Hello, I need Help.

[Mankind]

I origanally posted in the General struggles Forum and had really nice people respond with some encouraging words.
I didnt actually know this Sexual stuggles one was here. so I would like to post here as it suits my situation better.
I have read some of the posts here and feel a little better knowing Im not the only one going through this.

Im 33 years old and have struggled privatly with Masturbation over Homosexuall thoughts and desires since I was 12.
A couple of times as a young adult I gave in to sexual acts with transvestites and a Gay man. I stuggle now with Gay porn, [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] and transvestite lust.
The hard thing is I dont feel attracted to men at all, but only when the lust builds in me and I have to release.
The pain of this sin only drives me to Fear God emmensly and a deep self loathing which I know will end me if I dont try and face this demon head on. I just dont know how as my faith is not strong.
This is the first time I have told anyone about my problem and I thank you all for your time.

 

[Fowler]

Hey there!
Ask forgivness. GOd never forgets you. Satan tried to take you away from God. Just repent in front of God. God forgives you when you ask Him. Dont be afraid to do it.
First of all get rid of your know what kind of material. Burn all CDs. Ask you friends to set passwords on all you know what kind of sites.
Try to find reliable person. Just talk to him. Its really good when you DONT keep all your sorrows in you.
When you feel lust and want to release it JUST PRAY! PRAY PRAY PRAY! READ Holy BIBLE! Ask God to take away your pain.
I am 18 male. I was dating a beautiful girl but she dumped me... I was <staff edit> off. I thought that mas* wiill take away all my pain. Will help me forhet her. But it doesnt. It take you deeper into lust. ASK GOD TO HELP YOU! YOU WILL NEVER DO IT ALONE!
God Bless you! All forum is yours!

 

[Fowler]

Hey there!
Its your first victory! Its reall hard to tell other people...
Repent all your sins. Ask God to forgive you! God forgives you when you ask Him!
God DOesnt hate his sons or daughters. He is merciful to all.
Delete all discs with you know what material. Ask your friends to instll special programs which can block you know what sites. . Lust appears in your mind So you have to eliminate all possible sources of it.
Try to find reliable person so you could talk with him.
Whenever you feel rising lust in you, ask God to take it away. PRAY! Only with Gods help you will purify your soul.
Forum is yours! We are all will be glad to help you! God Bless You!

 

[faithful follower]

No sin is bigger than any other (except for the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit). I believe we beat ourselves up more for sexual temptation and sin than we do for other sins. Smoking is destroying our body, the temple of the Holy Spirit. Gluttony is also. Putting our job, hobby, another person before God is sin. We are all far from perfect. The feelings of condemnation don't come from God. He speaks to us softly and lovingly. When I had a struggle with compulsive Mas*********, I prayed even while indulging in the act. I opened my heart to my Father and asked for Him to help me stop and to lead me in the ways of the Lord. We can't hide our actions or thoughts from God, no matter how much we try. But remember, there is nothing we can do to make Him love us any more, and there is nothing we can do to make Him love us any less. He loves us the same all the time.

Praying for you.

 

[Criada]

Remember, whilst the Holy Spirit convicts us of sin, it is a conviction that leads to life, not to condemnation and self-loathing.
God forgives you, brother, totally and completely, as soon as you bring it to Him.
Not only that, but He makes you righteous again. No matter how many times you fall, every time, He forgives.
There are practical things you can do... if you are viewing porn online, install a filter... I use K9, which is very good, and hard to get around if you give your password to someone else.
Accountability partners also help... if you know that someone is going to ask whether you have fallen, it is quite a strong incentive not to... those conversations are not easy!

I'm praying for you, brother.
God bless you.

 

[Pmel]

Just remember this, dude. No sin is greater than another. All sins are the same in God's eyes. I think the more you fear it, the worse it'll get. God forgives everything, and He knows that you're trying your best. He will help you if you keep going to Him, so hang in there. It's not as bad as you think. Sex can be very confusing sometimes.

 

[UnitynLove]

Forgive Yourself
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[Johnnz]

The pain of this sin only drives me to Fear God emmensly and a deep self loathing which I know will end me if I dont try and face this demon head on. I just dont know how as my faith is not strong.

It is not helpful to be terrified of God. Whatever you have been told He is far more concerned about such a negative view of Him that what you see as your 'problem'. Self loathing is destructive. God does not share that view of you. In fact I suspect he is more concerned with those who are far too uptight about sexual matters than many who actually struggle with some aspect of sexuality. He made us to be very sexual people, so He is not going to unnecessarily write you off over struggles with that part of your life. Seeing that He loves you whatever will be far more helpful and healing.

John
NZ