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[formykidsiwill]

Hi all. I'm hoping to make today my first day of recovery. I'm praying very hard for strength.

Hi ProPhotog! I hope you will come back, I am a day late as usual for me..

How did your first day go?

I said a prayer for you. Just know you don't have to do this alone. There is more than likely an AA locally where you are I hope you will seek support there, and I suggest you go to as many as you can every day until you get to where you don't have to drink anymore. YOU CAN DO IT. God will help you, I promise. WE are living proof of that. Don't give up. You are loved.

Blessings,
B~

 

[formykidsiwill]

Morning B~

Meeting went FAB! It was so good to be there. It really does feel like home!

Yes, humans are human. I am no different. I will love them thru Jesus, and continue to do my job with joy

s & s,
Wendy

Hi Wendy! I am so happy that your meeting went well. I am going to one today, I can't wait. It's only 7:30, the meeting starts at 12:00. I really need to go. I miss everyone. I haven't been since last week.

Anyway, this thread is great, I am starting to feel like you guys are some of my key people... I look foreword to getting on here and reading everything.

Blessings,
B~

 

[PrairieGurl]

Hi Wendy! I am so happy that your meeting went well. I am going to one today, I can't wait. It's only 7:30, the meeting starts at 12:00. I really need to go. I miss everyone. I haven't been since last week.

Anyway, this thread is great, I am starting to feel like you guys are some of my key people... I look foreword to getting on here and reading everything.

Blessings,
B~

AWW, My Brandy ,
Notice how I'm on this thread starting in the am now?
That would be because of you and your encourageing, love filled posts that brighten my day.
Thankyou!
This is my oneline AA meeting! I so enjoy this thread and must thank Norm again for starting it
I'm going to a meeting tonight too!

Thankful for you ALL!
Wendy

 

[formykidsiwill]

AWW, My Brandy ,
Notice how I'm on this thread starting in the am now?
That would be because of you and your encourageing, love filled posts that brighten my day.
Thankyou!
This is my oneline AA meeting! I so enjoy this thread and must thank Norm again for starting it
I'm going to a meeting tonight too!

Thankful for you ALL!
Wendy

Aww, THANK YOU Wendy. I really needed to know that what I say helps you, after all we keep it by giving it away! I love you.

Blessings,
B~

 

[formykidsiwill]

Here's another poem I found. This might be a bit strange, but anyway, I hope maybe someone can relate. FEW can relate to this kind of hopelessness but we alcoholics. Thank God, I truly dont' think most people could survive the torment we've escaped. Anyway, here it is.

As is true always of me
I have become for now
a piping piper
in tune with no melody.

Many years I've spent in waste
trying to escape what was
always bound to be my fate.

At an early age this began
for even then lonliness seemed
an only true friend...

Never having loved me
I tried so foolishlessly
to breathe....with squeezed
and restriced airways
always closing me off
the breath of life
has been my cost...

For reasons unknown to me
where before there were two
now there is left one
no reason it seems for the choice
of who would stay and who would go..

Putting my hand to the Plow
onword alone
I finally go....

My heart in times past
has tried to stop and carry
a load too heavy,
and I am weary...

For it matters not that
I cry alone
and it matters little
if anyone understands
because I alone
and my two hands
will plow this dirt
until the soil is good.

What choice do I have
this won't go away
and no matter how hard i try
tears stream down my face....

Only for now to hope I cling
hope that all of this will one
day bring to surface what
has been buried,
for this alone
is a burdon I carry.....

Looking around there's no one
left here to blame
and no excuse is going this
to change

Accountable I am,
whether I like it or not,
for here is the lonely lot,
When I realize this
it makes me cringe
my pillow is soaked at night
with tears of sorrow
my pen and paper
meet again and again
on every morrow'

I'll forget what lies
behind plowed up in dirt
and for the Day
this one alone
I shall continually work.....
​

This was actually a moment of truth for me, because I always wanted someone to do this for me, and it was a blessing in discuise (SP?) to finally be able to stop blaming and stop making excuses and get up and love myself and take care of myself, this helped me, but at the time it felt like a curse..eek: )

Blessings,
B~
​

 

[PrairieGurl]

BEAUTIFUL B~. I have tears streaming down my face now
I am just so thankful that I am not alone now, for Jesus walks beside me. Carrying me alot of the time.
He was always there...I just was hurting so much I couldn't sense that.

