hi, my name is cocaine

[yaslmiri]

hi, i'm new to this forum and i decided it would be best to kind of introduce myself. I don't get to tell any of my story to my family, and i feel that it's healthy to get it all out, so if this sounds too much like i'm pinning for attention you canleave, that's fine, i just want somewhere to type it out.

i'm 17, 6 foot tall, 100 pounds, i sleep about three times a week, i almost never eat, i sold as much of my stuff as i could for coke and when i do it i get nothing from it but a brief period of feeling normalicy. i lay in bed every night and wear baggy clothes so that my parents won't catch on, i could never deal with them if they found out. it would be too shameful, and the worst part is that i physically cannot stop.

 

[Janiceihg]

Oh yes - you can stop. Don't allow yourself to be captive by a lie.

No one says it would be easy though.

Question is - do you desire to stop? ( I am guessing you are referring to "can't stop using")

 

[yaslmiri]

Oh yes - you can stop. Don't allow yourself to be captive by a lie.

No one says it would be easy though.

Question is - do you desire to stop? ( I am guessing you are referring to "can't stop using")

i try, but then when i start getting all shaky and sick i just can't stop myself. it's really hard.

 

[scraparcs]

I know it's not going to be easy, but have you talked with your doctor about this? You're going to have to be under medical supervision to quit safely.

Praying for you.

 

[Janiceihg]

i try, but then when i start getting all shaky and sick i just can't stop myself. it's really hard.

Oh, I know its really hard. I know. Been there.

You said you try, but you didn't say -- Oh yes, I really want to stop.

I have come to believe we must WANT or desire to stop more than we want anything else.

What steps have you taken to stop?

I believe it will require more than just telling yourself you're not going to do it.

There have to be steps, you need a plan...what are you going to do when you crave? What are you going to do if someone offers you something? What are you going to do when your buzz wears off? Who are you gonna call? Who are you going to talk too?

Having no real plan will only set you up for failure.

If you REALLY want to stop, get yourself to NA, get an NA book from the library.....educate yourself on some tools to use, learn your triggers - then steer clear of them....start changing the way you think.

Change people, places, things. The people - places - things you know now are triggers for the most part.

And I believe you need to find someone who can help yuo tell your parents. Living with shame and the fear of it is no way to get healthy. Its more than just getting clean - you need to get healthy. You can't really do that when you are living a lie.

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} to you dear one.

 

[BLESSED_KiSSY]

oh, my dear brother in Christ
the LORD knows your heart...He knows if you really want to quit.
i pray that our LORD helps you with your struggles.
the battle is way far from being over....i pray that the LORD strengthens you.
if you need someone to talk to...feel free to PM or e-mail me.

Much love in Christ,
Anna

 

[jerry ralph]

Whoever the Son sets free is free indeed.........get that inside of you, tell yourself this, speak this outloud. If you desire to be free from the addiction speak word of recovery, not words of defeat........Jesus said you can have what you say (Mark 11:23-25), not to say what you have...........you are not alone, get to a NA meeting as soon as you can. Go to your pastor and get a support group and ask for prayers............there is a wonderful life out there for those of us who have been in the grips of addiction, but have made the decision to live clean..........jerry ralph

check out my blog http://www.jerryengland.blogspot.com

 

[mcpotbever]

I remember when i was 14 i had my first go at hash. ppl always tell you its fine its not a hard drug. wot they dnt tell you is az humans our brains adapt to things and we always crav 4 the bigger rush. at 16 i was taking LSD and party poppers then just a year later i found myelf doin class As like heroin and cocain. on day i woke up alone and still waisted from the night before id lost every thing, id spent every dime i had, i had no job no faith snd id lost the love ov my life, she couldnt handle the lies and desiet and to this day it kills me tht i treated lik nuthing and let drugs take priority over her and evrythin else. i went to a church tht day and colapsed in front ov a preist and i told him i was addicted to cocain. over the last 6 months iv cleaned up and am helping out at a youth center hrlping kids addicted to drugs.
i gusse the first thing you need to do is go to sum1 u can trust i.e a preist or a youth worker an tell them your addicted to cocain and just ask for their help. they are traind 4 this thing and everything you tell them is always confidechal.

God luck with it anyway bro dont let thing get as bad as i did you dont want to loz everthing you love, its not ezy but with help im sure youll get through it.

God bless dude

P.S i read my testimony to my parents at the start of the year they were heart broken but they are my parents and even thou i fuked up they love and suport me and im sure your old will forgive and forget

 

[loveiseverywhere]

You are in my prayers. I was addicted to crack for ten years until the Lord delivered me.

I tried 12 step recovery and it didn't work for me. Then I accepted Jesus in my heart and realized that God doesn't want me to be sick.

I smoked crack all the time. I sold my things, sold myself, lied, stole cheated, did heroin, morphine...you name it. I've been to the pit of hell and back.

I put God first now and do his will, not mine. God does not want us to be sick.

 

[livingword26]

As others have said, you have to turn to Christ first. If you have asked for forgiveness, and invited Him to be Lord of your life, then you are going to have to expose yourself. You need help. You need treatment. You are going to have to tell your parents and ride the consiquenses. Do it right now before it happens again. The more it goes on, the more damage it does. I know. I have been there.

 

[customrig]

Start smoking crack, you get higher!!!!!
I think its what jesus would have wanted

 

[w00dy]

if never breakdown, how will you tell when you are broken? tell your parents youve got a problem, is the thought of shame worse than your life at the moment? they will do what is right for you

 

[gmadison]

yaslmiri,
i never thought that i would be clean for 6 months. the word of God says that those who honor God, He will also honor. Where there is no vision the people perish. here's a vision for you. Jesus saves (anyone, from anything, anytime). keep believing. God bless you.

hi, i'm new to this forum and i decided it would be best to kind of introduce myself. I don't get to tell any of my story to my family, and i feel that it's healthy to get it all out, so if this sounds too much like i'm pinning for attention you canleave, that's fine, i just want somewhere to type it out.

i'm 17, 6 foot tall, 100 pounds, i sleep about three times a week, i almost never eat, i sold as much of my stuff as i could for coke and when i do it i get nothing from it but a brief period of feeling normalicy. i lay in bed every night and wear baggy clothes so that my parents won't catch on, i could never deal with them if they found out. it would be too shameful, and the worst part is that i physically cannot stop.

 

[Norseman]

Yaslmiri, you need help. If you cannot stop yourself by yourself, then you will continue losing weight, and running out of money. Right? You're already at a dangerously low weight, and if you run out of money you'll either have to steal (and keep losing weight, and probably anger God), or face qutting cold turkey (which is a lot rougher than stopping by yourself and using increasingly smaller amounts). Please, please, tell your parents about this and check yourself into a rehab clinic. If you value your own life, you need help. To keep this secret may very well kill you. I cannot stress enough that you must have the courage to tell your parents, and ask them for help. They, more than anyone else, deserve to know, and they, more than anyone else, can help you. Trust them, and trust that you can overcome this.

Just say "Mom, dad, I've been doing cocaine and I need to stop. I can't control myself. Help me, please."

 

[littlenova]

i love someone dealing with cocaine addiction,it has to be the most evil thing ive seen...it takes and takes,u are it's captive & u must get help. the heart can only take so much of this constant speed. the cartilage in your nose gets eaten away.
praying for all on coke tonight.think of the long term effects. i know i have no room to talk as i use drugs for recreation,i'm not innocent of this but cocaine is deadly done daily. gosh,please stop.