Faith in one thing and doubt in another. I understand. How about the teachings you accept by faith without any doubt? Do you revisit them, as reviewing to be true or not?
I've revisited a few things, same basic conclusion, but better underpinnings.
Just to give you an example. People explain to me the idea of God. It sounds pretty anthropomorphic… OK I accept God as this “super human” not bound by space and time with supreme but still human-like abilities. Then I’m thinking, does He really have to be like us? Why do we assign our humanity to Him? In a very expanded way, of course. So I always question everything. It’s really hard for me to accept any idea as the one and only and the final truth, an axiom.
A few things to keep in mind about what we teach about God as you explore this:
- God is a Person, but far greater and more complex than human. Jesus of course came in human flesh, but there is the greatness of the Father, and the Holy Spirit's presence and work, and how hard the Trinity is to really understand. The more I think about that, the less I see God as some glorified superman.
- God gave us our humanity, though it became corrupted later. So the personal qualities we see in God are actually a bit of a backwards view - he gave us the Imago Dei, making us in his image. We are lesser of course, he is more of a Person than any of us is, in a sense - yet holy and not corrupted like we are. We can use our humanity to understand certain concepts of God and his relationship to us, but we shouldn't go too far with it. Projecting on another human being is bad enough, let alone projecting on God.
Even in science, I read a textbook or talk to a specialist in a field and sometimes see dogmatism. It’s okay to say this is what we propose, but it’s another thing to be certain it’s the way it is and to outright reject whatever is in disagreement with the accepted and established postulates.
It sure can feel that way when people don't see the process and everything that was looked at. That being said, I don't think certain discoveries are going away.
So going back to the idea of God, what if we are wrong. Or in our model of God, what if He’s a God of the solar system only for example. Or of the Milky Galaxy only.
That's closer to a Mormon view of God, from my understanding. They teach that good enough Mormons get to be gods over their own planets someday. Christianity rejects this of course.
To answer your question, there's too many variables for one "for sure" answer. If God were to be only some sort of regional God, one could claim that we would still be under his domain, and subject to his standards and at his mercy. Or one could suggest that there's another god somewhere else whom we would be under instead at some point in the future. But you would then need to go back to how that all got set up, and who would have set that up.
In most if the OT, God was the only force in the Universe, later on the Jewish thought and much more so the Christian thought switched to good vs evil, God vs Satan dualism, which worked better to explained human suffering. What if in reality, if we accept the dualist nature of the supernatural spiritual world, what if God and Satan are more or less equal forces? Like in Zoroastrianism. And what if there won’t be a final battle where the good wins once and for all?
If that were the case, I would think one would need to be firmly on one side or the other. And if we're going to do that, then consider how God told us to treat each other in the Ten Commandments:
Honor your father and your mother.
You shall not murder.
You shall not commit adultery.
You shall not steal.
You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.
You shall not covet anything that is your neighbor's.
Now, if people are going to firmly pick the other side, that would obligate them to do things more like this:
Dishonor your father and your mother.
Commit murder.
Commit adultery.
Steal.
Bear false witness against your neighbor.
Covet anything and everything that belongs to your neighbor.
When we have people firmly on the side of doing the opposite of the last six commandments, we have a world that I don't want to live in.
So it’s not so much about separating what is more fundamental truth and what is a dependancy or falsely imagined dependancy. It’s more about approaching all doctrines within faith with intellectual honesty of “let’s scrutinize everything”.
You're exploring, so that's more of where you're at. When it comes to faith decisions though, that's where the dependencies come in. To accept it or reject it.