how do I let go?

[Godsgirl481]

Gracie710, Thank you. My main problem with God is simply trust. If you can't trust Him, then forget about giving all your hurts and issues and pain to Him. I have been abused so much in my life, that I can't seem to allow anyone close enough to me to trust them, especially God. But He has his ways of showing me that He is still there, waiting on me. And He is not going anywhere.

 

[luv4godremains]

Thanks guys, I think I need to spend some time with God tonight, venting, and telling him how I really feel, cos, again, as usual, I have been hiding how I feel, but how can I not when there is no one around me who knows how I feel, why, and understands me?! oh well, I need to thank him for last night, I had a really good time, I went clubbing with a couple of mates, and for once, when I was happy,it was real!!! YAY!!! So, God is still working in me on this stuff, showing me that not all guys wanna use me and abuse me! that was definately seen in one person, he was rli nice, unfortunatley wanted my mate! lol, oh well, gave me some hope! more faith in Guys too! God bless

 

[lj4jc]

I know how you all feel. I sometimes think that if God cared he wouldn't let what happened to me, happen to me. But he does Care- He is there. It is sin in the world that allows things to happen.

 

[Yasha]

I know how you all feel. I sometimes think that if God cared he wouldn't let what happened to me, happen to me. But he does Care- He is there. It is sin in the world that allows things to happen.

I soooo get this feeling! I often wonder how He could plant me HERE...in what I am in...lately, that has been a real hard focus! ...and a sort of futility, too! But, I know that He can and will break the teeth of fulitiy's hard bite on my heart in these circumstances. I sometimes, wait in tears, but..

It is sin in the world that allows things to happen.

...and, the sin in me. I have to count on His hand holding mine EVERY DAY, because there is no where else to turn. All my barriers fall down. All my barred windows crumble like ash to the wind. I HAVE to hang on tight, cause I don't know WHERE else to look for what Jesus is and does and keeps for me.

Wish it wasn't so cold here on this rock sometimes. Wish the sun were out every day. Wish the dawn would break....He holds all those keys. Wish I better knew how to open my grubby little mitts and receive them....hoping for His patience to be my salvation. I really feel like a slow-learner.

 

[lj4jc]

I get so down that sometimes the only thing that holds me is the hope of one day being in Heaven. This in itself makes the fight to survive in this world worth living.

Wish it wasn't so cold here on this rock sometimes. Wish the sun were out every day. Wish the dawn would break....He holds all those keys. Wish I better knew how to open my grubby little mitts and receive them....hoping for His patience to be my salvation. I really feel like a slow-learner.

 

[beloved42]

ok, at church on sunday, they asked for anyone to get prayer if they struggle with depression, well, I decided that I should take a step forward in my life and get prayer at church. one of my friends prayed for me, she said that God was saying to me to "fly away, let go, let go of the chains holding me" and that I needed to let go of the pst, but really, I have no idea how to!? I have been getting flachbacks again, and just don't see how he can expect me to let go when I'm getting them, let alone without them! I really want to, I do, I just don't know how, any one here have any ideas?

as scripture says I can do all things through Christ who strgenthens me say it andd bleiv it becsue not only have someone pra for you but you can do it your self depending on your reigion if you beleive in blessed oil use it put in on the doorways all over you house annoint every nook and cranny where the enemy nd hid and RUN HIM OUT and you will no longer have any problems. Lord I just come to y ou in JEsus precious name FAther asking you to bless this child of your Ather I pray LOD and you giv her your all mightly power to run the devil up oout of her house. And in the Might name of JESUS Satan I run you up out of her house her spirit and her dreams for you have no poer or control go back fro wher you came from in JESUS name. Lord just touch her spirit Fater and show her what she needs to do LORD. Jst semnd you aangels to incamp sround her house so that that tey may not have any control t all. In Jesus name AMEN.

 

[lj4jc]

WE all have a cross to bear. I think God will speak to you and to all others using this weakness. He wants you to know he is there. Reach out to him and pray. Ask him to give you hope and an answer. Let him use you through this.

 

[Gracie710]

When I start to blame God and get angry at Him, sort of like He was the person who didn't intervene in my abuse even though he could have, I think of Jesus. He could have been angry with the Father and blamed Him for His plan, what He was expected to do -- why that way? But then I remember that Jesus understands me, my pain, the betrayal at the hands of other people, the shame, the pain --

but in the middle of it, He is there -- His kind and strong presence is manifested in every flashback, every horrible tidbit of memory -- He is there and He cares. This is faith, knowing that He is the One who understands me. What other God would ever do what He did out of sheer love?

 

[Yasha]

He could have been angry with the Father and blamed Him for His plan, what He was expected to do -- why that way? But then I remember that Jesus understands me, my pain, the betrayal at the hands of other people, the shame, the pain --
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You know? that is sheer revelation to me! I never noticed that before, that Jesus' Dad didn't intervene, either. I know that definitely makes Jesus a person to be identified with in the pain. Though, Jesus did this by mutual consent to the Father's will, we did not.

