Hey everyone. i know i post these random topics all the time that are basically me just feeling sorry for myself. sorry. I just came for some final prayers. When i think about God and faith i see a great future, but me being the pessimistic person that i am, i reject those feelings for more dreadful and hopeless ones. I am about to make the biggest step i have ever made in my entire life. i don't know which way it will go, but there are only 2. The life i don't want and the life that i have always dreamed of. I don't want to walk this alone and every time i think about doing this i want to throw up, but I have to get this done. Please pray for me, please. thank you all so much.