having trouble..

[Nickieb03]

I was just diagnosed with Pure O OCD and I have HOCD but its starting to feel so real. My whole life I been attracted to men..I have a boyfriend who I love dearly and always pictured myself getting married to a man and having children but I feel like these thoughts are starting to become real. I don't think of men anymore and every man I look at I feel blank and my mind is like yup you want a woman. But I don't! I want a man...a husband..a father to my children...i've wanted that since I was 5 and that just doesn't go away does it? Then why do I have these thoughts? could all the verbal abuse i've gotten from boyfriends in my past messed me up today? Would Reparative therapy work? I do not want to be with a woman..the thought freaks me out. If you ask God he shall give you what you want right? I've even contacted healing priests and everything and the thoughts are still here and i'm going crazy and can't take it anymore.

 

[writergirl4god]

Hi Nickie. I don't know anything about Pure O OCD or HOCD...is there medicine that will help to curb the thoughts?

You've said that you have a boyfriend you love dearly, and that the thought of being with a woman freaks you out, so I would guess that your illness is causing these unwanted thoughts. Saying a prayer for you!