Has this happened to any one on CF?

[JJ_79]

Well i just re-commited my self to Christ/God a few nights ago for the first time in a long time.

My Relationship with Christ/God has been a shaky one. It has been like that since i first started believing in Christ/God in 1999. I would have my highs and lows. What i mean by that is for months i would pray, read my devotions, read the bible go to church, then after a while i hit a low and i just don't care about being religious, and go back to my old ways that i am trying to break.

I have started to read my devotions again, and started praying in the morning, or when ever i feel like i need to pray.

But something strange happens in the evening?? When i feel tired and i ready for bed this is what i do. I read my decision magazine, then i read the bible, and then i start to pray. But the think is that after reading the bile, decision magazine and praying. I am wide away, and i can't sleep?? I am like re-enerigized? It's kind of hard to explain why this happens?

When i am in tune with god i find i don't worry as much, and i am at peace. Christ/God has changed a lot in my life since i first started beliving in him in 1999. A lot of it has been things i never thought i could change.

I also feel like i want to be a mission worker, or maybe even a preist? I find all this hard to do since all that i have finished is high school and i have taken some courses in college, but i am not sure what to do what my life. School is a mess for me at the momment.

Well i went a little over beard about my self again, my bad.

Well if any ones has suggestions advice please help me out thanks.

 

[Silent Enigma]

Suggestions regarding what, specifially? What to do with your life?

 

[vinc]

Wait for God's call before plunging into Full-time Ministry (like Missions Worker or Priest or Pastor). A Man of God said "God usually calls very few people to Full-time Ministry work. The rest of us all Christians have to live as a Good Witness (and/or as a Disciple of Christ) for Christ wherever we are."

As a Christian, i would strive to live a God-Approved life everyday wherever i am (either at School or College or Job or at Home). We need to be faithful to God in our everyday life. We can learn and know more about God through any circumstances which come our way in life.

As regards to your not-feeling-sleepy after reading the Bible at night, its really a good thing. That only shows your desire for God and personal Bible-study. I guess, maybe thatz why many God-Servants used to wake-up quiet early in the morning for their personal devotion (or quiet time) instead of late in the night. Anyway this is upto you.

Hope that helps in anyway.

JMO
Vincent

 

[Rafael]

Everywhere is a missionfield. Keep on studying and praying. Fill yourself with God's Word and seek His will for your life. The doors will open for you along the way, as God will go before you to protect you in all your ways if you abide in Him. It's a dangerous world, but you are becoming an overcomer. Give it time and be content with what God puts before you in life. If it is family, school, work, whatever is before you, do it with all your heart and as unto the Lord. He will bless your life with strength and great peace.

Eph 6:7 Work with enthusiasm, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people.

Col 3:23 Work hard and cheerfully at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people.

Col 3:16 Let the words of Christ, in all their richness, live in your hearts and make you wise. Use his words to teach and counsel each other. Sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs to God with thankful hearts.

 

[Endure2]

jj_79

well praise God man, hes restored you and your seeing the power of God work in your life, use that energy to press farther in to the Lord, it may be a little unerving, but its good.

the new desires to be these things for God are the gifts and callings of God on your life coming out in you, there not your desires, there his desires for you, in you. continue to seek the Lord and be lead by him as he is already leading you.
your in the process, theres not much anyone needs to or can say, just stay in the process or flow of whats already happening in your life, and God will take you many places and do many things with you.
and if God places it in your heart to be a pastor, mission worker, something great, then you run with it no matter what anyone says. God has called me to be a preacher and i believe a pastor also. he doesnt call everyone to be one, but if God puts it in your heart, then theres no reason to feel like he wouldnt or that you should doubt it, brother run with it and do great things for God! GO SAVE THE LOST! GO HEAL THE SICK AND BROKEN HEARTED! BROTHER IM WITH YOU! LETS DO THIS!

and just remember also, mary had something inside of her that no one else on earth understood until God showed them, her own fiance thought to put her away... and sometimes it will take you doing things that seem "strange" and that NO ONE but you and God really know about, to fullfill Gods calling and power in your life. it took that to save the world, a woman to be faithful to God when no one, NO ONE believed her becuase it just didnt make any sense, and it will sometimes require that of you. learn how to hear from God for yourself, and whatever you do in your life, just know that your hearing from God when you doit.

sorry so long.
Godbless,
Lee.

 

[rogsr]

Actually I did go through a similar thing in the begining of my walk with Jesus, and I think it is normal for certain kinds of people. Like, some people go to church their whole lives so when finally actually dedicate their lives to God it is not much of a change, as far as going to church and stuff is concerned. However, people that were not raised up in a church setting(myself included) sometimes have a hard time getting in to the Christian life because it is new to us, however, if you really do have faith and are patient then this turns into an advantage. You see, new comers have a clean slate for God to work with, where as some church people have an entire canvas full of misconseptions that must be erased before any new and true growth can take place.

I will tell you a story that pertains to your calling. When I first had the inclination that God may be calling me into the priesthood I rejected it, I felt guilty for even thinking that I could be a holy man. Every once in a while the thought would again pop up involuntarily and I would subdue it. One morning while I was working at the soup kitchen I asked my friend, their recently ordained chaplain, about what it is to have a calling. He told me that he ran away from God for twenty years until finally realizing that the only thing that would fulfill him as a human being was to serve God. So, he spent years and years in school and became a Chaplain.

If you thing you have a calling then you should probably do some soul searching because taking this on is no joke. It takes time, their are huge obstacles, and you must remain in continous contact with God because the Devil will be trying to make you quit every single day. Accepting your calling is like going off to war, and the war begins the moment that you pick up your cross.

Peace-

 

[JJ_79]

I have to agree, I feel that since the day I re-dedicated my life to God. This time it feels different, I feel that i am under constant attack from the devil. I feel he has come after me harder then he has tried to in the past. I have been praying more and reading more of the bible, and my other christians books more then before.

 

[rogsr]

The mission of the Devil is to trick people into becoming full of despair, because when a person is truly lost in despair then they begin to think they are nothing but animals rather than children of God. Your mission as a servant of Christ is to extract that despair out of their hearts by showing them absolute love, and absolute faith which makes them realize, naturally, that they are not animals but rather children of the Most High God. You must learn that you cannot make anyone come to faith, they come to faith when their hearts are softened, which you can help bring about by being like a clean window that the Light shines through.

All that we can ever hope to be is a clean window, so that the Light of the world can shine through us and eradicate darkness.

Abba, by Your Name save us, and by Your might defend our cause. Amen.

 

[lakesidelady]

No offense, but I'm glad I'm not the only one having ups and downs. I became born-again believer (3 - 6 months ago) after going to church my whole life (43 years). I had been going to a Bible study--it ended in May. A new one was started last night. I thought it would be a good one (John) because that's the book that led me to finally "get it" and be saved. I felt like I was in an advanced Calculus class! Way over my head. Told the pastor that I should study on my own and come back after I grew abit. He convinced me to stay. I look at words now like "glory", "word", and "faith" and they have such different meanings for me now. Everything is so brand new, even the words in the Bible! I want every action, thought and word to be for God's glory and sometimes, inevitabley, I mess up. It's so exciting and at the same time, I'm so emotional right now. Does anyone understand?

 

[rogsr]

I understand....you can only study algebra for so long...then it's time for calculus...God wants us to know, to understand, to feel healthy and loved...

Peace-