How long since you last self injured?

[Protinus]

Hi purples!! Welcome and I hope you come and read here before the feelings start again!!

 

[Gwen'sMom]

You matter to us Gorgeous. Please come and talk to us instead of hurting yourself.

Thanks for your kind words Steffi. I actually spoke to my family Dr this morning and he is going to push my appointment ahead with a psychologist. Who knows, maybe I will get something out of it. I was cruel to speak that way about my husband. He does love me deeply. It's just that we are going through the "bad times" in "the good times and the bad". It's really scary to know that by cutting my arms it makes the other pain go away.

 

[Soulwings]

umm, not quite 36 hours. I'm struggling. Please pray for me.

 

[Protinus]

Soulwings: it might help to make a connection here beofre thoughts cause you to act. Practice saying that you are in control and that the feelings are not controlling you!! That you are IN control means that the cutting feelings don't have power of you, causing you to act!

You are strong as long as you say no to hurting yourself.

"Jesus, take me, I am yours"

 

[Soulwings]

It's been about half an hour now.

I'm sorry.
I can't really say "no" because I see nothing wrong with it, unless it leads people to anger, which it doesn't as long as they don't know. I don't know. I'm just... not strong I guess.

 

[Protinus]

It's been about half an hour now.

I'm sorry.
I can't really say "no" because I see nothing wrong with it, unless it leads people to anger, which it doesn't as long as they don't know. I don't know. I'm just... not strong I guess.

Soulwings: we can not be angry with you, we are trying to help you and we are not your immediate family. But if you no that anger will stop you, why not focus on that?? Focus on the people who care about you getting mad at you!! Let this short circuit these feelings before they start.

And you are strong...you're strong enough to come here and admit that "people getting angry" might change your behavior!! So don't do it!!

Many prayers and I will be thinking of you tonight knowing that you are not going to harm yourself.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

It's been about half an hour now.

I'm sorry.
I can't really say "no" because I see nothing wrong with it, unless it leads people to anger, which it doesn't as long as they don't know. I don't know. I'm just... not strong I guess.

April, I've seen how strong you are over the past few weeks - you have amazing strength. We all fall, but falling is not failing. We're always here for you Beautiful!

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Thanks for your kind words Steffi. I actually spoke to my family Dr this morning and he is going to push my appointment ahead with a psychologist. Who knows, maybe I will get something out of it. I was cruel to speak that way about my husband. He does love me deeply. It's just that we are going through the "bad times" in "the good times and the bad".

You're allowed to be frustrated - we're not going to hold it against you! I hope your appointment goes well.

It's really scary to know that by cutting my arms it makes the other pain go away.

Cutting releases beta endorphins into the system which act as a sort of tranquiliser for the body and allows a person to 'get past' other pain. However it's possibly a permanent injury for pain that won't last forever. The same beta endorphins are relased into your system when you accidentally hurt yourself doing something - that's why when you get hurt, you know you should be hurt but the pain is delayed.
On a more positive note, beta endorphins also come from exercising. If it's possible, go for a jog when you get thoughts that could harm you. It should do the same trick and not leave you feeling bad about hurting yourself afterwards.

We're always here for you Gorgeous!
Shalom,
Steffi

 

[TheLordismyRock]

Two Days ago, I feel so ashmed

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Two Days ago, I feel so ashmed

Two days is great! From what I know, it's pretty hard to just stop anything and walk away from it forever. I know I've said this far too many times but, just to emphasise it, falling isn't failing. The fact that you can get back up again and not give up shows me that you have amazing strength. I have no doubts in my mind that you can do this

 

[Niamh]

Other than a minor slip-up in October, it has been a whole year!

 

[Teshi]

Other than a minor slip-up in October, it has been a whole year!

 

[Protinus]

Other than a minor slip-up in October, it has been a whole year!

Oustanding...what are the things that you feel like sharing that have sustained you and have helped you?

 

[texannurse]

2 weeks and 5 days! I really hope to make it to a month - maybe even years. Almost ready to quit!

 

[Protinus]

2 weeks and 5 days! I really hope to make it to a month - maybe even years. Almost ready to quit!

Great job and much comfort and peace I wish for you!!

 

[texannurse]

Great job and much comfort and peace I wish for you!!

thanks!

 

[Arianna]

9 days

 

[Arianna]

2 weeks and 5 days! I really hope to make it to a month - maybe even years. Almost ready to quit!

that is great!

 

[JCFollower828]

its been a little over a month for me.

 

[Arianna]

10 days