away, to be swallowed up by this world. The church I attend has been standing since 1850, and has no pastor, not having one for some time now.
God told me to volunteer to pastor the church, when I was teaching the Experimenting God course there.
I did as I was told, as I'm tired of living the life of Jonah. I expect nothing, and it seems it will be nothing. But..I still haven't finished my part.
Do you know how hard it was for me to get re-baptized? Hard. Because the first time, I was baptized because Jesus Christ told me too. The next time, because a pastor told me that to become a member of the Baptist, it had to be through baptism. I felt as though I was doing it for man, and not God. But, I quickly felt better, as I realize that God already knew I would have to do that.
Maybe, spiersdodgerblue, it has nothing to do with me being a preacher there. Maybe God just wanted to see if I would listen to Him, and maybe He wanted to see if the people at the church would grab ahold and say, God sent us someone to minister, as He always has. There are members there that have been members for 60yrs. Yes, they are around 78-80, and have attended church there their whole life; also they are friends with my wife. They tell stories of how they didn't have a pastor one Sunday, and they were praying outside the church, asking God to send them a pastor. All of a sudden, here comes a man on a 'buggy', a buggy, .. saying God told him to come here and preach
Seems like the God of that church hasn't changed, but now they have to approve a pastor's 'calling' through a committee.
Thank You, Phil and others for your comments and help, it truly helped me. I understand that God's child is always that, and nothing could separate Him from us. Yet, I have another understanding, and if it go against the SBS, then so be it. That understanding is that though God will never leave, nor forsake us; we can depart from Him in sin, and He will always come searching for us as 1 sheep lost in His pack, and rejoice when we are brought back home.
Spiersdodgerblue, Your comment caused me not to sleep much last night. It is sad. I hope you look more into people in the future, than you did me. God Bless.