You are such a talented woman B~.

s & s & a whole lot of love,
Wendy

 

[justanobserver]

Hi all. I'm hoping to make today my first day of recovery. I'm praying very hard for strength.

Oh wow! First day (well, 2nd day now) Hi ProPhotog!! This is a day or two later but I am so glad to hear of your decision! How are you doing???? You are in my thoughts!!!

welcome to the Recovery forum!

 

[justanobserver]

Anyway, this thread is great, I am starting to feel like you guys are some of my key people... I look foreword to getting on here and reading everything.

Blessings,
B~

I know what you mean. even when I dont feel like posting or even logging on, I do come here to read everyone else's day/experiences/hopes/strengths/etc. Been so many times when I am in a "mood" and hosting my own pity party (and I know how to throw a party! ), I read the different posts here and IT DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE! for me it does and I thank each adn everyone that posts from their heart.

Its nice to read about the good days, when everything os going just peaches BUT theres the bad hair days, the really really bad days when someone is a decision away from going back out and reading the thoughts of support and encouragement and LOVE helps me more than I can say.

 

[justanobserver]

most of us I think have the AA "Big Book". for those who dont or spend time online and prefer to read that way, the Big Book is online:

http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/en_tableofcnt.cfm

its in PDF format but I will refer to it time to time when I am online and am looking for a reference or a thought.

 

[justanobserver]

formykidsiwill - what a powerful poem! it is obvious that the write is one who has been there. you have this way of insightful expression in putting to words what a lot of us think. you need to get your stuff published!

thank you for posting this. will be looking forward to another one!

 

[newcreature]

Hey all! Formykidsiwill, what another great poem. You certainly have an expressive way with words! Thank you for sharing with us. It really helps me.

 

[newcreature]

Hope all are enjoying another day of sobriety!

My son has gotten written up more than 15 times since school started! EEK!!!!!! I have asked the school to call me, and his teacher, if he starts acting up. They seem to have a problem with this, and it is driving me nuts.

I am willing to go there and volunteer, but it isn't, seemingly working out on their end. The counselor there has been MIA for days at a time, and the help that could be offered to my son is taking so long.

The counselor is one of us, and a friend of mine, and he has not been returning my calls. I fear the worst.

Anyhoo, just thought I would share with you guys.

I am praying for all of you!

Elaine

 

[newcreature]

Sorry I am writing so much! I know the issue with my son will improve in time, I just feel helpless right now.

Went to a meeting the other day, and the topic was on acceptance, and how people came to a level of acceptance. One thing that stuck out to me the most was what one man said: "You cannot worry enough, try enough, cry enough..... to change anything. You have to, as the steps suggest, put your faith and trust in God."

What a simple concept, but one so hard to actually give to God.

 

[formykidsiwill]

Sorry I am writing so much! I know the issue with my son will improve in time, I just feel helpless right now.

Went to a meeting the other day, and the topic was on acceptance, and how people came to a level of acceptance. One thing that stuck out to me the most was what one man said: "You cannot worry enough, try enough, cry enough..... to change anything. You have to, as the steps suggest, put your faith and trust in God."

What a simple concept, but one so hard to actually give to God.

Hey Newcreature! I relate to what your talking about. My oldest son is challenging.
Acceptance is hard. I always use to think I had control over everything, that somehow I could change the situation. Ofcourse, there are some things that I just can't change no matter how much I cry (LOL) or beg, or reason with, etc....anyway, I do hope things will ease up for you with the school situation. I wish desperately I had some really good advice about what you could do, but I draw a blank. You most likely already have the answers you seek anyway, you just need support, so here I am offering my support.
My prayers are also with you.

