What is the best way to deal with intrusive thoughts of false doctrine?
I used to believe in eternal recurrence {that you live your particular life an infinite number of times, and make the same decisions, like a movie on infinite loop}. Sometimes I get frequent and intense feelings of deja vu. Even though I know the cause of it {state or context dependent recall that you can't remember experiencing}, I still get these thoughts that this is "proof of eternal recurrence." Sometimes when particularly bad things happen I think "it sucks that I will have to experience that again." Or if good things happen, "it's too bad I won't be able to skip to this."
I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't even known if intrusive thoughts are what to call this. I just get these really terrible thoughts that sound like they originate from me, convincing me that this or that is "proof" of whatever, and if I think that they are just intrusive thoughts, I think that "I know they're not."
The idea of any other belief being the truth terrifies me, because if the Bible isn't real, then I am definitely going to whatever hell exists because that is what I deserve. Even saying that, my intrusive thoughts say that I am clinging to what I "know" is a false belief out of fear.
I am probably not making much sense. I don't even know how this happened. I'm a Christian, I was baptized. I honestly believed Christ died for my sins. I still believe that, or at least, I think I do, but again, my intrusive thoughts or whatever tell me that I don't, because if I did I wouldn't be having these thoughts. It really is infuriating. Every time I try to argue with myself that this or that proves Christianity or disproves paganism, my intrusive thoughts or whatever say "but you don't really believe that." Please advise.
I used to believe in eternal recurrence {that you live your particular life an infinite number of times, and make the same decisions, like a movie on infinite loop}. Sometimes I get frequent and intense feelings of deja vu. Even though I know the cause of it {state or context dependent recall that you can't remember experiencing}, I still get these thoughts that this is "proof of eternal recurrence." Sometimes when particularly bad things happen I think "it sucks that I will have to experience that again." Or if good things happen, "it's too bad I won't be able to skip to this."
I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't even known if intrusive thoughts are what to call this. I just get these really terrible thoughts that sound like they originate from me, convincing me that this or that is "proof" of whatever, and if I think that they are just intrusive thoughts, I think that "I know they're not."
The idea of any other belief being the truth terrifies me, because if the Bible isn't real, then I am definitely going to whatever hell exists because that is what I deserve. Even saying that, my intrusive thoughts say that I am clinging to what I "know" is a false belief out of fear.
I am probably not making much sense. I don't even know how this happened. I'm a Christian, I was baptized. I honestly believed Christ died for my sins. I still believe that, or at least, I think I do, but again, my intrusive thoughts or whatever tell me that I don't, because if I did I wouldn't be having these thoughts. It really is infuriating. Every time I try to argue with myself that this or that proves Christianity or disproves paganism, my intrusive thoughts or whatever say "but you don't really believe that." Please advise.
I'll pray for you.