- Mar 9, 2011
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As some of you know, I'm young in my faith. I'm having a particularly hard night tonight dealing with some demons from the past. They rear their heads at such bad times. I know this is just Satan trying to get to me, but he hs hit me in one of the most sensitive areas. I've been praying since I woke up at 3 AM. I went to bed sick to my stomach with a headache, and my wife woke me up to tell me she smelled cigarette smoke in the house. I do not smoke in the house, but my father in law and my dad were awake after we went to bed. I don't ask much, but I do expect the respect of not smoking in the house. My wife is pregnant and I have a 6 month old. Cigarettes are hard enough on an adult, let alone a child. She said I woke up easier than she has ever seen. Maybe that's because I have so much on my mind from what happened earlier. I was told by a pastor once that when you start to stumble, Satan will rear his ugly head and try to pull you as far down as he can. This is one of those times for me. I need prayer tonight moreso than ever (it seems that way anyway, I always need prayer). But to see someone fall out of the church once, and maybe twice if the future may hold it, is enough to send me to my knees. Especially when that person is as close to your heart as my dad is mine. I've never really had a problem sleeping, but tonight is an exception. I think I'm going to go back to looking around for an answer to whatever it is I'm looking for right now. I'm sure that if I find the right verse in the Bible, all will be well again, or it will put me on the right track and the Lord will let me know what I need to do. God Bless.
-Wes
-Wes