Bob8102
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David: I have the same struggle. Only it has been going on four over fourteen years for me. I have religious OCD and it sounds like you might, as well. You might want to go to a psychiatrist (preferably a Christian one) and see if he/she diagnoses you with OCD or some other anxiety disorder. If so, they may be able to prescribe meds. However, in my case, I take meds, but they are not enough. No amount of medication/counseling is going to save my soul. Years ago, on Christian Forums, I posted a link to a poem. I don't for sure remember the title, but the first line is "I gave my life to Christ about a thousand times." Unfortunately, in Googling that line just now, I did not noticeably get a link to that poem. If it is possible to do a search on my posts, which have come under both bob8102 and robert8102, you might find that link. In any case, the poem includes the line, "So I prayed again to firm cement it, making sure I really meant it." The man did this about a thousand times. He finally concludes that he met the real Jesus though reading the Word.
Pastor JD Greear has written a book, Stop Asking Jesus Into Your Heart: How to know for sure you are saved. I have read this book more than once (it's a relatively short book) and still keep referring to it. One of my recent posts is the complete text of an appendix in this book. I also have, and have read, a book for Christians with OCD, Strivings Within - The OCD Christian, by Mitzi VanCleeve.
Sometimes, I so seriously give my life to Christ that I'm SURE I am saved - for a brief time. Then the doubt returns. I have both OCD and wavering faith. I will give my life to Christ, I think sincerely, and concentrate on Him by a conscious act of my will, for one to a few moments. Then I waver away. That I concentrate on Jesus, by a conscious act of my will, but only for up to a few moments at a time, repeatedly, means that I have severely wavering faith. Did I get saved at one of those brief moments? I don't know.
Pastor JD Greear has written a book, Stop Asking Jesus Into Your Heart: How to know for sure you are saved. I have read this book more than once (it's a relatively short book) and still keep referring to it. One of my recent posts is the complete text of an appendix in this book. I also have, and have read, a book for Christians with OCD, Strivings Within - The OCD Christian, by Mitzi VanCleeve.
Sometimes, I so seriously give my life to Christ that I'm SURE I am saved - for a brief time. Then the doubt returns. I have both OCD and wavering faith. I will give my life to Christ, I think sincerely, and concentrate on Him by a conscious act of my will, for one to a few moments. Then I waver away. That I concentrate on Jesus, by a conscious act of my will, but only for up to a few moments at a time, repeatedly, means that I have severely wavering faith. Did I get saved at one of those brief moments? I don't know.
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