I am lost, not sure where to start?

[Roachi]

I am not entirely new to Christianity. As a kid and a teen, i went to church, sunday school and youth group. It was a choice i made on my own as my mother (raised in a single parent household) was not religious and did not accompany me. Throughout my life, i've tried to go back to church, to learn more about God's word, to get closer to him, but i've failed. I know that my heart has always been with god, i just don't want to fail again. I don't know where to start.

I went to church yesterday for the first time in about 4 years. All i can say is that it changed me. It made me so emotional that i was teary eyed for most of the day. I decided then and there that i wanted to accept Jesus into my heart and my life, and immediately prayed. I want so badly to make a life long commitment to him. It's just i feel like i am not worthy, and i am lost, I feel so hopeless.

 

[SharonL]

God is smiling down on you right now, the teary eyes all day yesterday is the touch of the Holy Spirit. You are on the right track - all you need to do is ask Jesus into your heart and repent of your sins and your name is written in the Lamb's Book of Life. The Bible tells us that no one can snatch you from the hands of Jesus.

Don't feel lost because Jesus is walking by your side every step of the way. You don't need a big meeting to kneel down and ask Jesus into your heart - He is only a heartbeat away.

Just walk hand in hand with Jesus and let the Holy Spirit guide you - that small tug at your heart to show you the way and what to do is the leading of the Holy Spirit and He will never lead you in the wrong direction.

Jesus loves you so much and you are certainly worthy of God's Love and you are no longer lost. Just celebrate the most important decision in your life and let the Joy of the Lord show through your face and let your new walk be a witness to the Love of God - Jesus is so very proud of you.

 

[1watchman]

Roachi, none of us are "worthy", so just be glad for God's mercies. Sharon gave you good advice. If you have talked to the Lord Jesus and received Him into your heart, He is there. You can then walk with Him and talk with Him everyday (see 2 Cor. 10:5). We need that intimate communion.

Read your Bible everyday --I recommend reading the gospel of John, then the Epistle to the Romans, before you begin at Genesis. If you read a chapter in the Old Testament (O.T.) then a chapter in the N.T. you will see the mind of God. One needs to see the difference between the religion of Israel of old and the Church today.

- 1 Watchman

 

[Peripatetic]

Not any one of us is any more worthy than you. That is the miracle of God's grace. Are you familiar with the parable of the Prodigal Son? If not, please read Luke 15:11-32. That lesson was written for any of us that feel as you do. The son did so much wrong that he assumed his father would disown him and only hoped to be accepted back as a servant. But what happens when he came home?

But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

Notice it says "while he was still a long way off". So God already started celebrating your return long before you went to church yesterday. He has compassion for you. We are to conclude from this lesson that if we return to Jesus, He will run to meet us and embrace us fully, no matter what we think of our worthiness.

 

[MARKedByChrist]

Roachi, I know how you feel, trust me. Before I became a Christian, my life was full of days despising any sort of religion and doing the opposite of what the Bible tells you to do. It was almost a bottom feeder existence. I didn't do anything illegal or something I really regret to this day, I just had no purpose, but I also had no peace. I became a Christian after reading the "Left Behind" book series in a bookstore about 6 years ago. After reading the books, I had to go into the bathroom from crying so much. I bought a Bible that very day and started reading the Gospels, and the tears came more. 3 years later, I became a worker of the Lord, a fisher of men through Christ.

As Watchman said, read the Gospel of John, then Romans. Speaking of Romans though, there is this sort of "12 Step Program" called the Roman's Road to Salvation, something I used myself as well. I felt hopeless, dirty and completely unworthy of it, but as it was pointed out by Watchman also, we are all unworthy. But we can take peace and comfort in the fact that we will be and are forgiven for the sins we have done if we truly and sincerely ask for forgiveness and salvation.

I will pray for your new journey and pray that every step that you take brings you closer to God and His beloved Son.

 

[Mihail_63]

Dear brother!
This story, as same as, you to happen very often. I'm had this story too. We are walking in church take there good emotions
then retuning home and through 1-2 weeks again feeling yourself hopeless then again
we are walking in church... and so on.
We may all life doing so.
I's my advice. Finish to walk in churches
where doing nothing and cry only. But find
so church (and this is in our time very difficult) where something doing for God.
Then you will have peace in yours heart.
With love, Mihail. (Forgive me for bad English.)

 

[heron]

Hi (Ms.) Roachi, what a great experience. I sometimes find that emotional healing takes place when I am in a service, and I don't even know all the things God is doing inside me... I just know He is working.

I hope that you continue to be built up in your faith. Church will not always be like this -- the faith walk is different every day. But God knows what's in your heart, what is going on each day, and what you need each day.

It is hard to believe He wants us, that he wants that father-child relationship. Reading His promises and words to His people helps anchor that in.

Try to keep that fresh, daily... otherwise we lose track of His viewpoint and start taking on our own. (Which was where we were before we made our decisions to accept grace.)

Welcome to God's family!