Speaking from experience here:
As a kid of age 7, my mom began to take my sisters and I to church. Sunday School teachers taught us about all the stories in the Bible and about who God is, who Jesus is, and all the things churches of long ago taught. I was "saved" at age 12, baptized in the Holy Spirit at 16, and baptized in water not just once but twice, in my life. I am now 70 years old, living through a pandemic with the rest of the world. But I am at peace in the midst of this horrendous storm. There is, incredibly, no fear in me.
I can tell you this, dear one. I challenged God to prove Himself to me, for real, in my mid-40's or I was going to walk away from everything I was taught, up to that point. I was going to just toss it all; the weekly church habit, the "christian-ese", the phrases, the fake faces acting like they cared about me, ALL the religious garbage ... that had become nothing to me. But one thing remained: I wanted to know God. I HAD to know for sure IF He existed. I desperately needed to know how to cope with the destroyed life I had lived, a life that was tearing me apart. I had caused so much heartache to myself, and to my children, from the stupid choices I had made. Divorced three times, and having left a 7 year long relationship with yet another man, I was broken...
...and so, I angrily challenged God, demanded that He let me know him, for real, or leave me alone forever. And then I cried, sobs so deep that I choked on my own saliva at times. Thank God! At that very moment, a dramatic change took place within me. It was like a light was shining inside me, and I HAD to find my Bible. But I had to work all day, far from home, before I could even get to it. The story of my life from that point on, even as I recall it now, is incredible to me, more than 25 years later.
That moment changed my life! The difficulties AND the miracles, the joys I experienced for the first time, actually knowing Him as God's daughter, were worth everything! Even the years prior to that moment were worth all of the pain - because it drove me to the point where I challenged God to prove Himself to me. My story is filled with incredible things that defy belief - unless you know the ONE, true God. Only God can teach us who He is, and He does so via His Holy Spirit. That Bible reading you're doing is empty because you haven't come to this point in your life yet. But if you get to that point where I found myself, that Bible will take on a life you never dreamed of. It's your link to HIM, when you're ready to see. I now understand what it means to "devour" the Word, because I did it.
I will tell you the rest of this story, if you want to hear it.
