I am so depressed!

[peace_ful_life2001]

Starting from early February, I feel so blue all the time. If you ask me why, I cannot really identify the cause. Maybe because of school.I don't really know. I just feel so sad all the time. a lot of times, i will cry for no reason. Friends? They don't seem to care. I tried reaching out but what did I get in return? One of them talked behind my back and my other friend is now being cold to me. I don't know what's wrong. I am hurt because my other friend really believe in that "behind-the-back-talk". And because of this, I am even more depressed. I don't have any close friends that I can spit my sadness to. I just feel so helpless. and I also applied for many jobs and i got quite a few interviews. It is always like this. when I am close to getting something, then that thing will just slips away from me.

I pray and try to battle this whole thing: friends, school, career
but I can't do that anymore. I am so tired. someone, please help me get thru this.

If i hv never existed, things will be much better i guess
if people could care more, the world would be so much different

so messed up now i don't even know what i am talking about

 

[RSteel]

I think I almost envy your situation...

 

[Angel_Delight]

Hi

firstly heres a big hug to you

i can relate to alot of what you are feeling, i felt the same way, i'd spend days in tears and have no clue why i was even crying, it is such an awful feeling and i felt that no one cared and that the whole world had turned its back on me.

Have you been to the doctors? if you haven't then i think you should, don't be afraid to reach out and get help.

Praying for you

 

[goldenviolet]

aaaah, ....snuggles from heaven.

 

[peace_ful_life2001]

I think I almost envy your situation...

Envy? suprised to hear that. Why? Rsteel.

 

[peace_ful_life2001]

Angel_Delight and rdee,

Thanks.
I did not see the doctor. Do I need one?
I just don't wanna make it big. Don't want my family to worry.

Angel_Delight, so how did you get thru your situation?

I don't know what to do now. Always wanna cry.
I sometimes just wanna get drunk and have a good sleep.
Last time I did. I drank and drove, which now I think back, such action is really unwise. And I regret it so much for doing such stupid thing that would endanger the safety of the public.
But I so wanna get drunk.

My rational side of my brain, on the other hand, keeps telling me that drinking is not a solution to any problems.

I don't know. At least, getting drunk is a temporary solution I guess and I can temporarily forget all these things.

 

[LessIsMore]

when my depression was at it's worst it affected my entire life. i couldn't sleep at all which made it hard to pay attention in school and near impossible to have the energy for sports. i went to the doctor hoping she'd prescribe me some nice sleeping pills,but, she saw what the real problem was and asked if i felt depressed or had thought of suicide. b/c i answer those questions honestly it was obvious i needed professional help.
here's a good guideline to situations like these (and life in general):
Be honest with God
Be honest with yourself
Respond Accordingly

I'll be praying for you guys and all of your prayers would mean the world to me.

Eli

 

[Angel_Delight]

Angel_Delight and rdee,

Thanks.
I did not see the doctor. Do I need one?
I just don't wanna make it big. Don't want my family to worry.

Angel_Delight, so how did you get thru your situation?

I don't know what to do now. Always wanna cry.
I sometimes just wanna get drunk and have a good sleep.
Last time I did. I drank and drove, which now I think back, such action is really unwise. And I regret it so much for doing such stupid thing that would endanger the safety of the public.
But I so wanna get drunk.

My rational side of my brain, on the other hand, keeps telling me that drinking is not a solution to any problems.

I don't know. At least, getting drunk is a temporary solution I guess and I can temporarily forget all these things.

My personal opinion is that you should see a doctor, if your wanting to get drunk to "escape" then it sounds like you need some help to deal with things, it's good that you realise getting drunk isn't a solution to your problems, it just prolongs your pain because you have to deal with this at some point.

My depression is a side effect of my Thyroid condition and a result of long term illness but i now see a therapist and i'm on medication for depression which has helped me alot, i still have good and bad days but when things were really bad, life just seemed pointless and it was like i was in a big black hole.

keep us updated on how things are going

 

[Mr.Cheese]

The winter months are generally more difficult.

But you do exist. It wasn't your choice to be in the world, but now that you're here you have to make the best of it.

 

[soyness]

Talk to God. the best remedy.

also people will disappoint you all the time, but that's because we're all sinners. I totally understand you on this. I feel like you are talking about my situation. I think, one thing that helps is to think that we all have problems and issues, and it's a possibility that they may have issues to deal with and they're on their own depression.

Maybe it's your perception that they are ignoring/rejecting you. I know I STRUGGLE with this a lot. But some of us are really sensitive and think that they are rejecting us, when they are actually in thier own little world.

Life is difficult, but we have Jesus to carry our burdens.

With school and career, just lift it up to God. Do the best you can, hun. Also with jobhunting, man, the economy is still really bad, I have friends that are having hard time with jobs. so it's not only you. Maybe God's putting you in a season to depend on Him more?

 

[peace_ful_life2001]

yea, winter months really makes people think blue.
i will try to live my day happily.

Thanks you guys!
I'll keep you guys updated.