songz777
Spouse first strengthens your marriage
- Apr 5, 2004
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I don't have any faith anymore. Call me what you like, but I have given up. I hear stories of God speaking to people, taking their pain away. Yet I have spent so many nights sobbing alone in my bed, begging for help, pleading for God to take away the pain or at least let me know that he's there. I've spent so many nights reaching up, desperate for him. But I'm just talking to my ceiling. I don't have it in me to try anymore. He has abandoned me or he never loved me in the first place. I'm not sure what to do. I believe he exists still but I don't believe he cares. He wasn't there when I needed him most and I don't know if he ever was.
Not sure what else to say. I just don't think there's a point in calling myself a Christian anymore. I don't know what I believe.
Hi there. No the Lord has not abandoned you. Yes it feels like it, you may feel awful, forgotten rejected, hurt, emotionally hurt etc. I have felt like this in the past when I was single and seeing everyone getting partners even when i had been waiting 26 years. I learnt that God was most loving and faithful. I made a video about this subject on my singles encouragement channel. I hope it helps you in some way.
Blessings on you. John
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