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[Kristina84]

Hey everyone! Okay, Here is a story i would like to share with you and hopefully get some feed back.
For the longest time i was with this guy who i feel in love with from the frist time i saw him. At the time when i met him I wasnt close to God. So i ended up sleeping with him The relationship had its ups and its downs.. But through it all i felt like if we were to break up I would Die.. I felt i could NEVER live with out this guy! He was in the army so he was Deployed and when he was away we broke up and i forgot about it... And my Uncle was a pastor and he told me to write down on a peace of paper what i wanted in a Guy So i did. and forgot about it.
then the EX comes back and with him all the old feelings. We get back then he breaks up with me.. i felt like dying I pray and pray and pray never really getting over him.. then He wants me back.. And im HAPPY! so we get back together....
*SIDE NOTE* things that happened when we were together... and broken up...
- He cheated on me
-He hide a video camera on me of us having sex
-He was obsessed with porn.
-And when we broke up he was with another girl... and when he got back with me he cheated on me again with the girl he was with when we had broken up....

That last side note is what im going off of.. so when i found out he cheated on me i was OVER IT! well at that time i was and he freaked out said he couldnt never live with out me.. and so on so i got back with him like the stupid girl i am... and he took me to Mexico and so on.... Well I started to feel the way i did for him when i first met him.. Like i couldnt live with out him! And then God put his hand in my life.. and brought a guy to me just like the one i wrote about in my letter to him.. like what i wanted in a guy.. (not saying it was the guy...) Anyways i knew from there i had to get the guy outta my life! and everynight i was cry and pray about telling God i was weak with out him and that it was VERY hard for me! And it went on for about a month of my just breaking up with him and crying and praying about it every night!
Finaly i walked away and didnt look back.. well at least untill not and one other time... He IMed me on AIM and told me he was going to be deployed again and that he wanted to see me. So i told him he could come over but i didnt want him to touch me cuz i didnt want to have sex. Im weak thats all i have to say.. well only with him that is.. cuz i have had sex with him in the past.... I have gone to God about it. But i feel he is mad at me. I feel sick to my stomach.. I dont know And then i found out he was with another girl the same night and that made me feel even worse! God help me PLEASE GOD FORGIVE ME IM SO WEAK! When i think about it i feel like crying.. pLEASE I would like to talk to someone.. PM me or Just write back I just want help please!

 

[livin4thebigman]

I'd love to talk to you about what's going on. I definately have a lot to say regarding your current situation. Shoot me an IM - Livin4theBigman - and I would love to help you out.


-You brother

-Matt

 

[Ailanthus]

Wow, that's quite a story.... my first impulse was to say how stupid it was to keep going back to him, but that wouldn't be very constructive, would it? We've all made some REALLY stupid mistakes in our lives, and sometimes we even make them AFTER we accept Christ into our lives.
My only advice for you is to stand up and be strong. It sounds like you have truly repented of your wrong doings;however, part of true repentance is making a strong effort not to committ that sin again, so keep that in mind.
You are not the same person anymore. The woman who made these mistakes, in a sense, doesn't exist. When you gave your life to Christ, you were reborn, and with that comes the glory and the strength of God on your side. Put on your spiritual armor, and keep your mind focused on God!

 

[Johnnz]

Hi Kristina84



The guy you had a relationship was a manipulative person. He uses people for what he wants from them Girls are for sex, not for loving. His interest in porn and videos of your having sex are highly indicative of a morally, and possibly psychologically unhealthy person.



You will feel pretty bad. Sex is an intimate part of us, at any level. Yes, you are forgiven. You need to stand on that. But you were also subject to unclean desires (sex without love). When we get intimate we can 'take on' the spirit of the other person, the spiritual environment that the person has created around themselves. Know that Jesus washes you from that too. Just pray "Lord Jesus, wash me and separate me from all the wrong influences of (his name).



What you can't erase are the memories and your own sense of letting yourself down. It is so sad that young people just do not recognise that sex is a lot bigger than they first imagined.



Bless you



John

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