hey guys. I really need some support.
My husband refused to repeat something when I asked him and it turned into a huge argument. I am hard of hearing and have constant tinnitus. My hearing loss is around 15-25 decibels, depending on the frequency. It's not severe enough for me to get a hearing aid according to the audiologist.
My husband always asserts his right to not repeat himself and he did that this time. I told him that I often live life from the outside looking in because of how little I can hear. He said that even so, he doesn't have to say anything again and he doesn't want to.
It hurts so bad. I've been crying a lot about it and don't know what to do or say. I've explained my condition to him. We've been together for 10 years, maybe he's just tired of it. Anyway then he gets really angry when I cry. Because I am very sensitive. He seems to take it personally when I get upset, I'm not sure why that's happening.
I am socially isolated because of my hearing problem. Sometimes I pretend to hear what people say just so I don't annoy them with asking them to repeat themselves all the time. Or sometimes I just say "I didn't hear you," to my husband, and leave it at that.
So I really am trying to keep things peaceful, but I am growing weary. I don't have any other family or friends nearby. Right now, God is the only One who gets me, or even knows me. And that's ok because He's my rock. But it's still difficult on a daily basis. Fighting the fight with my Commander, but little fellow infantry. Thank God for our kids. We worship Him together and talk about Him.
Pray for our little church, for us to not grow weary of seeking God while we're in the battleground. And pray that one day my husband will want to have joy in the Lord too.
The local churches here are strange and power-hungry. This is a spiritually desolate zone, very different from where I grew up. I hope to attend a small church soon that has a few people who I love. Please pray for my family and me. There's no doubt in my mind that we're being spiritually attacked.
My husband refused to repeat something when I asked him and it turned into a huge argument. I am hard of hearing and have constant tinnitus. My hearing loss is around 15-25 decibels, depending on the frequency. It's not severe enough for me to get a hearing aid according to the audiologist.
My husband always asserts his right to not repeat himself and he did that this time. I told him that I often live life from the outside looking in because of how little I can hear. He said that even so, he doesn't have to say anything again and he doesn't want to.
It hurts so bad. I've been crying a lot about it and don't know what to do or say. I've explained my condition to him. We've been together for 10 years, maybe he's just tired of it. Anyway then he gets really angry when I cry. Because I am very sensitive. He seems to take it personally when I get upset, I'm not sure why that's happening.
I am socially isolated because of my hearing problem. Sometimes I pretend to hear what people say just so I don't annoy them with asking them to repeat themselves all the time. Or sometimes I just say "I didn't hear you," to my husband, and leave it at that.
So I really am trying to keep things peaceful, but I am growing weary. I don't have any other family or friends nearby. Right now, God is the only One who gets me, or even knows me. And that's ok because He's my rock. But it's still difficult on a daily basis. Fighting the fight with my Commander, but little fellow infantry. Thank God for our kids. We worship Him together and talk about Him.
Pray for our little church, for us to not grow weary of seeking God while we're in the battleground. And pray that one day my husband will want to have joy in the Lord too.
The local churches here are strange and power-hungry. This is a spiritually desolate zone, very different from where I grew up. I hope to attend a small church soon that has a few people who I love. Please pray for my family and me. There's no doubt in my mind that we're being spiritually attacked.