I know too many people who have lived thru it and I am a Jewish Christian so what frightens me most is the new type of neo nazi breed that is on the uprise God help us all. I pray for these poor blind souls.
I have been to Germany, though I haven't made myself walk through any of what is left of the camps yet.
I find it hard to read about, hear about or watch any of it.
Like you, Denial of the events that took place from the onset of Nazis reaching power... I have a hard time handling at all... and it is frightening.
I have family that escaped before, during and after... some blood relation, and some that are related via marriage.
For someone to deny it happens, denies the fact that my people were meticulous (and still are!) in note and record keeping...
Every person was made to have a number (like social security sort of) - and if you were with questionable political groups, religious or racial groups, you were rounded up in droves by the numbers in each city, town, village, hovel and house.
It started in Austria, Hungary and Germany, then to all areas that had Volksdeutsch, and then all invaded territories.
People didn't believe it was happening when they were told, it was too strange, too foreign, too wrong... and no one spoke up, because all were in disbelief.
People thought their neighbors were good and honest people, and then if you were "Fingered" as the bad group - you were put out as rudely and cruelly as possible to face death however it may come.
PBS had a few good documentaries on the holocaust that interviewed people who lived through the round-ups and survived the camps.
History Channel/Discovery also have very informative documentaries... there have been other documentaries that go from eye witness accounts as well as military footage and documents which are now declassified.
The dvd/vhs "Paperclips" was also well done.
I have relatives that were able to hide because documents in their area weren't as meticulous,
and they were catholic... they both had blonde hair and blue eyes and were able to "escape" - though not mentally. They left Yugoslavia, and some of their family stayed. I don't know how many died, I am afraid to ask.
I know there are still relatives in that area, but they are few.
My husband's grandmother only spoke Croatian, so she was 'inspected' and processed through one of the camps on the border before being allowed in. Her cousin (third?), who later became her husband was able to vouch for her. He spoke German and Croatian and had left before.
They both made it through somehow, and I think Opa served in the military, though I think in the 50s. I know in the 60s-70s he worked as a groundskeeper at a couple of schools in Rastatt in what was West Germany near the French Border.
My dad and mom's side of the family who were German Jews had assimilated into various churches (Methodist, Lutheran, Baptist etc) and most had moved over here to the USA before all of this went down, and all able bodied men served in WWII.
I don't know if any served in Germany or not - but I know to believe the vets and those who survived, as well as those who kept the notes themselves.
When Berlin was in decline, the orders went out to begin destroying paperwork, but to be honest, the paperwork that was found and processed the most (and not lost) were that of the "final solution".
The plan was to eradicate us, and leave only enough history to talk of a "past civilization" that "was" and "will be no more".
I have been to sites where we were taken from, and I have seen the torn and otherwise desecrated scriptures, prayer books, talliot... buildings.. and most of all
people.
We all lost something in WWII.. on both sides - German and Jewish.
We weren't the only ones being removed though. Gypsies, and other racial groups, anyone "different" Than the ideal, Invalids (including mentally and physically handicapped), elderly & babies that were not "perfect" were not allowed to be.
People were indoctrinated hatefully against all things different, especially things that didn't support Nazism, National Socialism... or the religion of state which was something between being atheist, agnostic and pagan.
The "state" either supported or toppled clergy and churches.
The SDA were one of the first to go, and I have family (by marriage) that immigrated to Australia to get away from that...
While there were people within churches that did many things, it was very hard; because spies were everywhere. Phones and telegraphs and letters were inspected. Movement was watched and reported.
EVERYONE had a file.
What makes it worse, is it was like that in East Germany until the Stasi-government was toppled in 89.... and the mentality is still there in the "Oessies" - or so it seems to us from "the west" ("Wessies") and the States.
For me it is a scary thought still to think of going to Bavaria or the former East.. and I saw the Berlin Wall fall on TV, as well as other improvements via TV/Radio/internet/newspapers...
If you don't learn from your mistakes, you keep propagating them.
In Germany the anti-nazi rules are so harsh, and the way history is taught, it is hard on the children; especially those of us who are Jewish, as you are told how awful Germans are as a people for allowing it to happen.
The bad thing though, is that people didn't know it was happening, and those who did, were either in shock, turned a blind eye/ear, or helped keep it going by fanning the fire.
All are at fault, and even the USA had a hand here and there, which makes me even sicker
Since 6th grade I have had a drive to study WWII and WWI history (kind of in that order ironicly) - and I haven't stopped.
To hear people who deny the history and actuality, it is hard - very hard for me to stay silent... it boils my blood... I - by proxy through my ancestors, escaped only by the grace of G-d... whilst still other blood relations didn't.
That's a scary thought, and very sobering.
There are movies out there that help one come to terms with what happened, one of which Is "Rosenstrasse" - [r rating] which shows some of what happened in berlin when the German women married to German-Jewish men decided to stand up to the government (They let those men go)....
Downfall [R rating due to violence, propaganda and language], which shows Hitler's last days and what happened a little after those last days - very accurate...
[Both are recent German films btw and subtitled only]
Paperclips (a documentary about a school who had no idea about the holocaust and came to grips with it by collecting 6 million paperclips, a train car from the era and making their own museum at the school)...
Swing Kids (this one is rated R due to language, sexuality etc) - the POV of "swing dancing" kids.. and nazism
In the Presence of mine enemies (warsaw ghetto uprising, a rabbi and his daughter and the cruelties) - also rated R ...
I love you, I love you not - with Claire Danes - about a girl who is Jewish and is shown the mean face of Anti-semitism at her school, and coming to terms with what her Nana lived through (who was in Auschwitz)...
They are not all documentaries but were interesting and helps one put themselves in other's shoes.
I have read "IBM and the Holocaust" which was informative, as well as several survivors accounts, including accounts of those who were in hiding.
Just some thoughts..