Hi

[angelkiss]

I've been reading some of the threads here and I want you all to know my heart truly goes out to each and every one of you. Please, if I can have just a few minutes of your time, I'd like to try and give you all at least a small amount of hope.

I was a cutter for many years. I felt as most of you feel now. It seemed as if I could never stop no matter how hard I tried.
When it got to the point of not being able to hide the marks all over my body, of course people asked questions. The more they asked the worse I felt and I'd do it all over again.
I finally realized two things.
One: No matter how many marks I put on the outside of my body, the pain on the inside was still there.
Two: I then realized that my body was God's temple, and when I inflicted pain upon myself, I was inflicting pain upon God as well.

I know that it's easier said than done when you try to stop. But, I must say that it is in fact possible. It takes much discipline and you have to have your heart set on really getting over it....just as anything else. And I'm the first to admit, that at times it seems that that's not enough. When you add a lot of prayer to those two things, it becomes easier and easier to get over it.

Afore anyone gets the wrong impression, I'm not trying to make it sound easy, for I know first hand that it's not. It takes encouragement, it takes discipline, prayer, and coping skills are a MAJOR plus.

Just stop and ask yourself, is having to explain all these marks really worth it?..............I have the daily reminders that I look at each day.......they remind me of a wearily traveled road, and that I don't have to inflict pain upon myself if I hurt someone's feelings, etc.
All I have to do is go to that person and ask for forgiveness.....If someone hurts me, I tell them how I feel. I don't take it out on myself anymore.
My prayers are with each and every one of you, and if you would like to talk, please feel free to pm me anytime.
's and es!!

 

[HolyOne87]

thanks for that post..that def. made me think. My good friend Brian wants me to go to a psychiatrist for help..and before I was really hesitant, but now, I might actually do it. I do not think I can take marking up my body anymore.
Thank you again for posting that. It was very helpful for me.

 

[angelkiss]

thanks for that post..that def. made me think. My good friend Brian wants me to go to a psychiatrist for help..and before I was really hesitant, but now, I might actually do it. I do not think I can take marking up my body anymore.
Thank you again for posting that. It was very helpful for me.

I'm glad to know that this was helpful. Seeking help is the first step to recovery and that my friend, is a BIG step. You won't regret it, I promise. If anything, when you look back you'll be more thankful that you took that step when you did.
Praying for you,
's and es!!

 

[angelkiss]

I wanted to share this with all who read for I have found to be very encouraging: God Bless, 's and es!!

 

[Arianna]

Thanks, Angelkiss

 

[angelkiss]

You're very welcome Arianna


I want to say something else for ponder:

When things become a major bummer in our lives, and it seems that everything is caving in around us, of all the pain we feel.........imagine the pain that Christ went through for us. I don't think that all of our pain combined could compare to what He felt.
So next time life gets you down and it seems that you just can't push anymore, think about what Christ went through and how He kept pushing.........and He did it all for each and every one of us.
God Bless,
's and es!!

 

[HolyOne87]

loved that..thank you!

 

[angelkiss]

loved that..thank you!

You're welcome! 's and es!!