Anyhoo, I never saw that placement of Jesus who could have been angry with His Father. It sure makes a difference when He was forewarned and willing though, huh? I KNOW if I had been forewarned about the abuse I would endure through emotional, physical and verbal channels BEFORE I got married, I would have RUN.....FAST!!!! So, I am obviously no Jesus. But, if I had been warned and had chosen to stay, then I would not 'feel' abused but more of a sacrifice offering to atone. I guess as I go forward, NOW in recognition of the personal cost, and stay, I DO see myself as a sacrifice for atonement and healing. I lean SOOOO heavy on Jesus in this placement, because HE is the only person who can show me how to walk here and BRING restoration, healing and true Godly sacrifice to bear for my guys. Any other leader for me would bring harm to them. Any motivation, short of their deliverance and redemption, would harm them. No one has EVER done a better job of voluntary self-denial to secure reconciliation than Jesus!

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Is it possible that the only way for the abused to redeem the ones who have abused them, is to rise again?! Rise again as an overcomer, in the wholeness created by the Father of Love! ....food for thought...



Whatever, the truth is, Gracie710, you have revealed a new angle from which I can explore this placement...and I thank you.

 

[luv4godremains]

Wow, you guys are amazing, soo many different angles have been shown to me through this, soo many different lights been put on this! thanksyou soo much!
I am gonna pray for the pain of abusers to be taken away, that maybe it will stop them from repeating old history! that they would turn and see God, not be ashamed to the point of being to depressed to repent and feel completely unwprthy of turning to him for help, because Jesus is their only way out!
God is our Father, he is the one who loves more than any other, God IS love! God is everything we ever needed, and he will help all of us deal with this stuff!
God bless you all.
*hugs*

 

[lj4jc]

When I start to blame God and get angry at Him, sort of like He was the person who didn't intervene in my abuse even though he could have, I think of Jesus. He could have been angry with the Father and blamed Him for His plan, what He was expected to do -- why that way? But then I remember that Jesus understands me, my pain, the betrayal at the hands of other people, the shame, the pain --

but in the middle of it, He is there -- His kind and strong presence is manifested in every flashback, every horrible tidbit of memory -- He is there and He cares. This is faith, knowing that He is the One who understands me. What other God would ever do what He did out of sheer love?

What an awesome thought. And God could have kept Jesus from feeling the pain as well, but he didn't. God even turned his back on his own Son for a moment. Something more to think on.

 

[Godsgirl481]

I've been getting mad at God a lot lately...not sure why.

 

[lj4jc]

Sometimes I get mad at God, because I don't understand why he is allowing certain things to happen to me. I usually rant and rave at him, and when my venting is done, I apologize. I believe he understands, and he loves us all the same.

 

[Godsgirl481]

i get mad at him a lot...cause the hurt never goes away...even when i try really hard to be like he wants me to be...it just never goes away.....

 

[lj4jc]

Quit trying. You can't do it on your own. God can give you the wisom and the way.

Let's Pray- Dear God- please give Bam the wisdom to handle this anger. Help Bams to not let this anger draw a wedge between Bams and you. I trust that you in your wisdom has the answer. Help Bam to find it.-In Jesus's name - AMEN

 

[luv4godremains]

yer man, God is the one who can deal with this, he is the one with the strength, I think that's something we can never really hear enough because many people never really listen, they hear, but don't listen or understand!
it's ok to get angry at God though, God bless
try give it to him, even though it's a really hard thing to do!

 

[reeann]

Sometimes we have to let go daily. Our pasts and our hurts sometimes keeps us from really living. Tell your self "Jesus loves just the way I am."

That is my prayer each morning to JEsus. I must dedicate my day to Him and ask Him for HIs help in meeting my goals for this day. Its hard to get mad at God when we have never asked Him for His help. For me, it usually meant I did not want HIs help, did not trust His help, in certain areas. It is still hard for me but keeping focus on the NOW, God does pour out some strength to me to live in HIs will for today.
Blessings
Reeann

 

[lj4jc]

And he will continue to. He loves you- and He grieves when you grieve. And wants a close relationship with you.

 

[phylis]

I know from first hand experience how difficult it is recovering. My number one suggestion would be to never EVER hold how you feel in. It will literally drive you out of your mind. If you are feeling anything, anger or depression, talk. It will make life so much easier.

By keeping a close relationship with those around me, and holding on to what I hold dear I am recovering.

 

[luv4godremains]

I know from first hand experience how difficult it is recovering. My number one suggestion would be to never EVER hold how you feel in. It will literally drive you out of your mind. If you are feeling anything, anger or depression, talk. It will make life so much easier.

By keeping a close relationship with those around me, and holding on to what I hold dear I am recovering.

who can you takl to though, who can anyone really trust to talk to? I dunno, it just seems like the only person you can ever trust to keep things quiet or to not judge you or get all preachy on you is God, but it just doesn't help takling to him at the moment, cos it's not talking to someone in person!