I am nearly at the lowest of my low. I nearly hate God and I am ready to simply give up. I also wonder, if it's like this, and has been always been like this, is there really this loving caring God????I don't want to get into details, but I hate who I am. I hate where I am in this life. The ONLY ONLY good thing in my life is I have two great teens. Everything else, me, life, is a desperate horrid struggle. I am so tired.