- Jun 1, 2019
- 19
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- Country
- United States
- Gender
- Male
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
I'm new... so howdy.
I've been a Christian I'd say for the last month, before that I was an atheist when I lost my faith almost ten years ago. Things changed and I've found god or I should say god found me. My life has been a struggle in some ways. I remember what mainly caused me to lose my faith was when I discovered that I was gay or at least had homosexual tendencies. I was angry and I was really young maybe around fourteen. My mom lost her faith around that time and it felt like a relief as I let mine go as well. I can tell you one thing when the bible says Satan is the accuser of the brethren it isn't kidding... For the longest time I was plagued with horrifying night terrors when I was young. I would call out for god to help me in my dreams and call for Jesus when I was being held down unable to move with a shapeless figure sitting on my chest. When I called out for Christ the dream would end... but when I did lose my faith and took up the label as atheist my night terrors ended. I was left alone by whatever caused them. Time passed and for a time there was a time when I would attack other Christians verbally trying to belittle them... and to be honest it felt good to do that. It felt easy. It's a part of past that I'm not proud of. When I became a Christian again it wasn't on a whim god reached down to me and man did he mess me up... a feeling I couldn't explain took over me I broke down in tears but I felt so good as if all the weight of the world around me was lifted up off of my shoulders I seen a vision of me being baptized again which I will be soon. God has helped me so much over the past month I've felt happier then ever and I've been going to church whenever I can and when I do go it's such a great place to be in an assembly of god...
Well I wrote a block of text and gave my life story but I just wanted you guys to know a little about me and maybe just maybe some of you are people that I've belittled in the past in another place or site or out in public and if you are I just want to say I'm sorry and I was wrong.
God is great.
I look forward to talking with the great people on this forum.
I've been a Christian I'd say for the last month, before that I was an atheist when I lost my faith almost ten years ago. Things changed and I've found god or I should say god found me. My life has been a struggle in some ways. I remember what mainly caused me to lose my faith was when I discovered that I was gay or at least had homosexual tendencies. I was angry and I was really young maybe around fourteen. My mom lost her faith around that time and it felt like a relief as I let mine go as well. I can tell you one thing when the bible says Satan is the accuser of the brethren it isn't kidding... For the longest time I was plagued with horrifying night terrors when I was young. I would call out for god to help me in my dreams and call for Jesus when I was being held down unable to move with a shapeless figure sitting on my chest. When I called out for Christ the dream would end... but when I did lose my faith and took up the label as atheist my night terrors ended. I was left alone by whatever caused them. Time passed and for a time there was a time when I would attack other Christians verbally trying to belittle them... and to be honest it felt good to do that. It felt easy. It's a part of past that I'm not proud of. When I became a Christian again it wasn't on a whim god reached down to me and man did he mess me up... a feeling I couldn't explain took over me I broke down in tears but I felt so good as if all the weight of the world around me was lifted up off of my shoulders I seen a vision of me being baptized again which I will be soon. God has helped me so much over the past month I've felt happier then ever and I've been going to church whenever I can and when I do go it's such a great place to be in an assembly of god...
Well I wrote a block of text and gave my life story but I just wanted you guys to know a little about me and maybe just maybe some of you are people that I've belittled in the past in another place or site or out in public and if you are I just want to say I'm sorry and I was wrong.
God is great.
I look forward to talking with the great people on this forum.