Blessings,
B~

 

[PrairieGurl]

Sorry I am writing so much! I know the issue with my son will improve in time, I just feel helpless right now.

Went to a meeting the other day, and the topic was on acceptance, and how people came to a level of acceptance. One thing that stuck out to me the most was what one man said: "You cannot worry enough, try enough, cry enough..... to change anything. You have to, as the steps suggest, put your faith and trust in God."

What a simple concept, but one so hard to actually give to God.

Morning All

Elaine...I wonder if all of us 'Recoveries' have at least one 'unique' child. (I realize all children are unique, but I think you know what I mean )
My 17 year old chooses to learn the hard way. Much like his Mom did, scarey thought He has always been strong willed (to put it mildly). I knew with the way he was born (emerg c-section) that he would be a 'unique' bundle. And at age 3, after his 6' 2" Dad spanked him, he put his chubby little hands on his hips and said, "You didn't urt me". It's hard to believe 14 years have passed since then. As grateful as I am that he is not in jail and other situations that many children are involved in...he has made some poor choices.
One night when I come home from a meeting and wanted to sign in to CF to share with yous my experience...he said, "Well I'm sorry that we're not all alcoholics and you have no one to talk with at home".
I didn't reply but I thought, dear Son, a little over 6 months ago you were occassionally drinking coolers, you've now moved to mickies of vodka... What to do, love him, listen to him and no nagging. I told both boys (the other Son 18) that they know what choices are right and which are wrong...It is now between God and them. I will not stop praying, but I will not be the Holy Spirit in you boys life.

Your request Elaine is written down and lifted up!

s & s,
Wendy
PS and you thought you wrote too much lol

 

[justanobserver]

evening all. just reflecting on memory lane tonight and wanted to stop in and use the thread as a road stop. ever have a huge part of your past/life that you just cant walk away from? I go thru that a lot, its hard to forget some things, desire to return to something I cannot go back to, wake up thru out the night from the dreams that sometimes are real and sometimes are changed with time or what I wished it was changed to.

So, i will put on my headphones, play my music and try to lose the thoughts in the songs or distract myself with reading/posting here at CF.

just wanted to stop by.

 

[formykidsiwill]

evening all. just reflecting on memory lane tonight and wanted to stop in and use the thread as a road stop. ever have a huge part of your past/life that you just cant walk away from? I go thru that a lot, its hard to forget some things, desire to return to something I cannot go back to, wake up thru out the night from the dreams that sometimes are real and sometimes are changed with time or what I wished it was changed to.

So, i will put on my headphones, play my music and try to lose the thoughts in the songs or distract myself with reading/posting here at CF.

just wanted to stop by.

Hi Justanobserver! Glad you stopped by, lol... I'm doing the same thing.

I'm having some family over today for my son's birthday so I'm off to get ready for that...

Blessings,
B~

 

[justanobserver]

Hi Justanobserver! Glad you stopped by, lol... I'm doing the same thing.

I'm having some family over today for my son's birthday so I'm off to get ready for that...

Blessings,
B~

I trust your birthday party went well. And happy birthday to your son. Just watchin movies, posting here and watching the 49ers trying to catch up to the Cardinals. dont think its gonna happen tho.

 

[PrairieGurl]

I trust your birthday party went well. And happy birthday to your son. Just watchin movies, posting here and watching the 49ers trying to catch up to the Cardinals. dont think its gonna happen tho.

Sorry Norm,
The 49ers lost tonight.

Hope they win next time
Wendy

Going to dentist specialist Monday without the help of any drugs.

 

[formykidsiwill]

Sorry Norm,
The 49ers lost tonight.

Hope they win next time
Wendy

Going to dentist specialist Monday without the help of any drugs.

Good Morning Wendy!

I hope your dentist apt. goes okay, your braver than me..but that's a wise choice.

The birthday party was nice, being around family is always good. My son's birthday is actually today, Sep 11th. He wanted to stay home from school, lol. I told him no, never know when you might need those sick days.

Blessings,
B~