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You really needs to see a doctor. You have all the classic signs of depression. Prayers for you and your guidance.How can I be healed? I came out of the occult when I read the bible, but my time in it did much damage to my spirit. I’ve been in an abusive marriage for over ten years with a husband that thinks I’m an enemy and ‘evil’ because I have different viewpoints to him about a lot of things in life. He constantly criticises and accuses me and always has done. I’ve suffered from depression as a result of all this and also been abused mentally and physically by the mental health system. I was forced on medication against my will. The medication caused me to drift away from my relationship with God and to not care about anything or anyone anymore. I couldn’t concentrate enough to read my bible anymore and stopped caring to. My heart became cold and my faith disintegrated. I then ended up committing adultery, there is no excuse I know, but it was a distraction from the pain and I was happy to have the attention of someone who seemed to care. But now, I can’t even feel emotion anymore. I cannot feel happy or sad. I cannot cry a tear no matter how hard I try. I feel like an automaton. Like a shell, with no spirit inside... dead. I hate myself for committing adultery and don’t even want to be here anymore. I used to be the sort of person that would cry with others through their pain, because I was born with deep empathy and compassion. Now I only use my ‘memory’ of what it feels like to have compassion to try and understand others, because I don’t have it. Now I feel absolutely nothing. I even feel empty when my child hugs me. How can I get back to old me? The one that had a loving and compassionate heart? I have prayed and asked God to grant me a new heart and to renew a right spirit in me so so so many times, but I feel no different and I don’t feel connected to Him or hear his voice. I feel lost..and damaged.
You are traumatized.How can I be healed? I came out of the occult when I read the bible, but my time in it did much damage to my spirit. I’ve been in an abusive marriage for over ten years with a husband that thinks I’m an enemy and ‘evil’ because I have different viewpoints to him about a lot of things in life. He constantly criticises and accuses me and always has done. I’ve suffered from depression as a result of all this and also been abused mentally and physically by the mental health system. I was forced on medication against my will. The medication caused me to drift away from my relationship with God and to not care about anything or anyone anymore. I couldn’t concentrate enough to read my bible anymore and stopped caring to. My heart became cold and my faith disintegrated. I then ended up committing adultery, there is no excuse I know, but it was a distraction from the pain and I was happy to have the attention of someone who seemed to care. But now, I can’t even feel emotion anymore. I cannot feel happy or sad. I cannot cry a tear no matter how hard I try. I feel like an automaton. Like a shell, with no spirit inside... dead. I hate myself for committing adultery and don’t even want to be here anymore. I used to be the sort of person that would cry with others through their pain, because I was born with deep empathy and compassion. Now I only use my ‘memory’ of what it feels like to have compassion to try and understand others, because I don’t have it. Now I feel absolutely nothing. I even feel empty when my child hugs me. How can I get back to old me? The one that had a loving and compassionate heart? I have prayed and asked God to grant me a new heart and to renew a right spirit in me so so so many times, but I feel no different and I don’t feel connected to Him or hear his voice. I feel lost..and damaged.
You really needs to see a doctor. You have all the classic signs of depression. Prayers for you and your guidance.
I think you just need to find the right doctor. Climbing out of depression is never easy even with professional help. I know. I’ve been there. There is the issue when you feel this way you are not thinking clearly and we rarely think or make the right decisions. It’s tough but a lot depends on us. But please know I have the utmost sympathy for you and pray that you get the help and healing you need.Thanks Michie, but doctors have done me more harm than good when it comes to depression.
How can I be healed? I came out of the occult when I read the bible, but my time in it did much damage to my spirit. I’ve been in an abusive marriage for over ten years with a husband that thinks I’m an enemy and ‘evil’ because I have different viewpoints to him about a lot of things in life. He constantly criticises and accuses me and always has done. I’ve suffered from depression as a result of all this and also been abused mentally and physically by the mental health system. I was forced on medication against my will. The medication caused me to drift away from my relationship with God and to not care about anything or anyone anymore. I couldn’t concentrate enough to read my bible anymore and stopped caring to. My heart became cold and my faith disintegrated. I then ended up committing adultery, there is no excuse I know, but it was a distraction from the pain and I was happy to have the attention of someone who seemed to care. But now, I can’t even feel emotion anymore. I cannot feel happy or sad. I cannot cry a tear no matter how hard I try. I feel like an automaton. Like a shell, with no spirit inside... dead. I hate myself for committing adultery and don’t even want to be here anymore. I used to be the sort of person that would cry with others through their pain, because I was born with deep empathy and compassion. Now I only use my ‘memory’ of what it feels like to have compassion to try and understand others, because I don’t have it. Now I feel absolutely nothing. I even feel empty when my child hugs me. How can I get back to old me? The one that had a loving and compassionate heart? I have prayed and asked God to grant me a new heart and to renew a right spirit in me so so so many times, but I feel no different and I don’t feel connected to Him or hear his voice. I feel lost..and damaged.
How can I be healed? I came out of the occult when I read the bible, but my time in it did much damage to my spirit. I’ve been in an abusive marriage for ....